Ranking the top 5 moments from “Supernatural” season 15 episode 18: “Despair”

Happy Friday TV fans! After watching The CW’s Supernatural season 15 episode 18, I witnessed one of the most beautiful and heartbreaking episodes on television of all time and I’m still not even sure if I’m ready to talk about it…

Please note MAJOR SPOILERS are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.

In episode 18, “Despair,” Jack’s life hangs in the balance as Sam, Dean, and Castiel try to figure out a way to stop Billie from reaping their friends. Meanwhile, some old friends return and an earth-shattering choice is made.

My top 5 moments from Supernatural season 15 episode 18 are:

5

“What do we do?”

The beginning of the episode starts off exactly where we left off. Chuck is gone for now and Jack is ready to explode…literally. Dean tells Jack they are not giving up on him, showing just how much he truly cares about him while Billie shows up with perfect timing.

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Billie explains that everything was doomed because of the Winchester brothers and sends Jack to The Empty so that the explosion can be somewhat useful. We quickly find out that Jack is still alive, but now everyone has a new catastrophic problem to deal with…

4

“I didn’t know who else to call…”

Other Charlie makes an appearance in this episode and is enjoying some breakfast when her girlfriend vanishes right in front of her almost in Avengers: Infinity War style.

Charlie calls Sam and Dean and asks them why she was taken and not her, which is a very good question. Sam and Dean realize that Billie will be going after anyone who has ever been resurrected or lived in another world, which puts other Bobby and Eileen in immediate danger.

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Sam tries to reach Eileen by text as they head her way, but she also vanishes and Sam’s reaction was heartbreaking, but he recognizes that he needs to temporarily push his grief aside to help everyone else.

So sorry, Sammy!

3

“We care about you because you’re you.”

Jack begins to feel useless, but Castiel presents us with another fatherly motivational speech, reminding him that they don’t care about him because he is some kind of weapon. They care about Jack because he is family and I thought this was really important for Jack to hear right now.

There’s already a lot of emotions stirring in this episode for sure.

2

“Let’s go reap a reaper.”

Sam and Dean split up to deal with Billie. Castiel says that he will go with Dean and Jack and Sam call up Donna to get everyone to a safe house of sorts, but things start to go horribly wrong.

Dean is able to fatally wound Billie, but she is not going to die without taking Dean with her. Even though Billie is the immediate threat, she does tell them that she is not the one going after their friends, suggesting it is Chuck cleaning up the world.

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Poor Sam and Jack witness everyone they care about vanish before their eyes and I have to say that I was not prepared for the Donna one. 

Meanwhile, Dean and Castiel try to hold off Billie, but time is running out and this leaves Castiel with the inevitable option we knew was coming…

1

“You changed me, Dean.”

Deep breath…here we go. I knew this moment was going to happen. I’ve predicted it ever since I first heard Castiel make that deal with The Empty that we all wanted to just disappear into the void and I know many of you did too, but that didn’t make this moment any less heartbreaking.

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I’ve talked a lot before about some of my favorite characters on television and the ones that truly resonate with me are the ones with the biggest transformations. Characters like Spike on Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Cole Turner on Charmed, Olivia Blake on The 100 and Castiel absolutely come to mind. And the reason why is because of their journey.

Castiel’s journey on SPN is one of the most important ones because he never really understood humanity. Sure, he didn’t get the references and he had us laughing until our sides hurt when he learned some moves from the pizza man, but Castiel’s gradual growth toward humanity has been inspiring and moving to watch.

And at the very center of that journey is…Dean. I have really witnessed a change in Castiel with Jack, but I thought it was the right move to have everything come back full circle with Dean.

Castiel recognizes that Dean is going to die, but he has one last trick up his sleeve. If he experiences “true happiness,” the Empty will come to claim him for good, but it will also be enough to absorb and stop Billie, which would save Dean.

Castiel’s moment of true happiness is telling Dean that he loves him, which may have been one of the most brilliant moments I have ever witnessed on television. Misha Collins had me sobbing my eyes out. The moment was inevitable in a lot of ways, but I also can’t ignore the beautiful simplicity of the power behind the words of love. A love so deep that you feel it with every ounce of your body and soul even though you know that you may never hear the words said back to you.

Castiel’s sacrifice was enough to save Dean, as he was left alone to contemplate what had just happened.

Honestly, I don’t even know if I have really come to terms with it yet, but I want to celebrate the character of Castiel and I respect the writers of SPN so much for allowing Destiel shippers this epic moment.

Only two episodes left…

Carry on until then.

Stay tuned SPN family!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own thoughts and theories on Supernatural in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Supernatural” Season 15 Episode 12: “Galaxy Brain”

Happy Monday TV fans! After watching The CW’s Supernatural season 15 episode 12, I remembered that sometimes less is more, but is canceling shows really the answer to Chuck’s problems?

Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch yet. 

In tonight’s episode, “Galaxy Brain,” Sam and Dean attempt to figure out their next move while Jody ends up in trouble. Meanwhile, Chuck/God grows tired of the other worlds while the Winchesters risk everything to protect an innocent.

My top 5 moments from Supernatural season 15 episode 12 are:

5

“I trust Jack…”

“Trust is a strong word,” but Sam and Dean are running out of options to stop Chuck/God. Billie seems to know what she’s talking about most of the time and we know that Jack has good intentions, but it’s clear that Sam and Dean are treading lightly here.

Jack cannot use his powers or he will alert Chuck, but can he control himself now that he is back in the real world? Let’s hope so.

4

“If you don’t come, I’m dead.”

Meanwhile, Jody runs into some trouble as well and makes a call to the Winchesters to help her out of a jam. It’s always good to see Jody and as we approach the end of the series, I hope we get some more screen time for her because it brings back so much SPN nostalgia.

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It was also amazing to see Jody finally meet Castiel and I thought the chat about Claire was truly touching.

3

“She haunts me.”

Jody is not the only one to return in this episode, as we learn that Dark Kaia is responsible for holding her captive. She tells Sam and Dean that Jack can get her back to her world, but they are not initially too inclined to help her after she holds their friend against her will.

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Dark Kaia reveals that her world is dying and that she has been having some prophetic nightmares, revealing that the real Kaia is actually still alive and trapped in her world.

We know that Chuck is looking to potentially shut down all other worlds so they better get Kaia out of there quick. After all, they’re running out of time…

2

“I don’t belong in your world.”

Even though the Winchesters are risking exposure to save one life, they are not about to leave an innocent behind. They return to Dark Kaia’s world, which is just as ominous as I remember. Kaia is saved and Dark Kaia decides to stay, even though it doesn’t look like her world is going to last much longer.

Jack and Kaia have a nice chat and we learn that nursery rhymes can get you through quite a lot.

It seems that all is well and Chuck has not been alerted, but another surprise guest is about to make her own appearance with killer style.

1

“I see the big picture…”

Billie shows up and takes out the reaper who has been spying on Jack, but good news never seems to travel along with her. Billie reveals that all the worlds are dying except for this one. Chuck is “wiping the slate clean” for the end, but Sam asks Billie what her end game is.

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Billie reveals that everyone has a book in death’s library…even Chuck/God. Apparently the books write themselves and no one can read their own books. Billie reminds Sam and Dean that this is their destiny. They are the messengers of God’s destruction, but is there a price that comes along with this destiny?

What’s inside Chuck’s book and how is it linked to the fate of the Winchesters?

We’ll have to stay tuned to find out, but it looks like the glimmer of hope is increasing more and more now…even in the midst of the end of the world.

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own thoughts and theories on Supernatural in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

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