Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 4 episode 10 Season Finale: “We are just so Lucky to be Alive”

Happy Sunday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair, I realized that life can be messy and unpredictable.  Sometimes the big moments all happen at once and sometimes we don’t even see them coming.  We can’t ever truly prepare ourselves for these moments, but it’s important to remember that we are lucky to be alive as Noah said and that each new day can bring a glimmer of hope that things can get better.  It may take time and our pain and grief may never fade away entirely, but it’s important to keep fighting and surviving for those around us.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In tonight’s episode, “410,” Noah tries to distract himself from his own grief by staying with Anton at Princeton, but he quickly realizes that there is somewhere else he needs to be.  Meanwhile, Cole has an extremely difficult time at Alison’s funeral and Helen tries to juggle her daughter’s return along with some shocking news from Sierra, all while Vik’s illness takes a turn for the worst.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 4 episode 10 season finale are:

5

“You shouldn’t be here.”

Part one of the episode is from Noah’s perspective and he is still with Anton at Princeton.  Noah catches up with an old friend from school and he sits in on her writing class.  The students are beyond excited to meet Noah and tell him that he is the reason why they became writers and Noah explains that writing characters is all about listening to people.  Anton has truly perfected this difficult task when he reads his piece about a character that is a contradiction and describes Noah.  He starts out talking about how Noah is an inspiration and someone who truly wants to teach and be there for his students, but things take an unexpected turn when he then says, “He believes in my future…also he’s fucking my mother.”  Noah is upset at Anton and asks him why he would do that after all he has done for him.  Anton has certainly reached his full potential, but we know that Noah has a difficult time taking a good look in the mirror sometimes.  While he was initially upset with Anton’s words, he quickly realizes where Anton is coming from and appreciates when he says that he is sorry about Alison.  Noah is asked a few times what he is doing there and he finally realizes that it’s time to leave and deal with what has happened to Alison.  Anton thanks Noah for everything he has done for him and I have to say that it’s about time Noah has had a true connection with someone.  He may have trouble finding happiness with the women in his life, but he believed in Anton and helped him get on the right path.

4

“Can you please stop calling me Helen?”

“Surprise!”  Whitney is back with her boyfriend and is ready to stir things up per usual.  Helen is very happy to see her daughter, but she has been dealing with a lot of stress and Vik has been in the hospital because of an infection.  Helen does her best to tell Whitney about everything, but Whitney makes everything about her, proving that she hasn’t really changed very much since we last saw her.  Whitney attacks her mother and says, “I have my shit together, why can’t you?”  As if this moment wasn’t already chaotic enough, Sierra stops by with a “white butterfly,” and tells Helen that she needs to talk to her.  The phone then rings and Vik’s mother tells Helen that Vik is not doing well, as the whirlwind of stress escalates even further.  It’s understandable that Helen is having a difficult time coping with all of this at once and she manages to keep her dry sense of humor through it all, making me cheer for her that much more.

3

“How could you of all people be gone?”

In part two, we see everything from Cole’s perspective, as he prepares for Alison’s funeral.  We do get to hear Noah’s words about Alison at the service which are very moving and heartbreaking.  Noah says, “You were magic, you were light…you were wild, you were brave.  You made me see the world with new eyes…with wonder.”  Noah’s words were so romantic and moving.  While Cole has a difficult time finding the words, Noah paints a beautiful picture of Alison Bailey.  We see several old characters at the service like Oscar and Jane and even Ben makes a surprise guest appearance.  While this was very unsettling for me, Noah’s words really impacted me and I think he was able to speak for Cole as well, who is more about action rather than words.  We all grieve in our own way, but Alison was truly someone special and she will be missed by everyone.

2

“I was too late.  I am always too late.”

During the funeral for Alison, Cole is very upset with Athena, knowing that Alison would truly hate the idea of her ashes being scattered into the ocean.  When it is Cole’s time to speak, he grabs the urn and runs away from everyone and everything.  He ends up at Gabriel’s grave and sits there for quite a while.  Noah goes to speak to him and tries to remind him that he is not the only one who loved her and that this moment was important for Athena.  Later on, Cherry goes to see her son and Cole confides in her that he was coming back for Alison, but that he was too late, which is beyond heartbreaking.  Cherry lost her own husband to suicide and tries to explain that life is very messy and that she understands the desire to want to take control, but that we can’t always do so in every situation.  Cherry explains that it takes time, but the pain may never truly disappear.  However, she talks about Cole being a survivor and a fighter and more importantly, being there for Joanie.  Cole and Luisa recognize that their relationship is over, but Cole wants to keep their marriage intact on paper so that she can get her citizenship and because she is an important person in Joanie’s life.  While I’m not sure if this will go according to plan, Cole takes the time to take Joanie on a road trip away from everything.  When he talks about death, he explains that people believe in different things and Joanie asks him what he believes.  In a touching moment, Cole explains to his daughter that whenever she misses her mother, all she has to do is think about her and she will always be with her.  This moment is truly important, as Cole takes his mother’s advice, understanding that there is no easy fix to this situation, but his purpose now is to be there for his daughter no matter what.

1

“We are just so lucky to be alive.”

Part three of the episode is from Helen’s perspective.  After being shut out of the hospital room for not having a visitor’s pass, Helen finds out that Sierra is pregnant with Vik’s baby and is beyond shocked.  Helen needs a moment away from everyone and confides in Noah.  Helen tells Noah that she doesn’t know if she truly loves Vik the way she is supposed to; especially since it is not the way she loved Noah.  The two continue to confide in each other about Alison and Vik and how they ended up where they are now.  When Helen explains that she thinks she is broken and that Vik deserves better, Noah refuses to let her say this about herself.  While he starts out telling Helen that she is snobby and overbearing, the compliment soon emerges when he says, “I don’t know anyone who’s tougher than you.”  Helen is touched by this and Noah takes it a step further when he says that if he was dying, he would want Helen by his side.  Helen and Noah have come so far and have had so many ups and downs, but this moment was truly something significant for me.  Through it all, these two are still connected and have a bond and friendship that surpasses everything.  While it may not be right for the two of them to be together romantically anymore, it’s clear that they both still care about one another very much.  Noah’s words to Helen clearly help her, as she goes to see Vik and simply whispers to him over and over again, “I love you.”  Helen knows that this is what Vik needs to hear, especially since he began breaking down that he should have listened to her about treatment and that he is not ready to die.  Helen courageously goes to get Sierra in the waiting room and says, “Tell him now.”  Helen understands that this is something that could truly help Vik, proving to be someone who is selfless and caring.  The end of the episode reveals Helen walking up on the rooftop of the building, staring out at the sun and the city.  While I was initially confused and anxious about this scene, I took it as Helen finally opening her eyes and embracing a new day and a life full of possibilities, truly connecting with the concept that she is lucky to be alive.  There are still so many open doors left to explore in this series and I am beyond excited to see the conclusion in season 5.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The Affair below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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When Kallie Bennett, a jaded teenage girl plagued by her alcoholic mother and her peers molded out of sheer bubble gum perfection, chases after Alice in Wonderland herself, she ends up lost in her own version of Wonderland, which forces her to face her utmost fears and introduces her to familiar characters with a dark twist. Among these characters is Ches, a gorgeous vampire with a conflicted conscience, who becomes Kallie’s guide and blossoming love interest. She also crosses paths with Queen Hartley, a manipulative witch who has the power to strip away one’s memories and imagination, which brings a bone chilling new meaning to “off with their heads.” In The Search for Alice, Kallie starts to realize that her Wonderland is just as frightening as her own reality and that she cannot always run away from her problems. She must figure out a way to defeat Queen Hartley and return home before it is too late, but she soon learns that escaping Wonderland means leaving Ches behind forever.

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 9: “Yesterday is Yesterday”

Happy Thursday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 9, I learned that it’s important to leave the past in the past, but what happens when the future is uncertain?  Are we able to get through the day or do we find ourselves replaying moments that we can’t change?  While we don’t know what the future holds, it’s important to keep Al’s words in mind:  “Yesterday is yesterday, but today is today and God knows if there’ll be a tomorrow.”  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “People Like Us,” Morgan decides that it is time to return home, now understanding that Rick was right all along.  Meanwhile, Alicia, Victor, and Luciana distract themselves in different ways and June confides in Al about John.  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 9 are:

5

“There’s nothing for me anywhere.”

While Alicia handles her grief by isolating herself, Victor and Luciana remain inside the big house they found.  Victor gets through the day by drowning himself in alcohol and Luciana tries to shut off everything around her by losing herself in the music from the record player.  Morgan tries to convince both of them to come to Virginia with him.  While Victor explains that he has had his “fair share” of road trips, Luciana’s response about there being nothing for her anywhere is hopeless and devastating.  Nick’s death has clearly had a huge impact on her, but it’s truly heartbreaking to see her feeling so alone and isolated.  Luciana needs someone to believe in again and maybe it’s the last person in the world you would ever think she would be invested in, but at least Charlie’s act to return the book, “The Little Prince,” got her out of the house.

4

“I just want to look him in the eye and tell him he was right.”

During the episode, Morgan recognizes that it’s time to return home and he asks that Al drive him there.  He plans on leaving the next day and he shares that his friend was right all along.  We know that Morgan is referring to Rick, but he had to see it for himself.  Morgan thought that he needed to be away from people, but his experience with the people he met here reminded him that he can still do some good for those around him and make a difference.  It’s great to see Morgan have a change of heart here and it’s important that he came to this epiphany on his own.  Let’s just hope Morgan can get a chance to tell Rick all of this.

3

“Telling her brought me back to the world.”

Charlie is having a tough time in her new circumstances and doesn’t even call out for help when she is almost attacked by a walker.  John Dorie is very concerned about her and tries to talk to her about it in the tank without any pressure.  He understands what it feels like to have something eat away at you, especially guilt and regret.  John explains that he found someone to talk to, meaning June, and says that “telling her brought me back to the world.”  Hopefully Charlie can trust John or find someone else to confide in before it’s too late.  His words do clearly resonate with Charlie, as she risks her life to try and take a step toward forgiveness by returning the book, “The Little Prince,” to Luciana.  While she may never be forgiven completely, it is a step in the right direction.

2

“I’m not Laura.”

When Al and June go to investigate things down the river, June requests to talk to Al off the record.  She confides in her about her concerns and fears, worrying that John will soon realize that she’s not “Laura,” the woman he fell in love with.  June feels like she’s a woman who got scared and ran away and is defined by this.  Al admits that she doesn’t really give advice, but tells June that she has been helping John everyday now and “that’s who you are now.” 

1

“My mom would have saved him.”

Morgan is very concerned about Alicia who has been staying by the garden, isolating herself from everyone else.  Alicia has been finding notes asking for help pinned to walkers and she distracts herself from the pain and grief swirling around inside of her by focusing on finding this person who needs help.  Morgan agrees to assist her, as they follow the notes like a trail of breadcrumbs to the source.  Morgan tries to caution Alicia about rushing in and the two team up to execute a plan.  When Alicia reaches the man, she is devastated to find out that he has already turned.  Morgan tries to explain that he has been like that for days and that she could not have saved him, but she tells him that her mom would have, which makes this moment truly heartbreaking.  Alicia knows that she has a lot to make up for, but Morgan suggests something simpler like just being there for her friends since they clearly need her.  This moment between Morgan and Alicia is real and honest.  Morgan has felt exactly like Alicia, wanting to run away from everything and stay away from people, but now truly understands that this is not the way.  Let’s hope that they both get a chance to help their friends before it’s too late.  After all, it’s raining walkers and a storm is coming.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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When Kallie Bennett, a jaded teenage girl plagued by her alcoholic mother and her peers molded out of sheer bubble gum perfection, chases after Alice in Wonderland herself, she ends up lost in her own version of Wonderland, which forces her to face her utmost fears and introduces her to familiar characters with a dark twist. Among these characters is Ches, a gorgeous vampire with a conflicted conscience, who becomes Kallie’s guide and blossoming love interest. She also crosses paths with Queen Hartley, a manipulative witch who has the power to strip away one’s memories and imagination, which brings a bone chilling new meaning to “off with their heads.” In The Search for Alice, Kallie starts to realize that her Wonderland is just as frightening as her own reality and that she cannot always run away from her problems. She must figure out a way to defeat Queen Hartley and return home before it is too late, but she soon learns that escaping Wonderland means leaving Ches behind forever.

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Younger” season 5 episode 10: “We Accept the Love We Think We Deserve”

Happy Wednesday TV fans!  After watching TV Land’s Younger season 5 episode 10, I realized that it’s important to take our own advice.  Sometimes it’s easier to reflect on what someone else might need or deserve, but what happens when we take a good hard look in the mirror?  Can we truly apply that same advice to our own situation?  It’s important to remember that the person staring back at us in the mirror deserves the same respect as anyone else.  We just have to remember that we are worth it and we do deserve our very own chance at happiness.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “Girls on the Side,” Liza quickly realizes that her secret relationship with Charles is not ideal.  Meanwhile, Josh opens up Inkburg 2.0, Diana meets Enzo’s entire family, and Caitlin introduces her mother to her new boyfriend.  My top 5 moments from Younger season 5 episode 10 are:

5

“He is your father’s age.”

Liza is surprised and excited to run into her daughter, Caitlin, at Josh’s re-opening.  When Caitlin introduces Liza to her new boyfriend, Liza is not thrilled.  Caitlin’s new man is much older than her and also her former English professor at school.  Liza tries to give him a chance and agrees to brunch with them and Josh tags along for moral support.  Liza reminds Caitlin that he is her father’s age and Caitlin hilariously tells her mom that she checked and he is in fact younger than her dad.  Liza doesn’t want to get in the way of Caitlin’s happiness, but she is very worried about this new relationship and how it will impact her daughter.

4

“I just want to acknowledge one person in particular.  She inspired me to not give up so thank you Liza.”

Liza is very excited to attend the launch party for Josh’s grand opening of his new tattoo parlor.  Kelsey had previously told her that he has been trying really hard to impress her, but Liza just wants to be there to show her support for him.  When Josh gives a speech, he focuses entirely on Liza and thanks her for being there for him and never giving up on him.  This moment is truly touching, but it makes it so much harder to shift gears toward Team Charles, especially when Josh wears his heart on his sleeve…of tattoos.  Josh and Liza have had their fair share of ups and downs, but it’s nice to see him take a moment to acknowledge her here.  But is there more to it beyond friendship?  We’ll have to wait and see.

3

“I am too old to fight.”

In this episode, Diana is invited to dinner with Enzo’s entire family and she is beyond nervous.  Enzo’s mother tells her to bring a dish and she enlists the help of Maggie to pull off something spectacular.  When she arrives, Enzo’s mother is pleased with the dish, but this leads to Diana being forced to help her in the kitchen.  Diana is a real trooper and tries to do her very best, but she has had enough when Enzo’s mother scolds her for not using the proper garnish on the Eel dish.  Even though Diana has very strong feelings for Enzo, she is not about to go insane to impress his mother.  Diana courageously stands up to Enzo’s mother after her harsh words and walks out.  Enzo goes after her and tells her that he is going to move to an apartment in Manhattan, which shows that he is not ready to give up on Diana just yet.  After all, he likes to be around strong women and Diana is absolutely worthy of this title.  Arrivederci Enzo’s mom!

2

“You don’t even know what real is.”

It seems like Josh and Liza are getting along very well, but this takes a turn for the worst when Liza decides to confide in him about her relationship with Charles.  Liza tells Josh that she is “trying to be more real,” but Josh tells her that a secret relationship can never be something real and that he was always so open with his feelings for her.  While I was heartbroken for Josh in this moment, I was beyond upset when we see him going to get his dragon tattoo covered up or re-done, which is the tattoo he got for Liza.  Is Josh really ready to permanently remove his attachment to Liza?

1

“Call me when it is.”

After Caitlin comes home upset after her boyfriend made her leave because they could be seen together by a colleague, Liza tells Caitlin all about the lie she has been living.  Caitlin is doubtful at first, but is supportive of her mother.  Liza tells Caitlin that she deserves to be with someone in an open and honest relationship and quickly realizes that she needs to apply this to her own situation with Charles.  She asks Maggie, “What if Charles and I are just a fantasy?”  Maggie hates seeing Liza resort to being someone’s side piece because she deserves so much more.  At the end of the episode, Charles explains why they need to still keep their relationship a secret and that it’s not the right time yet.  Liza courageously tells him to call her when it is, trying to accept the love that she does truly deserve, which is something more than this.  While I was heartbroken to see a setback for Charles and Liza’s relationship, it’s important that Liza doesn’t lose her sense of self-worth along the way.  I’m proud of you Liza!  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Younger below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

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When Kallie Bennett, a jaded teenage girl plagued by her alcoholic mother and her peers molded out of sheer bubble gum perfection, chases after Alice in Wonderland herself, she ends up lost in her own version of Wonderland, which forces her to face her utmost fears and introduces her to familiar characters with a dark twist. Among these characters is Ches, a gorgeous vampire with a conflicted conscience, who becomes Kallie’s guide and blossoming love interest. She also crosses paths with Queen Hartley, a manipulative witch who has the power to strip away one’s memories and imagination, which brings a bone chilling new meaning to “off with their heads.” In The Search for Alice, Kallie starts to realize that her Wonderland is just as frightening as her own reality and that she cannot always run away from her problems. She must figure out a way to defeat Queen Hartley and return home before it is too late, but she soon learns that escaping Wonderland means leaving Ches behind forever.

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 4 episode 9: “I Just Want To Live A Different Life”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair last night, I realized that it is never too late to try and change our own story.  Alison Bailey is proof of that.  Over the years, Alison has been broken, like a wounded bird, desperately trying to cling to some kind of temporary moment of bliss.  Even though Alison began to make real changes in her life, her true metamorphosis occurred when she took Helen’s advice and decided to change her narrative, refusing to let men treat her a certain way.  That made this episode even more tragic, dark, and heartbreaking for me.  I was so proud of Alison’s strength here, but sometimes there is a darkness in others that tries to stifle even the faintest light, dragging it deep into the ocean.  But not everything stays beneath the surface for long.  Please note major spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “409,” Alison prepares for her conversation with Ben and confronts him about his lie.  While the temptation remains, Alison focuses all of her energy on doing the right thing and finding out the truth.  Alison’s fate is finally revealed to the audience, which is both shocking and devastating.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 4 episode 9 are:

5

“All I want is to somehow be forgiven.”

Part one of the episode is from Alison’s perspective, as she anxiously waits for Ben to arrive.  When he shows up, Alison does her best to keep the conversation going and explains that she has some things she wants to address with Ben.  Before she can get a chance, Ben reveals to Alison that he is married and that he has just left his wife.  Alison explains that she already knew this information and that she is “done being a woman you lie to your wife about.”  After all, Alison has already lived through this before and she knows that “it doesn’t end well.”  Ben opens up to Alison and tells her about his time as a soldier in Afghanistan and how he killed a kid by mistake, which has left him with a never-ending hole of guilt, weighing down on his conscience constantly.  He explains that he was not the same person when he returned and this impacted everything, including his marriage.  Alison compassionately listens to him, understanding what it means to walk around with that pain every day.

4

“Don’t mess with my heart, OK?”

Ben agrees to fix Alison’s sink even after she tells him she can’t see him anymore and then she agrees to make him dinner.  It seems like their break-up is amenable and I instantly began to question everything since we know that this is not the story that Ben told Cole and Noah.  Ben asks Alison to dance with him and Alison asks him, “What happens to us?  The ones who can’t be forgiven.”  Ben answers that he wants to live and the two share a kiss.  He asks Alison what she wants and she gives in to Ben and begins kissing him back.  This leads to them making love and it seems like everything is perfect between them now.  Only it’s too perfect and now we know why.

3

“Tell me the truth.”

Alison is cleaning up in the kitchen and hears a knock at the door.  The rain is still pouring outside and she looks down at the sink, which is now broken again.  When she opens the door, Ben is standing there and part two from Alison’s perspective begins.  One of the reasons why I adore this show so much is because we get to see things from different perspectives.  Usually each story has its own version or variation of the truth, but we ultimately get to peek into the hearts and minds of our favorite characters.  When part two opened up with Alison again, I realized that the first part was merely a dream or a fantasy of what could be.  Reality was now at the door and I was on the edge of my seat, fearing for the worst.  When Alison tells Ben she needs to talk to him, he is no longer kind and gentle like in the first part.  He tells her never to stand him up again and is clearly angry and on edge.  Ben begins drinking when he tells Alison about his time in Afghanistan, which now reveals that Ben knew that the kid he killed was not holding a real weapon.  Alison tries to ask him why he would do this and his anger begins to escalate even further.

2

“I don’t owe you a thing.”

We know that Ben has a problem with drinking and his behavior begins to become erratic.  He breaks down when Alison tells him to leave and cries in her lap and begs her to be with him.  Alison has had enough; however, and is ready to embrace the strong woman within.  She tells Ben she knows that he is married and it’s like a new darkness comes over Ben.  He is now suddenly calmer, but the danger is nowhere near gone.  He tells Alison that she better not tell his wife, threatening her.  Alison tells him that she won’t if he leaves and he turns everything around on her.  Ben tells Alison that she broke up other marriages and that he will only leave if she admits that this is her fault.  Alison stays strong and tells Ben, “I don’t owe you a thing.”  While I was so proud of Alison in this moment, I feared what would happen next.  Ben attacks Alison and hits her over the head.  As the blood rushes down on Alison’s face, her life began pouring out of her.  While I was hoping to be wrong about Ben, the reality of him being Alison’s murderer became painfully obvious when I realized that there were no other characters in this episode at the beginning of part two.

1

“I just want to live a different life.  I want to live a different story.”

At the end of the episode, we see Ben dumping Alison’s body into the ocean by the rocks.  Alison’s last monologue is heard, which is beyond heartbreaking.  Alison talks about wanting to live a different life or story so that she could be someone who could be happy.  She took Helen’s advice and finally tried to be strong and stand up for herself, but Ben refused to allow her the chance at a fresh start.  We see Alison’s body sinking to the bottom of the ocean, as this life is over for her.  In this moment, I wanted nothing more for Alison than for her to get another chance.  She has been through so much loss and pain along the way and it seems beyond unfair that her story ends just when she was starting to fight for the spark of life that had been trapped away for so long.  This episode was compelling and dark, revealing the ugliness that can lurk beneath the surface.  Alison was not perfect and she was completely aware of this, but she didn’t deserve what happened to her and I am hoping that Cole gets the chance to bring Ben to justice.  While Alison’s story may be over, Cole’s love for her will not burn out, keeping her memory alive.  Farewell Alison.  You deserved better.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The Affair below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

If you enjoyed this blog, I would love it if you would click the follow button on your way out to subscribe.  Thanks for your support! 

I am so excited to announce that my book is now available!  If you enjoy fairy-tale retellings, paranormal romance, horror, and mystery, then this might be the book for you or someone you know!  Thank you for taking the time to check it out and I appreciate any feedback as well.  I hope you enjoy!

When Kallie Bennett, a jaded teenage girl plagued by her alcoholic mother and her peers molded out of sheer bubble gum perfection, chases after Alice in Wonderland herself, she ends up lost in her own version of Wonderland, which forces her to face her utmost fears and introduces her to familiar characters with a dark twist. Among these characters is Ches, a gorgeous vampire with a conflicted conscience, who becomes Kallie’s guide and blossoming love interest. She also crosses paths with Queen Hartley, a manipulative witch who has the power to strip away one’s memories and imagination, which brings a bone chilling new meaning to “off with their heads.” In The Search for Alice, Kallie starts to realize that her Wonderland is just as frightening as her own reality and that she cannot always run away from her problems. She must figure out a way to defeat Queen Hartley and return home before it is too late, but she soon learns that escaping Wonderland means leaving Ches behind forever.

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Younger” season 5 episode 9: “Nothing Worth Having Comes Easy”

Happy Thursday TV fans!  After watching TV Land’s Younger season 5 episode 9, I remembered that there is no “I” in team.  It may seem cliché, but after listening to the “Claw” book pitch, I started to really agree with Liza.  You don’t have to sacrifice your own self-worth or ambition to help someone else, but it’s important to look out for those that matter most to us and to understand when compromise is necessary.  Otherwise, it might be pretty lonely looking out for ourselves at the top.  What’s truly important to you?  Only you can answer that question, but I don’t think that there is anything wrong with knowing when to share the spotlight, especially when true friendship is involved.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “Honk if You’re Horny,” Liza and Charles continue their secret relationship, but realize that they have an audience lurking around every corner.  Meanwhile, Lauren discovers a secret about Enzo and Kelsey crosses a line at work.  My top 5 moments from Younger season 5 episode 9 are:

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“I am really sorry to be wasting your time…sir.”

Charles and Liza continue to grow closer and they decide to grab dinner at a quiet place on the Upper East Side.  Everything seems to be going well until they run into the agent, Redmond, at the restaurant.  When Redmond asks what they are doing together, both Liza and Charles panic.  Liza practically throws the manuscript that Kelsey passed on at Charles to come up with a believable cover story and Redmond thinks he has it all figured out now.  Rather than think that Liza and Charles are there together romantically, he jumps to the conclusion that Liza wanted Charles to look at the manuscript Kelsey passed on because she believes in it.  Things are about to get beyond complicated, as Liza and Charles realize that they aren’t safe yet in public.  Will their secret affair blow up in their faces or will they be able to finally figure out a way to have a normal relationship?

4

“How long have you two been repairing things with each other?”

Kelsey is beyond angry when she learns that Charles approved a manuscript that she passed on, feeling like he went right over her head.  When she vents to Liza about it, Liza has no choice but to come clean about what happened.  Kelsey does not react well to the news about Liza and Charles and says that she has a big problem with this.  It seems like Kelsey is always stuck in the web of Liza’s deception, which can damage her reputation and her career.  However, she does need to also realize that Liza’s relationship with Charles is personal and she doesn’t have a right to get involved.  Will Liza and Kelsey’s friendship be able to handle another lie?

3

“Thank you Diva.”

In this episode, Lauren really puts her publicist skills to good use, as she lands Kelsey an award at the Glamour Women of the Year event.  She tries to branch out and represent Diana as well and gets to meet Enzo for the first time.  Lauren thinks that he looks oddly familiar, but can’t quite place it there.  She later discovers that Enzo was in the first porno she ever saw and shows the video to both Kelsey and Josh.  Enzo lets out a very distinct honking noise when he climaxes, which Josh comments on when he hilariously says, “yo that was primal.”  Lauren feels that she owes Diana the truth even though Kelsey is hesitant about this.  Lauren approaches Diana and tells her about it, but also reveals that she has taken care of getting every copy off of the internet.  She gives Diana the last copy and Diana is beyond grateful and thrilled.  It looks like Lauren is getting a new client after all.  When Diana confronts Enzo about it, he explains that he comes with baggage just like anyone else and Diana accepts him completely.  I have to say that I was initially worried about what secret Enzo might be hiding from Diana, but it looks like these two are really the perfect match.  Now hopefully she can win over his mother as well.

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“Nothing worth having comes easy.”

At the end of the episode, Charles explains to Liza that no one else can know about their relationship.  He is going through a divorce and there is a lot at stake for both of them professionally.  Liza understands and agrees to keep their relationship a secret, but it seems like it will only be a matter of time before a new challenge is thrown their way.  While I am happy to see Liza and Charles finally together, I am still waiting for them to get their true moment of happiness together.  Will they finally be able to step out in the spotlight together or is this a secret romance destined for disaster?

1

“I choose you.”

Kelsey crosses a line when she confronts Charles about accepting the manuscript she passed on and wants him to also approve the one she liked.  After explaining that there might not be enough in the budget for both pieces, Kelsey says, “What if I got Liza to ask you over dinner or after dinner?”  While Kelsey is still clearly upset about what Liza told her, this is a threat that Charles does not take lightly.  Kelsey needs to remember that Charles is her boss and she has no right to meddle in his affairs.  Liza tells Kelsey how much she means to her and tells her that she chooses her over Charles, as she cannot handle the idea of losing her friendship.  Even though Liza has gotten herself into this mess, she would never try to hurt Kelsey.  When Kelsey accepts the award at the Glamour event, she looks over at Liza and realizes that she is right.  Kelsey accepts the award on behalf of both of them and says that she would not be where she is today without Liza.  I’m glad that Kelsey had a change of heart, as I can’t handle another fight between these two.  While Kelsey makes up with Liza, Charles gently reminds Kelsey that she is not to pull another stunt like that again.  However, I think that Kelsey’s discovery is only the beginning of the complicated mess between Charles and Liza.  Will they be able to handle everything that comes their way?  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Younger below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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When Kallie Bennett, a jaded teenage girl plagued by her alcoholic mother and her peers molded out of sheer bubble gum perfection, chases after Alice in Wonderland herself, she ends up lost in her own version of Wonderland, which forces her to face her utmost fears and introduces her to familiar characters with a dark twist. Among these characters is Ches, a gorgeous vampire with a conflicted conscience, who becomes Kallie’s guide and blossoming love interest. She also crosses paths with Queen Hartley, a manipulative witch who has the power to strip away one’s memories and imagination, which brings a bone chilling new meaning to “off with their heads.” In The Search for Alice, Kallie starts to realize that her Wonderland is just as frightening as her own reality and that she cannot always run away from her problems. She must figure out a way to defeat Queen Hartley and return home before it is too late, but she soon learns that escaping Wonderland means leaving Ches behind forever.

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The 100” season 5 episode 13 Season Finale: “I Hope We Do Better There”

Happy Wednesday TV fans!  After watching the CW’s The 100 season 5 episode 13, I realized that sometimes all it takes is a simple life with the person we love most in the world.  The days may seem routine, but they are never unfulfilling because each day is filled with hope and joy.  We may sometimes feel like we need to search for something more or bigger, but perhaps what we need most is right in front of us and has been all along.  Please note major spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “Damocles – Part Two,” Madi attempts to lead her people to victory with the help of Echo, Bellamy, and a surprising ally.  Meanwhile, Clarke enlists the help of Diyoza to stop McCreary, Shaw is tortured in front of Raven, and Abby desperately tries to save Marcus’s life.  My top 5 moments from The 100 season 5 episode 13 Season Finale are:

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“I’m saving the man that I love.”

War always has casualties and I was very worried about the fate of some of our beloved characters.  After John Murphy is injured, he tells the others to leave him behind since they only have nine minutes to get to the transport ship before the missile, Damocles, hits the valley.  Thanks a lot McCreary.  Emori is no longer hiding her feelings for John at this point, as she tells him, “There’s no way in hell I’m going to leave the man I love behind.”  Monty agrees to carry Murphy and they really wait until the last possible second to get to the ship, but luckily they are all OK for now.  Meanwhile, Abby also refuses to leave the love of her life behind.  Octavia confronts Abby and agrees to help her, as she gathers people to carry Marcus on a stretcher to the ship.  Octavia and Abby may never be able to fully forgive each other, but Octavia helps Abby in this crucial moment.  While we know that Marcus’s injuries are bad, we will have to wait to determine his fate after “Cryosleep.”

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“It’s the kiss of death.”

Octavia and Diyoza are left out of the meeting to figure out how to save everyone and Diyoza breaks the ice by telling Octavia, “Cheer up.  I wasn’t invited either.”  Both of these women were strong leaders, but they each had their flaws.  Diyoza points out to Octavia that her “mistake was liking it.  Power.  It’s the kiss of death.”  Octavia doesn’t disagree and comes to the realization that the valley probably wouldn’t have worked out after all.  She says, “One Garden, two serpents…Eden never stood a chance,” and she is right.  While we never got the chance to see if they could all co-exist in the valley, war can destroy everything.  Perhaps the best thing that could have happened was for each of these leaders to step down.  We know that they are strong, capable, and fearless, but it looks like we are in for quite the change.

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“Break the cycle.”

Madi is initially nervous about accepting the large responsibility of being the Commander, but she recognizes that it is something she cannot run away from.  When she first appears, someone cries out, “Heda is going to save us,” and surprisingly Octavia is the first person to bow down to her.  This moment is extremely important, as Octavia finally accepts that it is time to let go and pass the torch.  Her time is over and she puts her full trust and faith in Madi to lead her people to victory.  With Gaia’s help, Madi taps into the minds of the other Commanders to figure out what to do and comes up with a plan to save her people.  When the enemy surrenders, Madi initially wants to have them executed, but Bellamy steps in and explains, “You can be better than them.  You can be better than us.  The choice is yours Heda.”  Madi makes the courageous decision to break the cycle and understands the importance of saving them so that they can prove they deserve to be saved.  Bellamy’s wise words really resonate with Madi and it looks like she has a trusted adviser by her side.  Madi has a huge responsibility once everyone wakes up from Cryosleep; however, but luckily she has Bellamy and Clarke to help her.

2

“She called you on the radio everyday for six years.”

Madi reminds Bellamy that he needs to forgive Clarke, but Bellamy is still clearly upset about Clarke leaving him in the fighting pits and has every right to be.  Madi sheds some light on Clarke’s real feelings for Bellamy; however, and tells him about her talking to him on the radio everyday, which is a moment I have been waiting for all season.  When the ship is about to close, Clarke begs Bellamy to get on board before it’s too late, but Bellamy refuses to leave his friends behind, as Murphy and the others have still not arrived.  He tells her, “I can’t do that again,” clearly still feeling remorse about leaving Clarke behind after “Praimfaya.”  Once everyone gets on board safely with barely a second to spare, Clarke asks Bellamy why he is not mad at her and he says, “The commander ordered me not to be,” in a heartwarming moment.  While we know that Echo is still in the picture, Bellamy finally learns how Clarke feels about him, which is important.  Clarke is always trying to be brave and strong for everyone else and often locks away her own feelings and desires to do what is right, but her feelings for Bellamy are real and true.  I’m looking forward to seeing this explored more next season and I hope these two finally get the chance to be together because they deserve it.

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“I hope we do better there…may we meet again.”

So one of the reasons why I love this show so much is because each season finale provides the audience with a twist you never see coming.  I remember being shocked every single season and season 5 was no different.  After everyone realizes that they must go into “Cryosleep” for ten years to survive, it seems like we are merely going to flash forward to the future.  However, I almost fell out of my chair when Monty and Harper’s teenage son, Jordan, wakes up Clarke and Bellamy.  Clarke and Bellamy ask “why is it just us” and learn that Monty and Harper stayed behind on the ship and didn’t go to sleep.  They left a video message for them, which walks them through everything they have done together over the years.  It has been 125 years and Clarke and Bellamy learn that earth is not survivable anymore.  Monty spent his entire life trying to find another way to save his friends and discovered another planet with two suns.  Monty explains that they chose this life and asks Clarke and Bellamy to take care of their boy.  He has the middle name “Jasper” and Monty told him all about his friends and Murphy is surprisingly his favorite, which lightens up the mood.  In Monty’s final moments, he has aged quite a bit and tragically explains that Harper passed away.  He holds on to a glimmer of hope that they can do better here and tells them “may we meet again.”  Monty finally got to live the simple life he always wanted to even though it may not have been exactly what he had in mind.  He enjoyed every single second with Harper and his child and put all of his energy into finding a “plan b” to save his friends.  Monty has always flown under the radar, but he is a true hero and has saved them all.  The end of the season finale shows Clarke and Bellamy looking out on the new planet, not knowing what to expect.  We don’t know anything about this planet and it looks like we are in for quite the adventure.  Stay tuned and I know that we will meet again!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The 100 in the comments section below.  Thanks for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

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 When Kallie Bennett, a jaded teenage girl plagued by her alcoholic mother and her peers molded out of sheer bubble gum perfection, chases after Alice in Wonderland herself, she ends up lost in her own version of Wonderland, which forces her to face her utmost fears and introduces her to familiar characters with a dark twist. Among these characters is Ches, a gorgeous vampire with a conflicted conscience, who becomes Kallie’s guide and blossoming love interest. She also crosses paths with Queen Hartley, a manipulative witch who has the power to strip away one’s memories and imagination, which brings a bone chilling new meaning to “off with their heads.” In The Search for Alice, Kallie starts to realize that her Wonderland is just as frightening as her own reality and that she cannot always run away from her problems. She must figure out a way to defeat Queen Hartley and return home before it is too late, but she soon learns that escaping Wonderland means leaving Ches behind forever.

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 4 episode 8: “We Need to Know that it’s the Real Her”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair last night, I realized that sometimes you spend so much time being strong for everyone else, that you almost forget to take a moment to let the grief and pain in.  Even if it is just for a moment, sometimes you need to allow all of your feelings to rush straight to the surface.  Whether this leads to crying or yelling, it doesn’t matter.  What matters is that you take the time to allow yourself to dive into your own feelings.  This doesn’t make you weak or selfish.  It just makes you human and it’s important that we process our feelings every now and again.  Please note major spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “408,” Cole, Noah, and Anton set out to find Alison and solve this mystery once and for all.  While these three bond along the way, nothing can prepare them for the discovery they are about to make.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 4 episode 8 are:

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“I want you to understand the hole that you left in her life.”

Part one of the episode is from Cole’s perspective and he teams up with Noah and Anton to find Alison.  After speaking to Alison’s mother, Athena, Cole learns about Alison’s father and decides to pay him a visit.  Noah insists that they take a polite approach so that they open up to them, but Cole cannot sit there and listen to Alison’s father judge her, especially when he talks about her “episodes.”  Cole reminds him that he hasn’t been there for her entire life and that he doesn’t know anything about Alison.  Cole refuses to let Alison’s father take advantage of her, remembering how Alison always felt like it was her fault that her father wasn’t around.  I have to say that I was also rooting for Cole in this moment, as it seems like her father was only out to use Alison, but we will need to wait and see if there is more to the story.

4

“What are you two doing together?”

So I never thought that I would see Noah and Cole working together on anything, but their love for Alison brought them together.  Anton added some comic relief as well, which gave the episode a lighter feel at first.  Even though the episode takes a dramatic twist, it was hilarious to see both Noah and Cole point out what works for the other in terms of getting women.  While Noah refers to Cole as a “classic moper,” Cole takes things further when he explains that Noah will make promises that he can’t keep.  Anton refuses to let them ruin the mood and schools them both when he “sexiles” Noah from the hotel room after he meets up with the owner’s daughter.  After barely escaping another disaster when her father pounds on the door, these three enjoy some male bonding, which helps keep their minds off the inevitable…at least temporarily.

3

“We need to know that it’s the real her…you do it.”

Cole and Noah are shocked when they find out that a body has been discovered.  Cole is barely able to process his own grief and refuses to look at the pictures to identify Alison’s body.  He wants to be brought to her actual body, but is warned that she drowned and was left underwater for several days.  When they finally approach the room, Cole cannot handle this and Noah courageously offers to identify her.  Cole’s reaction to Noah’s confirmation is beyond heartbreaking.  I have to admit that I was hoping that it would not be Alison and that we still had a mystery to unfold, but there is still more to the story.  Even though Cole cannot stand Noah, he genuinely appreciates that he was able to do this for him, as they are both connected forever to the memory of the woman they both loved so much.

2

“I don’t buy it.”

After receiving the heartbreaking news that Alison is dead, Cole refuses to believe that it is a suicide.  I have to say I agree with Cole, as it’s unlikely that Alison would leave Joanie especially when it seemed like she was finally getting her life back into some type of order.  While Cole tries to blame Ben, he has an alibi and explains that Alison broke up with him.  Cole is still not buying it, but I am starting to think that perhaps her father or his new wife had something to do with it.  We know that Alison was not about to hand her kidney over, especially after Athena tells her that she was raped by him.  Is it possible that they tried to take matters into their own hands?  While I’m not certain that this is true, it seems like Alison had such a great conversation with Helen and was finally ready to start changing her narrative.  So what changed when she returned from California?

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Part two:  Noah.

I was surprised to see “Part Two” pop up on the screen, as the episode was almost over at this point.  There was so much going on that I almost forgot that the show was divided into separate parts.  However, this part was absolutely necessary and extremely moving.  The majority of the episode focuses so much on Cole’s own grief, as he desperately tries to find out what happened to Alison.  Noah was strong for Cole the entire time, but when he goes to the diner with Anton, he finally has a moment to himself.  Noah sees a woman in a waitress uniform that resembles Alison and all of his memories and feelings come rushing back.  When Anton goes to the restroom, Noah begins quietly sobbing at the table and I was crying right along with him.  While Noah may have confessed to Cole that his relationship with Alison was over, that doesn’t mean that he didn’t have something real with her.  The two of them shared a connection for many years and he clearly cared for Alison very much.  Noah did his part for Cole, but in this quiet and temporary moment, he is able to finally release his grief.  This moment was heartbreaking and I empathized with Noah completely.  Will Noah be able to pick up the pieces now that Alison is gone?  Will we finally find out what happened to her?  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The Affair below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

If you enjoyed this blog, I would love it if you would click the follow button on your way out to subscribe.  Thanks for your support! 

I am so excited to announce that my book, The Search for Alice, is now available!  If you enjoy fairy-tale retellings, paranormal romance, and mystery, then this might be the book for you or someone you know!  Thank you for taking the time to check it out and I appreciate any feedback as well.  I hope you enjoy!

When Kallie Bennett, a jaded teenage girl plagued by her alcoholic mother and her peers molded out of sheer bubble gum perfection, chases after Alice in Wonderland herself, she ends up lost in her own version of Wonderland, which forces her to face her utmost fears and introduces her to familiar characters with a dark twist. Among these characters is Ches, a gorgeous vampire with a conflicted conscience, who becomes Kallie’s guide and blossoming love interest. She also crosses paths with Queen Hartley, a manipulative witch who has the power to strip away one’s memories and imagination, which brings a bone chilling new meaning to “off with their heads.” In The Search for Alice, Kallie starts to realize that her Wonderland is just as frightening as her own reality and that she cannot always run away from her problems. She must figure out a way to defeat Queen Hartley and return home before it is too late, but she soon learns that escaping Wonderland means leaving Ches behind forever.

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