Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 12: “I’m Not Gonna Leave Them Behind”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 12, I realized that it’s important to hold on to memories and stories, but not at the expense of losing out on our own.  While it’s sometimes easier to get lost in the past, we have to also remember that there are people counting on us in the present.  Some days are going to be harder than others, but we can keep the stories going without losing ourselves in the process.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “Weak,” we follow June and Al after the storm.  Meanwhile, Morgan continues to try and help others, Al proves that knowing how to change a flat tire can save your life, and our new potential villain makes quite the statement.  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 12 are:


“I gotta try.”

During this episode, Morgan is still with Wendell, Sarah, and Jim, but he refuses to give up on his friends who need help.  Morgan continues to use the walkie to reach out and explains that “somebody did the same for me once as long as he could.”  We know that Morgan is referring to Rick and this moment is important, as we think back to the numerous times that Rick tried to leave messages and information for Morgan.  Even though they were initially passing strangers, Rick didn’t give up on Morgan and Morgan recognizes the importance of doing the same for his friends for as long as he can.


“I’m not weak.”

Morgan spots our new potential villain by one of the “take what you need” boxes and tries to offer her help.  He explains that the box saved his own life.  The woman is quiet for a while, but then tells Morgan, “I don’t need any help.  I’m not weak.”  Morgan tells her that he will be on his way, but that she is more than welcome to take what she needs and she warns him, “You should be careful.”  While this statement is ominous enough, we then see the woman tampering with the water bottle.  What is her end game with this?  Why is she trying so hard to destroy the good work of others?  We’ll have to stay tuned to find out, but this is not the last we will see of her this episode.


“There isn’t any.  Just wanted to get the van back.”

Al gets very sick during this episode, but is more concerned with getting her van back especially when she sees that someone has stolen it.  Al begs June to go on foot and explains that there is medicine in the tank.  June is hesitant to leave Al behind in her condition, but approaches the tank and meets a stranger who points a gun at her.  The man tells her that “sometimes you can’t help people,” but June is determined to prove him wrong.  After having trouble finding the medicine, she continues to radio to Al, who is busy avoiding getting killed by a walker.  Al’s blurry vision is not helping matters, but she is able to put her surroundings to good use and kicks the car over and over until the tire jack gives out and the walker is brutally crushed.  I don’t know about you, but I’m ready to learn how to change a flat tire just so I could put this skill to good use too.  Al finally radios over to June and tells her that there is no medicine and she just wanted the van back.  June is beyond upset by this, especially since she almost killed a stranger over it.


“How did you believe?”

In the beginning of the episode, June continues to watch the tape of John over and over until she kills the battery on the camera and also uses the walkie to talk to him.  Even though she gets no response from John, she is able to open up and tell him what’s on her mind.  She tells John that she should have never left him and that she’s not sure that she could have answered like he did when asked if he would ever find her again.  In a vulnerable moment, June asks, “How did you believe?”  June is having trouble believing in herself especially since she is surrounded by so much death and pain, but she is trying to be strong for John and for herself.  June recognizes that she used to run away from everything and is trying so hard not to become that person again.  However, every challenge that comes her way pushes her toward resorting back to that person.  At the end of the episode, June radios out to the stranger she left behind and tells him that they are at mile marker 27, trying to do the right thing.  Like Morgan, June is trying to make amends for what she did before, even if it means starting out with a simple conversation and a kind invitation.  Even though it may take June a long time to figure out how to believe, she is certainly on the right path and John would be proud of her.


“I’m not gonna leave them behind.”

After June opens up to Al, she asks Al for the truth about the van, as she recognizes that there is clearly more to this story.  Even though Al had previously said she had no time for her own story while she recorded the stories of others, she finally lets her wall down and tells June that the tapes and stories are all she has left.  She explains that the people she knew and loved are on those tapes and she is not going to leave them behind.  June tries to remind Al that “we’re here, we’re alive,” but Al initially wants to go off on her own.  She has a change of heart; however, and tags along with June as they finally reunite with Morgan.  This moment is important because we finally get a glimpse into Al’s own story and what’s important to her.  Like June, Charlie, and Alicia, Al is desperately trying to cling to a memory or a story just to get by.  While Al doesn’t have to leave these people behind entirely, she realizes that she can make room in her heart to help those that are there in the present, proving that she is strong, caring, and loyal.  At the end of the episode, Quinn, the stranger June spoke to, radios out to June that he is at mile marker 27 but no one is there.  We quickly learn that it was a trap set by our new villain who sicks her pet walker on him, killing him.  She kicks the walker out and now writes on Quinn’s face, but what is her end game here?  While her actions are beyond sick and twisted, there has to be more to the story.  I’m absolutely concerned about the well-being of our favorite characters, as this new villain proves that she is not weak and is someone capable of destroying every last sliver of goodness and hope.  It looks like we will get to determine the fate of Victor and John next week.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

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