Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 5 episode 5: “You Are Enough”

Happy Sunday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair season 5 episode 5, I realized that you can tell yourself over and over again that you are enough, but you need to truly believe it.  Sometimes that means trusting our instincts and other times that means saying no, but it all comes down to how we view ourselves and perhaps how we want to be viewed.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  

In tonight’s episode, “505,” Helen prepares to make her official debut as Sasha Mann’s girlfriend, but is constantly pressured by others around her.  Meanwhile, Sierra desperately tries to adjust to motherhood, which becomes even more difficult when her own mother arrives in town.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 5 episode 5 are:

5

“I’m so sorry…”

Part one of the episode follows Sierra, as she adjusts to motherhood.  Sierra has been raising baby Eddie by herself for four months and it is clearly taking a toll on her.  Sierra desperately tries to find her balance and tells herself, “Everyday and in every way…today, I am enough.” 

Even though the phrase certainly has a nice ring to it and I think I might try it out myself, Sierra has trouble keeping her cool, especially since baby Eddie will not stop crying.  Sierra goes to an acting audition and initially thinks she did not do a good enough job, but I am more concerned that she decided to leave baby Eddie in the car during the audition…

4

“I just didn’t think men like you existed…except in the movies.”

During Helen’s part of the episode, Helen and Sasha appear to be getting closer and Sasha even tells Helen that he loves her.  Helen is slightly hesitant, but it looks like she does have strong feelings for Sasha, but things get a little bit overwhelming when she learns that she will be basically making a public debut as Sasha Mann’s girlfriend at a party.

Everyone seems to comment on how “normal” Helen is, which makes me wonder if she is really cut out for the Hollywood lifestyle and we even get to run into an old friend…Noah’s book agent, Eden.  Remember her?  I have to admit, I was glad to see a little bit of jealousy running across her face when she saw who Helen was dating, especially since she did have a brief affair with Noah as well in the past.

3

“She’s been like a second mother to me.”

After Sierra lands the role, she is beyond excited, but she suddenly remembers she needs to find someone to watch baby Eddie.  After her mother bails on her, she tries to ask Helen, but Helen tells her to figure it out and Stacey offers to watch him.  Sierra makes another questionable call by leaving her baby with a 12-year-old, but does end up doing well at her first taping…once she gets out of her head. 

Perhaps she should have left it there, but Sierra decides to have some time for herself and ends up doing drugs and sleeping with the director.  After stumbling into Helen’s place at 2 am, she decides to take baby Eddie for a drive to calm him down and crashes the car.  Luckily, she and Eddie are OK, but I’m hoping that this is a huge wake up call for Sierra.

2

“I don’t love you anymore.”

During the episode, we also get a brief moment between Noah and Helen.  Noah comes to apologize to Helen for his behavior and tells her that he still loves her and wants her back.  Helen stays strong; however, and tells Noah that she doesn’t love him anymore and that she’s not sure what the word “love” means to Noah.

While I’m not convinced that Sasha is the better choice for Helen, I was proud of her in this moment.  Noah has had so many chances with Helen and he has continued to mess them up.  While I appreciate his honesty with Helen, I think that she was right to turn him down here.  Go Helen!

1

“You have everyone fooled.”

Helen tries out saying “no” in this episode, but she starts to have second thoughts about it later on.  Vic’s mother, Priya, begs Helen to bring baby Eddie to meet her brother because she doesn’t want everyone in her family to know that Eddie is actually Sierra’s baby.  After witnessing Sasha breaking his promise to one of his friends about a movie deal, Helen starts to realize that perhaps Sasha isn’t as perfect as he may seem. 

Priya knocks on her door and tells Helen that she has everyone fooled and that Vic told her she was a selfless person.  This encounter clearly impacts Helen and I think she is going to start really looking at her choices moving forward.  While I want Helen to find happiness for herself, I also don’t want her to turn her back on who she is either. 

Overall, I thought this was another revealing and moving episode, but I also want more Joanie screen time.  It looks like we will be getting a Joanie-centric episode next week so I am super excited about that.  There are still so many unanswered questions surrounding Cole’s death and Alison, so I’m hoping we will finally get to devote some time to that in episode 6.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The Affair below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 5 episode 2: “Be A Little Selfish”

Happy Sunday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair season 5 episode 2, I realized that sometimes we have to take some much needed time for ourselves.  A lot of times it may seem routine or necessary to deflect our own feelings and worry about what is going on around us, but you also don’t want to lose who you are in the process.  Perhaps it’s more about finding a balance, but taking care of ourselves can help more than we realize.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  

In tonight’s episode, “502,” we see things from Janelle’s point of view, reminding us that Noah really is completely oblivious and off in his own world sometimes.  Meanwhile, Helen bonds with Sasha and Joanie takes a work trip up to Montauk, but will she find the answers she is looking for?  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 5 episode 2 are:

5

“Girlfriend is a strong word.”

Part one of the episode follows Janelle, as we see things from her perspective during Vic’s funeral, which really helped fill in some blanks since we know that Janelle did disappear several times.  I am a big fan of Sanaa Lathan and I love the character of Janelle.  She is strong, opinionated, and brilliant.

Noah says that he can’t wait for Janelle to get to know his family, but the whole situation is slightly awkward and a bit overwhelming, especially when Helen’s father mistakes her for the help  and Noah’s daughter, Whitney, points out how she is super excited that her dad is dating a woman of color.

Janelle does her best to deal with these inappropriate side comments with grace, but you have to wonder how long her relationship will last with Noah?  I personally think that Janelle is out of his league, but I am trying to keep an open mind here.

4

“Are you always this honest?”

Three months later, we see things from Helen’s perspective, as she agrees to go on set with Noah and Whitney.  Noah was under the impression that they were shooting a harmless family scene, but Helen actually has to watch a reenactment of the moment when she found Alison’s bra in her drawer.  Helen is clearly going through a lot after Vic’s death and is speaking her mind even more than usual.

She is not intimidated when meeting celebrity, Sasha Mann, and she points out that the character based on Helen should really be more of a bitch.  Sasha appreciates her feedback and thinks that Helen is quite extraordinary and I have to say that I agree!

3

“Montauk…”

I was worried that we were not going to get a chance to check in with Joanie at all during this episode, but we do get some time with her.  Joanie is seen throwing up in the toilet, but wants to cover it up.  Does this mean that she is pregnant or is something else going on here?  Joanie is just as guarded and secretive as her mother and she has been trying to keep busy with work.  Joanie accepts an assignment out in Montauk and tells her husband that she will be staying in her dad’s old house.

When Joanie arrives, Montauk seems like a ghost town and her fingerprint is not recognized at the house.  Joanie decides to break in and it looks like she is about to discover even more ghosts as this story unfolds, but will she be able to uncover the truth behind Alison’s murder?  I’m also curious to find out more about how Cole died and I am very interested in this story-line, as this keeps the story of Alison and Cole alive for us.

2

“Don’t come from within.  Come from above.”

After Janelle discovers that she is now being offered a co-principal job with a young white male teacher with very little experience, she decides to go visit her ex-husband, Carl, to get some legal advice.  Janelle will have to take a pay cut and Joel will be the face of the position, while she will get stuck doing all of the administrative work, which hardly seems fair.  Carl initially presents her the facts, but it’s clear that Janelle is looking for some real support here. 

Janelle says that she doesn’t play well with others, but I honestly like that about her.  She tells it how it is and sometimes you need that in order to maintain structure and she has been trying to create some real change within the school district, which is pretty much what she was hired to do.  Carl presents her with an alternative idea and tells her to run for the school board, which would really shake things up.

This would certainly be a huge change for Janelle, but she also decides to pick things up with Carl romantically again, which could have some interesting consequences.  I already assumed that her relationship would not last very long with Noah, but is she ready to jump back into a failed marriage?  We’ll have to wait and see, but I hope we get some more screen time for Janelle because she is fantastic.

1

“Live now for us both.”

Helen reluctantly agrees to meet with Sasha Mann and she even lets loose to play some basketball, but things go south when Sasha hits her right in the face with the ball.  Helen feels sick and has a slight breakdown and Sasha actually handles it quite well and tries to support Helen.  Helen explains that she wasn’t prepared for how permanent death is, opening up a little bit here.

When Helen returns home, she finally plays Vic’s recording for her and he tells her to “be a little selfish,” understanding that Helen is probably keeping her grief to herself to stay strong for everyone around her, but that she needs to be happy and enjoy life for the both of them. 

I thought this was an important moment for Helen and Vic really touched on some of the points I made in last week’s blog about Helen enjoying life so I was happy to hear him say something similar.  Is Helen finally ready to move on?  Let’s hope so!

The ladies of The Affair are certainly holding my undivided attention as we sink deeper back into the ocean.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The Affair below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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