Happy Sunday TV fans! After watching Showtime’s The Affair season 5 episode 5, I realized that you can tell yourself over and over again that you are enough, but you need to truly believe it. Sometimes that means trusting our instincts and other times that means saying no, but it all comes down to how we view ourselves and perhaps how we want to be viewed. Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.
In tonight’s episode, “505,” Helen prepares to make her official debut as Sasha Mann’s girlfriend, but is constantly pressured by others around her. Meanwhile, Sierra desperately tries to adjust to motherhood, which becomes even more difficult when her own mother arrives in town. My top 5 moments from The Affair season 5 episode 5 are:
“I’m so sorry…”
Part one of the episode follows Sierra, as she adjusts to motherhood. Sierra has been raising baby Eddie by herself for four months and it is clearly taking a toll on her. Sierra desperately tries to find her balance and tells herself, “Everyday and in every way…today, I am enough.”
Even though the phrase certainly has a nice ring to it and I think I might try it out myself, Sierra has trouble keeping her cool, especially since baby Eddie will not stop crying. Sierra goes to an acting audition and initially thinks she did not do a good enough job, but I am more concerned that she decided to leave baby Eddie in the car during the audition…
“I just didn’t think men like you existed…except in the movies.”
During Helen’s part of the episode, Helen and Sasha appear to be getting closer and Sasha even tells Helen that he loves her. Helen is slightly hesitant, but it looks like she does have strong feelings for Sasha, but things get a little bit overwhelming when she learns that she will be basically making a public debut as Sasha Mann’s girlfriend at a party.
Everyone seems to comment on how “normal” Helen is, which makes me wonder if she is really cut out for the Hollywood lifestyle and we even get to run into an old friend…Noah’s book agent, Eden. Remember her? I have to admit, I was glad to see a little bit of jealousy running across her face when she saw who Helen was dating, especially since she did have a brief affair with Noah as well in the past.
“She’s been like a second mother to me.”
After Sierra lands the role, she is beyond excited, but she suddenly remembers she needs to find someone to watch baby Eddie. After her mother bails on her, she tries to ask Helen, but Helen tells her to figure it out and Stacey offers to watch him. Sierra makes another questionable call by leaving her baby with a 12-year-old, but does end up doing well at her first taping…once she gets out of her head.
Perhaps she should have left it there, but Sierra decides to have some time for herself and ends up doing drugs and sleeping with the director. After stumbling into Helen’s place at 2 am, she decides to take baby Eddie for a drive to calm him down and crashes the car. Luckily, she and Eddie are OK, but I’m hoping that this is a huge wake up call for Sierra.
“I don’t love you anymore.”
During the episode, we also get a brief moment between Noah and Helen. Noah comes to apologize to Helen for his behavior and tells her that he still loves her and wants her back. Helen stays strong; however, and tells Noah that she doesn’t love him anymore and that she’s not sure what the word “love” means to Noah.
While I’m not convinced that Sasha is the better choice for Helen, I was proud of her in this moment. Noah has had so many chances with Helen and he has continued to mess them up. While I appreciate his honesty with Helen, I think that she was right to turn him down here. Go Helen!
“You have everyone fooled.”
Helen tries out saying “no” in this episode, but she starts to have second thoughts about it later on. Vic’s mother, Priya, begs Helen to bring baby Eddie to meet her brother because she doesn’t want everyone in her family to know that Eddie is actually Sierra’s baby. After witnessing Sasha breaking his promise to one of his friends about a movie deal, Helen starts to realize that perhaps Sasha isn’t as perfect as he may seem.
Priya knocks on her door and tells Helen that she has everyone fooled and that Vic told her she was a selfless person. This encounter clearly impacts Helen and I think she is going to start really looking at her choices moving forward. While I want Helen to find happiness for herself, I also don’t want her to turn her back on who she is either.
Overall, I thought this was another revealing and moving episode, but I also want more Joanie screen time. It looks like we will be getting a Joanie-centric episode next week so I am super excited about that. There are still so many unanswered questions surrounding Cole’s death and Alison, so I’m hoping we will finally get to devote some time to that in episode 6. Stay tuned!
I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The Affair below in the comments section. Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!
Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl
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