Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 4 episode 9: “I Just Want To Live A Different Life”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair last night, I realized that it is never too late to try and change our own story.  Alison Bailey is proof of that.  Over the years, Alison has been broken, like a wounded bird, desperately trying to cling to some kind of temporary moment of bliss.  Even though Alison began to make real changes in her life, her true metamorphosis occurred when she took Helen’s advice and decided to change her narrative, refusing to let men treat her a certain way.  That made this episode even more tragic, dark, and heartbreaking for me.  I was so proud of Alison’s strength here, but sometimes there is a darkness in others that tries to stifle even the faintest light, dragging it deep into the ocean.  But not everything stays beneath the surface for long.  Please note major spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “409,” Alison prepares for her conversation with Ben and confronts him about his lie.  While the temptation remains, Alison focuses all of her energy on doing the right thing and finding out the truth.  Alison’s fate is finally revealed to the audience, which is both shocking and devastating.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 4 episode 9 are:

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“All I want is to somehow be forgiven.”

Part one of the episode is from Alison’s perspective, as she anxiously waits for Ben to arrive.  When he shows up, Alison does her best to keep the conversation going and explains that she has some things she wants to address with Ben.  Before she can get a chance, Ben reveals to Alison that he is married and that he has just left his wife.  Alison explains that she already knew this information and that she is “done being a woman you lie to your wife about.”  After all, Alison has already lived through this before and she knows that “it doesn’t end well.”  Ben opens up to Alison and tells her about his time as a soldier in Afghanistan and how he killed a kid by mistake, which has left him with a never-ending hole of guilt, weighing down on his conscience constantly.  He explains that he was not the same person when he returned and this impacted everything, including his marriage.  Alison compassionately listens to him, understanding what it means to walk around with that pain every day.

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“Don’t mess with my heart, OK?”

Ben agrees to fix Alison’s sink even after she tells him she can’t see him anymore and then she agrees to make him dinner.  It seems like their break-up is amenable and I instantly began to question everything since we know that this is not the story that Ben told Cole and Noah.  Ben asks Alison to dance with him and Alison asks him, “What happens to us?  The ones who can’t be forgiven.”  Ben answers that he wants to live and the two share a kiss.  He asks Alison what she wants and she gives in to Ben and begins kissing him back.  This leads to them making love and it seems like everything is perfect between them now.  Only it’s too perfect and now we know why.

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“Tell me the truth.”

Alison is cleaning up in the kitchen and hears a knock at the door.  The rain is still pouring outside and she looks down at the sink, which is now broken again.  When she opens the door, Ben is standing there and part two from Alison’s perspective begins.  One of the reasons why I adore this show so much is because we get to see things from different perspectives.  Usually each story has its own version or variation of the truth, but we ultimately get to peek into the hearts and minds of our favorite characters.  When part two opened up with Alison again, I realized that the first part was merely a dream or a fantasy of what could be.  Reality was now at the door and I was on the edge of my seat, fearing for the worst.  When Alison tells Ben she needs to talk to him, he is no longer kind and gentle like in the first part.  He tells her never to stand him up again and is clearly angry and on edge.  Ben begins drinking when he tells Alison about his time in Afghanistan, which now reveals that Ben knew that the kid he killed was not holding a real weapon.  Alison tries to ask him why he would do this and his anger begins to escalate even further.

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“I don’t owe you a thing.”

We know that Ben has a problem with drinking and his behavior begins to become erratic.  He breaks down when Alison tells him to leave and cries in her lap and begs her to be with him.  Alison has had enough; however, and is ready to embrace the strong woman within.  She tells Ben she knows that he is married and it’s like a new darkness comes over Ben.  He is now suddenly calmer, but the danger is nowhere near gone.  He tells Alison that she better not tell his wife, threatening her.  Alison tells him that she won’t if he leaves and he turns everything around on her.  Ben tells Alison that she broke up other marriages and that he will only leave if she admits that this is her fault.  Alison stays strong and tells Ben, “I don’t owe you a thing.”  While I was so proud of Alison in this moment, I feared what would happen next.  Ben attacks Alison and hits her over the head.  As the blood rushes down on Alison’s face, her life began pouring out of her.  While I was hoping to be wrong about Ben, the reality of him being Alison’s murderer became painfully obvious when I realized that there were no other characters in this episode at the beginning of part two.

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“I just want to live a different life.  I want to live a different story.”

At the end of the episode, we see Ben dumping Alison’s body into the ocean by the rocks.  Alison’s last monologue is heard, which is beyond heartbreaking.  Alison talks about wanting to live a different life or story so that she could be someone who could be happy.  She took Helen’s advice and finally tried to be strong and stand up for herself, but Ben refused to allow her the chance at a fresh start.  We see Alison’s body sinking to the bottom of the ocean, as this life is over for her.  In this moment, I wanted nothing more for Alison than for her to get another chance.  She has been through so much loss and pain along the way and it seems beyond unfair that her story ends just when she was starting to fight for the spark of life that had been trapped away for so long.  This episode was compelling and dark, revealing the ugliness that can lurk beneath the surface.  Alison was not perfect and she was completely aware of this, but she didn’t deserve what happened to her and I am hoping that Cole gets the chance to bring Ben to justice.  While Alison’s story may be over, Cole’s love for her will not burn out, keeping her memory alive.  Farewell Alison.  You deserved better.  Stay tuned!

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 4 episode 6: “What If You Change The Narrative?”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair last night, I thought about the idea that it’s easier to confide in a stranger than it is to your best friend or loved one and I started to wonder why that is.  Is it because we are afraid to let our loved ones see the inner turmoil stirring around inside of us?  Is it because we don’t want to taint their image of us or is it because we need to hear the raw and simple truth?  Either way, we sometimes get the best advice from someone on the outside, but what do we do with this advice?  Do we change our narrative or do we continue to go down the same path, continuing to make the same mistakes over and over again?  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “406,” Noah and Janelle continue to grow closer when they bond over Anton’s essay.  Meanwhile, Alison meets an unexpected stranger and finds out the truth about Ben and her day continues get worse until she has a real conversation with the last person on earth you would think would be willing to help her.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 4 episode 6 are:

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“He saved your life.”

Part two of the episode is from Alison’s perspective and she is visiting her mother, Athena, with Joanie while Cole is away.  Alison notices that Athena gets upset after a short phone call and that her phone continues to ring.  Curiosity eats away at Alison until she finally picks up the phone and is shocked to find out the identity of the person on the other line.  Alison meets a man named James who claims he is her father.  Alison is shocked by this revelation and explains that her mother said she never knew who her real father was.  James reveals his side of the story to Alison and explains that he is the one who saved her life, putting some of the pieces together of her lost memory, which involved two strong hands pulling her out of the water.  Alison realizes that the timing of this revelation is strange and asks her father, “why now?”  James explains that his kidneys are failing and he is hoping that Alison can get tested to see if she would be a potential match as a donor.  Before Alison can give a real answer to this request, she leaves the house, unable to process all of the information being thrown her way.

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“Why did he reach out to you?”

Alison confronts her mother, Athena, and asks her why she kept this information from her.  Athena is upset to find out that James contacted Alison and begins laughing hysterically when she finds out that he wanted a kidney.  When Alison questions her mother further about this, she tells Alison the truth and explains that James raped her when she was nineteen and that she changed her name and moved away to protect her.  Athena tells Alison that she doesn’t remember anything about him saving her and Alison is having trouble processing everything, as she desperately needs some kind of escape at this point.  If James did not save Alison, it still makes us wonder about this memory she has locked away.  It was clearly traumatic enough to be blocked, but will we find out the truth about what happened to her?  Is it possible that James or his wife has something to do with Alison’s disappearance?  The questions keep coming as new players are introduced to the mystery, but we will have to wait and see how it all unravels.

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“Hey pot, I’m kettle.  Nice to meet you.”

In part one, Anton approaches Noah and gives him an essay to look at, as he is now thinking about applying to Princeton again.  Noah is clearly having an impact on Anton and he wants to loop Janelle into the conversation, as he recognizes how much potential her son has.  Noah barges into Janelle’s office and interrupts a conference call with her supervisor.  Noah tries to get involved further by talking to him and explaining that he’s “incredibly lucky to have her.”  While this gesture is sweet and well intended, Noah is out of line and Janelle reminds him to knock next time.  After Trevor refuses to go to the concert with Noah, he ends up at Janelle’s doorstep and the two discuss Anton’s essay and begin growing even closer.  As fate would have it, just when they begin kissing, Anton and his father walk in the door and Noah finds himself out of place.  Janelle thanks him for coming over and Noah is beyond polite to Anton’s father, but is Noah overstepping here?  Noah is having trouble connecting to his own family and it looks like he has the chance to do so here, but something tells me that Anton’s father will not want Noah intervening any further.  I was disappointed to see Noah and Janelle’s moment together interrupted, but it’s clear that sparks are continuing to fly, but how will Anton feel when he finds out that his teacher and mentor is into his mom?

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“You look good for a felon.”

After Noah gets a phone call and rushes off to bail Alison out of jail, we jump to part two to learn about the events that led up to this.  Alison tries to call Ben and she really needs to talk to him about everything she just learned about her father.  Her emotions are overwhelming her and she makes the decision to drive down to his work, but is in for an unexpected surprise when she meets his wife at the office.  Alison is stunned and walks out of there, desperately needing to just get away.  She uses Noah’s gift card to take a flight to California, but trouble refuses to stay behind.  Alison begins drinking and talking to the stranger next to her and it seems harmless enough until he begins touching her thigh and suggesting that they try out the mile high club.  Alison throws her drink on the stranger and tries to get up, but bumps her head and accidentally pushes over an elderly woman.  The misunderstanding begins to escalate and no one believes Alison when she tries to tell security that the man attacked her.  Alison’s terrible day hits a new low when she winds up zip tied for the remainder of the flight while a young girl records her on her phone.  #BadDay 

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“You can manifest your reality.”

After Noah bails Alison out of jail, they are in the car and she begins breaking down and tells Noah she feels like she can’t breathe.  While it seems like Alison is having a panic attack, he rushes her over to Vik so he can make sure she is all right.  Helen offers for Alison to stay the night and even Alison comments that “this is weird.”  Alison turns to Helen, recognizing that perhaps she is the only person who can give her some real and honest advice.  She asks her, “Why do men look at me and see someone they can fuck with?  It’s like they can smell something on me.”  Helen talks to her about “manifesting her reality,” and explains that “if there’s something in your life you want to change, you just need to think differently and it will change.  Alison seems doubtful at first, but Helen reminds Alison that she doesn’t always need to play the victim.  She says, “If you don’t like the way men are treating you, change the story.  Play a different character.”  Helen’s words seem to really resonate with Alison and Helen reminds us why we love her so much when she tells Alison to tell Ben to “go fuck himself” and that it’s not OK for him to treat her like that.  It’s no secret that Alison and Helen have a beyond complicated past and this moment is truly important, as Alison gets some much needed advice that is free of an ulterior motive.  Helen has been going through her own issues and she reminds Alison that she is still young enough to change her story.  Will Alison be able to do so, however?  Either way, Alison genuinely appreciates Helen’s words.  I have to admit that I never thought I would see these two bonding over anything, but this moment of clarity was extremely important for both Alison and Helen.  Perhaps these two women can finally discover who they are and what they want without compromising themselves to please someone else.  It’s about time.  Stay tuned! 

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 4 episode 5: “Take Care of your Mind, Body, and Soul”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair last night, I learned that we sometimes have to go back to the past and walk in the steps of those before us in order to truly know which path to take for our own future.  We may find answers to a mystery that we never even knew existed or realize that we have never made a single choice for ourselves, but what we do next can help determine who we are and who we can still become.  We don’t have to travel across the country to find it, but sometimes we need to escape just for a little while to listen to our heart and find out what or who it truly desires.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “405,” Cole journeys to Morro Bay, California to find out more about his father’s surfboard, but meets someone unexpected from his father’s past who will potentially change his future.  Meanwhile, Vik feels like his whole world is crashing down around him, desperate to turn off the reality of his situation and live in the moment.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 4 episode 5 are:

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“I can’t do it alone.”

Part one of the episode opens up with Vik and it was refreshing to see things from his perspective.  Typically when we learn anything about Vik, it is from Helen’s eyes, so this was a nice change.  Vik certainly has a lot on his plate, as he has just found out that he has stage 4 pancreatic cancer and is looking for some way to give his short life meaning.  After trying to talk to his parents, his father asks him, “Why do you have to be so cruel?”  Vik is merely trying to let his parents know about his life insurance policy and prepare them for the inevitable, but they don’t want to hear the truth about his situation.  Vik hopes to have better luck with Helen and is disappointed when the fertility doctor explains that their situation has not improved in order for Helen to have a baby.  Helen admits that she has not been giving herself the shots as much as she should because she really doesn’t want to have a baby in a world without Vik.  While one can understand where Helen is coming from, who already has four children, Vik is crushed by this and is angry that Helen has lied to him once again. 

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“I haven’t made a single choice for myself.”

After realizing that his day isn’t going to get any better, Vik decides not to return to work at the hospital and instead buys a fancy Porsche with no hesitation.  After going off on his neighbor, Sierra, for leaving her garbage can out again, Sierra is distracted by his new shiny car and suggests that they take it for a ride.  After testing out how fast the car can go, Vik gets pulled over and starts laughing when the cop tells him that they could have gotten killed.  He blurts out that he has stage 4 cancer and the cop reminds him this isn’t the first time he has heard this from someone.  Vik tells him, “so write me a ticket then,” not caring about the consequences of his actions, as Sierra is shocked to find out that that Vik is dying.  Vik later returns to Sierra’s home and the two talk about their lives and Vik comes to the realization that every single choice he has made has been for his parents.  He finally makes a decision for himself when he decides to sleep with Sierra, but will he be able to tell Helen what happened?  Vik is all about living in the moment right now, but what happens when reality begins to set in again?

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“I come with the room.”

In part two, Cole travels out to Morro Bay, California and meets the beautiful and mysterious, Delphine, played by the brilliant Phoebe Tonkin.  Cole initially declines her forward advances, but eventually gives in to temptation after the two of them bond later in the episode.  Cole recognizes that his affair with Delphine is fleeting and temporary and she is perfectly OK with that, explaining that Cole doesn’t need to apologize to her because it was something she wanted.  Even though Cole will probably never see Delphine again, it’s clear that she has had an impact to him, opening his eyes to the truth that he kept hidden away for so long.

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“You look so much like someone I used to know.”

Perhaps the biggest surprise for Cole is that he meets Nan, who is beyond shocked when Cole walks through the doors of the Perino Gallery.  Cole discovers that Nan is the one who made his father’s surfboard and quickly learns that they also had an affair for a summer.  Nan is very welcoming to Cole and has a free spirit charm that is endearing.  She confides in Cole about his father and tells him that he was adventurous, which drastically differs from Cole’s own memories about his father, who he described as “emotionally depressed.”  After revealing that his father died many years back, Nan is beyond upset.  Cole realizes that their affair was not meaningless, as Nan truly loved his father.  She shows Cole the love letters that she continued to write him for 10 years after he went back home and Cole starts to see everything with fresh new eyes.  Nan explains that she thought of Cole’s father, Gabriel, as her soul mate and her destiny.  She shows him that the symbol on his surfboard contains their initials, intertwined for eternity.  You can see the love in Nan’s eyes when she talks about Gabriel, as she tells Cole that he called her “wild eyes” and said that he didn’t know that women like her existed in the world.  Nan admits to Cole that they wanted different things and that she has no regrets, but that he had to return home because Cherry was pregnant and threatened to kill herself.  Cole is shocked to learn this, but Nan explains that she tried to do an “exorcism” of sorts through letters to give Gabriel the opportunity to free himself from her and move on with his life.

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“Take care of your mind, body, and soul.”

After learning about the “exorcism” that Nan describes, Cole takes this opportunity to try it out for himself and to use it on his own feelings for Alison.  Nan reads each of the five letters to him, which are assigned with a task and asks Delphine to be his guide through this experience.  The letters start off with tasks like finding something in nature that has the scent of the one you love and writing down everything you love about that person.  It then escalates to burning these items along with the scent and stating out loud everything you hate that you associate with them.  Cole finally allows his emotions and feelings to reach the surface and his words are beyond moving.  He finally says that, “I hate that you gave up on me and I hate that I can’t give up on you.”  Delphine reminds him to state his intention as he says these words and burns everything and he finally says, “I want to be free of you.”  During Cole’s “exorcism” of his feelings for Alison, the song, “The Night We Met” by Lord Huron is playing in the background.  If you have ever seen the show, “13 Reasons Why,” this is the song that played when Clay and Hannah danced together and it instantly tugs at your emotions and you will find yourself crying before you know it.  You can listen to the song here.  This song was the perfect soundtrack to Cole’s “exorcism,” as he allows himself to try and be free of Alison, but tells Nan the next day that he only feels worse and it didn’t work.  Nan tries to tell him it worked for his father because the last task was to send back the letters and she has them.  Cole looks closely at the postmark and tells Nan that his father never sent them, as it was postmarked two years after he died.  He realizes that Cherry must have found them and sent them back to Nan, crushing her hope that Gabriel’s love for her still existed.  Cole explains that his father hung himself on his 10th birthday, just a couple of weeks after the last letter arrived.

This moment is heartbreaking, but Nan finally learns the truth that Gabriel’s love for her never burned out and Cole now understands that he is still in love with Alison and that he needs to tell her how he feels before it’s too late.  Delphine tells Cole to “take care of his mind, body, and soul,” before he goes and Cole thanks his father, as he leaves Morro Bay behind.  After watching this episode, I almost wish that part two was the entire episode, but I do think it is important that we saw what is going on with Vik as well.  That being said, part two of the episode was so beautifully written and well executed and may have been one of the most beautiful moments I have ever seen on the show.  Now that we know how Cole feels about Alison, will she return his love before it’s too late?  Does Cole get a chance to tell Alison that he loves her before she goes missing?  Stay tuned, as things continue to heat up each week!

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Younger” season 5 episode 5: “You Become What You Do”

Happy Wednesday TV fans!  After watching TV Land’s Younger season 5 episode 5 last night, I learned that we might not always know what the future holds for us, but that doesn’t mean that running away is the answer.  Even if we think that there is nothing left for us somewhere, a glimmer of hope can still prevail, proving that “you can’t go wrong committing to yourself.”  Do we take the leap of faith or do we opt for the safe choice?  It’s impossible to know which option will work out better and both may fail miserably, but if we don’t try, we’ll end up with something even worse, regret.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “Big Little Liza,” Liza continues her relationship with Don, but is in for a surprising twist.   Meanwhile, Josh contemplates leaving New York, Lauren gets schooled on what is relevant, and Kelsey grows closer to her author, Jake.  My top 5 moments from Younger season 5 episode 5 are:

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“I don’t want to share you tonight.”

Kelsey and Zane’s new author, Jake, invites Kelsey to be his plus-one at a party.  It seems harmless enough, but as the night goes on, it’s clear that Jake has romantic feelings for Kelsey.  After taking her on the rooftop away from the rest of the party, he awkwardly asks her if he can kiss her, but Kelsey doesn’t turn this request down.  They share a kiss and Kelsey starts to realize that their relationship may not just be professional anymore.  Zane is not blind to Jake’s growing crush on Kelsey and reminds her, “You’re too smart to do something to jeopardize this.”  Zane is looking at this from a business angle, but there may be some jealousy involved as well.  Is Kelsey making the right decision?  I still feel that she is better suited for Zane, but it may take losing him for her to realize that he could be the one.

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“Please keep your mingling to a minimum.”

Lauren is preparing for a make-up event and introduces us to her new intern, Tam.  After Josh asks who he is, Lauren reminds him that “you can’t just assume everyone’s pronouns buddy,” and explains that “their name is Tam.”  At the party, Lauren tries to school Liza and Maggie on what’s appropriate and on trend, but Maggie hilariously says, “I was less confused in the closet.”  After Lauren fails to get Tam to commit to a Selfie or a photo with her, he tells Lauren that she is trying too hard and that no one even posts anymore.  Lauren is shocked to realize that she is now considered “old,” as she has always prided herself on knowing what’s relevant before everyone else.  Will this cause Lauren to have a further crisis or will she be able to accept who she is and own it? 

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“Your life is your life but why are you smashing your face into bread?”

The funniest part of the episode for me is when Liza discovers that her daughter, Caitlin, is into “breadfacing.”  Liza is horrified by this and tries to understand it, but Maggie does not hold anything back when she explains that people are definitely “jerking off” to what she is doing.  After several failed attempts to reach Caitlin by phone, Liza sits down at dinner with her and asks her why she is doing this.  Caitlin explains that it is just for some extra money, but Liza reminds her that “you are what you do,” which is advice that she can apply to her own situation as well.  Liza hilariously begins rubbing her own face against a loaf of bread at dinner to get Caitlin to see her point, proving that she doesn’t care what anyone thinks.  However, she still feels the need to lie about her age at her job.  Even though Charles has explained why she must continue to lie, it seems like Liza can take some lessons from her older and wiser self. 

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“I’m not ready to give up yet.”

In this episode, we learn that Josh needs to make a huge decision on whether or not to stay in New York and continue his lease for the next ten years.  Josh has clearly been damaged by commitment and starts to wonder if he might be better off starting fresh somewhere else.  He confides in Liza about this and tells her that he feels like he is done with this place.  Liza desperately tries to get him to see the good and tells him that, “this place is your passion, your soul.”  She reminds him that “you can’t go wrong committing to yourself,” but Josh is still confused at this point on what he should do.  He asks her what is keeping him there and explains that he doesn’t have her, even though Liza tells him that she will always be a part of his life.  Later in the episode, Liza freaks out when she sees the Inkburg sign being taken down and rushes up to Josh to try and get him to change his mind.  Josh explains that he is just replacing it with a bigger sign to her relief.  Josh and Liza embrace in a hug and it’s hard not to notice the spark still lingering between these two.  Josh tells Liza that he’s not ready to give up yet, but it’s clear that he is talking about more than New York and his place of business.  Josh and Liza still have unresolved feelings that will reach the surface sooner or later, but this doesn’t make their friendship or relationship any less complicated at the moment.  Either way, I am happy that Josh will be sticking around.

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“I think I might know why you can’t find work.”

In this episode, Don returns and him and Liza seem to be hitting it off.  While I don’t really see the passion like with her and Charles or with her and Josh, Don seems to be a nice enough guy who is making Liza laugh.  After Liza slips on the ice, Don picks up her two ID cards and Liza tells him the truth about her situation.  Liza quickly learns that you can’t trust everyone and Don uses this as an opportunity to expose Liza in a story for Vanity Fair.  A Fact Checker begins calling Liza, Kelsey, and even Reese Witherspoon’s company, looking for confirmation on Liza’s age.  Liza panics when she is asked for an answer, but thinks on her feet and says that she is “age queer” and doesn’t identify with any age.  Kelsey jumps on the bandwagon as well and surprisingly this works and even creates a buzz on Twitter.  Later on, Liza confronts Don and he reminds her that he was just doing what he needed to do and is no different from her.  Liza reminds us why we adore her so much when she tells Don that she thinks she knows why he is having trouble finding work and says, “Because you’re an asshole Don.”  I have to admit I started cheering for her in this moment and I hope that Liza realizes that she deserves much better.  However, this should teach her a valuable lesson about trust and maybe it’s about time that the truth comes out to everyone, even though there will be consequences.  Stay tuned!

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Younger” season 5 episode 3: “Sometimes I am blind to what’s right in front of me.”

Happy Wednesday TV fans!  After watching TV Land’s Younger season 5 episode 3 last night, I learned that sometimes you want to believe in the lie so much that you start to actually think that it’s the truth.  Only it eats away at you until you ultimately make the decision on whether or not to release it.  Even though it may be easier to have others believe in the story, sometimes being real and upfront can show others that a happy ending is possible, but it may not be in the cards right now and that’s perfectly OK.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “The End of the Tour,” Pauline is having a difficult time coping with the end of her marriage when she goes on her book tour.  Meanwhile, Kelsey joins a new dating app, Lauren tries to talk some sense into Josh, and Charles confronts Liza.  My top 5 moments from Younger season 5 episode 3 are:

5

“You probably don’t need to get that detailed.”

As Pauline prepares for her book tour, she has trouble coping with the fact that her marriage is over.  Diana suggests that she “postpone the truth,” but Pauline is interested in what Liza thinks.  Liza explains that people find themselves wanting to believe in the story, but Pauline is not so sure she can keep the lie going.  After over sharing about her sexcapades with Charles outdoors, Liza gently reminds her that perhaps they don’t need to get that detailed with the lie, but it seems like Pauline is hanging on by a thread at this point.

4

“You’re a born romantic.”

After being dumped by Claire, Josh is trying his best to move on and have as much meaningless sex as possible.  However, Lauren tries to set him straight on this and explains that as his roommate there should be some common courtesy, which includes “no roamers, no moaners, and no giving out the Wifi password.”  I have to say that I am loving the budding friendship between Lauren and Josh.  Sometimes Josh needs someone to just tell him how it is without worrying about hurting his feelings.  Josh confides in Lauren that he thinks that he might have already met the right person and Lauren shows off her softer side when she tells him that if it’s meant to be, nothing will keep them apart.  While we don’t know if Josh and Liza will patch things up anytime soon, it looks like Lauren will be a good influence on him.

3

“My story isn’t over and my happy ending is still out there.”

Pauline’s book tour isn’t going exactly according to plan.  While she is able to read a passage from her book eloquently, once we get to the question and answer portion she breaks down in tears whenever she is asked about her own personal relationship and how she was able to get back together with Charles.  In “Marriage Vacation,” she has a passage where she compares her sex life to a restaurant and is asked what restaurant it represents now.  Pauline hilariously breaks down in tears and blurts out something about Korean Barbecue and how it’s so “spicy.”  When Charles comes to one of her readings, Pauline cannot pretend anymore.  She tells the audience the truth and explains that her story isn’t over just yet.  Pauline feels much better now that she has cleared her conscience and it seems like her readers will respect her even more now.

2

“I love your confidence.  Sometimes it’s even sexy…sometimes.”

The sparks continue to fly between Kelsey and Zane and escalate even further when Zane comes up on her Yara dating app, which is apparently a big deal.  Kelsey is not as excited about it, but starts to think that it may have more potential than she initially gave it credit for when it also presents a potential match in Jake who will be working with both her and Zane.  Kelsey even asks him if “three’s a crowd,” which seems like it will now present even more of a dilemma for Kelsey both professionally and romantically, but we will have to stay tuned to see how this unfolds.  Either way, I am loving the vibe between Kelsey and Zane, but it seems like she is having mixed feelings at this point.

1

“Sometimes I am blind to what’s right in front of me.”

After brooding for some time, Charles confronts Liza at the end of the episode and asks her, “Who are you?”  Clearly Charles is hurt and frustrated when he finds out that she has been lying to him all this time.  He tells her that she betrayed him and that their relationship will be a professional reporting one from now on.  Liza tries to interject and suggests that perhaps she should leave instead, but Charles harshly reminds her she did all of this to be able to work.  When Charles walks away from Liza, the lie has finally caught up to her and I’m not sure if she will be able to mend his broken heart.  Perhaps it’s about time Liza comes clean with everyone, but is it too late for that?

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Younger below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

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Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 8 Mid-Season Finale: “No One’s Gone”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 8, I learned that we really are all “connected by this single screwed up world,” as Al suggested.  The truth is important and the stories and memories we leave behind are sometimes all we have left to cling to.  We may not always find what we are looking for, but we touch the lives of so many without even realizing it.  Words and actions matter and more importantly, the truth can bring us some much needed comfort, reminding us that it’s never too late to become the person we are meant to be.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “No One’s Gone,” we learn that Madison and Al crossed paths in the past; making a much bigger impact on each other than anyone might have guessed.  Meanwhile, Morgan and Naomi try to make it to the infirmary to help save John Dorie’s life, Alicia shows up to finish things once and for all, and Madison’s fate is finally revealed.  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 8 Mid-Season Finale are:

5

“Thought I’d mix it up today.”

When Al and the others show up at the stadium, the tank is surrounded by an overwhelming amount of walkers, but they are ready to cause a distraction that will allow Morgan and Naomi to get inside to help John.  The plan seems to be working, but Alicia, Victor, and Luciana show up with an RPG, refusing to make this go seamlessly.  Alicia and Al share some choice words over the walkie-talkie, while Al reminds her that she’s now definitely supporting the other side.  It’s great to see Al finally step into the action, as she trusts Charlie to record what goes on, not wanting to lose out on a chance to document their story further.  Alicia and Al get into quite the fight when Alicia shows up at the tank.  Al comes pretty close to being the main course meal for the walkers, but is able to get out of this without a scratch.

4

“We’re connected by this single screwed up world.”

During the episode, we flash back to the past before Madison found the stadium and learn that she crossed paths with Al.  While they initially start off not trusting each other, Madison eventually lets her guard down after aimlessly searching for a tape from one of her kids.  Al talks to Madison about the truth and tells her how it can change things.  She empathizes with Madison and explains that even though she didn’t find the story she was looking for, someone might be interested in her story one day.  Madison explains that she broke her promise to her kids and that “you don’t need a camera cus it just sticks.”  She tells a heartwarming story about her kids trying to help a wounded bird and nurse it back to health.  They named the bird “Amina” for short and took care of her, giving her a chance when no one else would.  Madison would open the box each day, fearing what she might find, but was shocked to see the bird flying around in their living room.  Madison was so touched by the actions of her children who refused to give up on this bird that anyone else might have turned their back on.  She explains that there is not a lot of that left in the world now and she never wants her kids to lose that.  When Madison and Al part ways, Al gives her some Ramen noodles and tells her that maybe they will meet again.  Later on, when Madison reunites with her kids at the motel, she reveals to them that someone helped her when they didn’t have to and that “It’s time for us to do the same.”  Her interaction with Al inspires her to build the stadium into a place where others can go to find a sense of belonging, protection, and people who will stand by them.  Madison’s words are absolutely beautiful and remind us that there is still good in the world.  Even though she and Al were strangers, they ended up helping each other, reinforcing the belief that there are still good people existing in this world.

3

“June, well that’s my favorite month.”

When Naomi goes into the infirmary with Morgan, John is holding on by a thread.  He asks Charlie to record him, but Al tries to get him to stay positive.  John explains that “it’s for her,” as he speaks openly to Naomi on camera and tells her to stop running and to help Morgan do the same.  Luckily, Naomi is able to stabilize John and it looks like he is going to be OK.  Naomi tells John that her real name is June, finally wanting to tell him something real and meaningful.  John’s reaction is beyond heartwarming when he tells her that June is his favorite month.  June touches John’s hand and the spark between these two is burning brightly again, allowing us John Dorie fans to cheer.  It looks like these two might get the chance they deserve after all, inspiring some hope in this distressing world.  I am absolutely thrilled that John is going to be OK because his character elevates the show, opening up possibilities for a new chapter.

2

“I’m not that person anymore.”

When Alicia is in the tank, she spots the Ramen noodles and demands to know where Al got them.  Everything clicks in her head when she frantically searches through the tapes and finds one titled, “Amina.”  Alicia watches the recording of her mother, Madison, carefully listening to each and every word, displaying her grief across her face.  Alicia still wants to take revenge on Naomi, however; and demands that Al convinces her to come out.  Al strategically leaves on the walkie-talkie to warn Morgan and Naomi.  Morgan offers to go first because he doesn’t want anything to happen to Naomi.  When Alicia comes out, he stands in front of Naomi and she is shocked that is willing to give his life for a stranger.  Alicia’s rage is almost uncontrollable now, as she points the gun at them and screams, “My Mom’s dead because of what you did!”  Morgan doesn’t give up on Alicia and even when she says that she’s not that person anymore, Morgan tries to get her to realize that it’s not too late and that things can change.  Morgan explains that they did for him and they still can for Alicia.  He ultimately gets through to her when he tells her that they already have because he’s not dead.  Alicia breaks down crying and the immediate threat is over, as she finally allows her emotions to break through.  This moment is absolutely heartbreaking, as Alicia shows her own vulnerability.  It’s shocking that she waited this long to cry, but her actions are understandable and I just hope that she can take comfort in knowing how much her family cared about her and how she still has the opportunity to become who she is meant to and to help others in need.

1

“It was never about the stadium.  It was about the people.  It was about us.”

Al asks Alicia what happened to her mother, as she made quite an impact on her as well and Alicia replies with, “You want the rest of my Mom’s story?  Pull over.”  All of the pieces finally come together, as we learn about the last moments for everyone in the stadium.  Charlie explains that Mel saved her life and got her out of there in the car.  Naomi reveals that she tried to talk everyone out of leaving, but they had already made up their minds.  She explains that she was then surrounded by walkers and made a run for it, thinking that everyone was already dead.  She was then later picked up by the Vultures, but it’s clear that Naomi was just trying to survive like everyone else.  We learn that Victor got burned when he saved Alicia from running after her mother and then we finally learn the fate of Madison.  Madison recognized that her friends and family were in danger and lured the walkers away from them with a flare, trusting that the walls would hold.  No one else believed her and the other people died trying to escape, but Madison knew that she was right.  Once she saw that her family would be able to get away safely, she tried to make it to the tunnels but was trapped with nowhere to go.  As the walkers surrounded her, Madison threw the flare into the hoard and a bright glow reflected off her face before the explosion hit.  Madison gave up her life so that her family and friends could live.  After the story is recorded, Al labels this one “Madison,” reminding us that her story is never gone.  Madison will live on through her family and her actions will hopefully inspire them to continue to try and do the right thing.  We will need to wait until August 2018 for new episodes, but we have now lost two main characters and I’m interested to see where we are going now.  While we know that new threats are always right around the corner, it will be interesting to see how the dynamic of the show shifts now that we are focusing on different characters and story-lines.  I’m absolutely open to the change, but I will miss Madison, as Kim Dickens did a phenomenal job as the main protagonist on the show.  RIP Madison.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Younger” season 5 episode 1 season premiere: “My Feelings are There and they’re Real”

Happy Saturday TV fans!  So I finally got the chance to binge-watch the first four seasons of TV Land’s Younger on Hulu and I have to admit that I’m absolutely hooked.  If you haven’t gotten a chance to watch the show yet, I absolutely recommend it.  It kind of has a romcom feel, but goes so much further than that.  You will absolutely fall in love with every character on the show and the episodes are a little over 30 minutes each so you can get through full seasons rather quickly.  Sutton Foster is absolutely fabulous as Liza Miller.  You may think you know what the show is about after seeing some of the previews or commercials on Hulu, but I have to say that the show went far beyond my expectations.  While the love triangle between Liza, Josh, and Charles is addicting enough, what sets this show apart is its ability to redefine labels and stereotypes in a world focused on social media and appearances.  It may seem slightly far-fetched that Liza is able to fool almost everyone into thinking that she is 26 years old, even though she looks amazing for her age, but somehow it works.  Her continuation of her new identity allows her to reinvent herself, but not without making mistakes along the way.  Now that I am finally caught up, I was excited to watch the season premiere of season 5 on my DVR.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, Liza comes back from Ireland and tries to tell Charles how she feels, but is interrupted by an HR convention on sexual harassment.  Meanwhile, Kelsey and Zane try to balance their feelings for one another, while maintaining an even playing field at work.   My top 5 moments from Younger season 5 episode 1 season premiere are:

5

“Do you want to say something Liza?  Could destroy the company but we’ll support you.”

When Zane joined Empirical, he brought back one of the top selling authors, Edward L.L. Moore, who is beyond eccentric and extremely creepy when it comes to his advances toward Liza when she is dressed up as “Princess Pampam.”  While this seems like a huge win for Empirical, Moore is accused of inappropriate behavior, which could bring more trouble than he is worth.  Charles tries to speak openly to Liza about Moore’s past behavior toward her and Diana impatiently waits for a response.  Miriam Shor is absolutely hilarious as Diana, as she combines the perfect blend of unaware rudeness with a get-to-the-point attitude.  While she may come across harsh sometimes, she has displayed some wonderful moments with Liza as well, proving that she does care about others after all.  Diana basically says everything that you may be thinking, but shouldn’t really say out loud, but she refuses to apologize for this and I wouldn’t have it any other way.  After watching the previews for upcoming episodes, I’m excited to see that her mystery construction man will be making another appearance, which may finally give Diana a chance at some real adventure and love.  Maybe she’ll even bring back the jeans into her wardrobe.

4

“I think he’s making a mistake but I’m the last person who could tell him that.”

Liza and Kelsey rehash what happened in Ireland and are shocked by Josh’s impetuous behavior.  After putting his feelings out there for Liza the night before his wedding, Josh ultimately decides to go through with it, crushing my hopes and dreams for these two to get back together.  Even though Josh, played by Nico Tortorella, is charming and absolutely swoon-worthy, his immaturity often gets the best of him, causing him not to always make the best decisions.  While Josh hasn’t returned just yet, I can’t imagine that the drama is over between him and Liza.  We’ll have to stay tuned to see how long he actually stays married to Claire, but I’m going to give it three weeks top.  After all, that will match the actual time they have been together.

3

“You’re so desperate for my approval.”

So I am absolutely shipping Kelsey and Zane.  I am a big fan of Charles Michael Davis from The Originals and it’s nice to see him put the blood-lust on the back burner while he shows off his immaculate suits and irresistible charm on Younger.  Kelsey has not had the best luck with men.  I am still beyond shocked over her fiancé, Thad getting crushed by construction debris earlier in the series.  I mean I was not a fan of Thad at all or Chad for that matter, but that was not what I had in mind for his exit from the show.  I definitely did not like the hinted vibes between Josh and Kelsey after they became roommates and was thrilled to see the introduction of Zane’s character in season 4 to steer away from this.  Zane is the perfect match for Kelsey and I think that if they ever moved in together, they would have the most amazing wardrobe between the two of them.  While Kelsey seems hesitant about moving forward with Zane, it doesn’t look like he is giving up on her just yet.  But will their competitiveness at work block all possibilities of a stable relationship?

2

“What happened in this office was incredible.  My feelings are there and they’re real.”

When Liza comes face to face with Charles again, her feelings come rushing to the surface as well.  Josh has moved on and put a “ring between them,” but Liza realizes that a relationship with Charles would be beyond complicated.  Especially since she has gotten so close to his wife, Pauline, which would make things very messy.  When Liza tells Charles how she feels, he awkwardly explains that he is asking Liza about what happened with Edward L.L. Moore and they are then interrupted by Diana before they can discuss their feelings any further.  I have gotten used to the unresolved tension between Liza and Charles and it seems like the timing is never quite right, but it seems like everything is about to change.

1

Edward L.L. Moore tells Charles the truth about Liza.

At the end of the episode, Charles announces that they are postponing Moore’s books because of the allegations against him.  Moore is not about to go quietly, however; as he pays Charles a visit.  He reveals that he has files on all of the women involved, including Liza.  He tells Charles about Liza’s real age and that she is a divorced housewife from New Jersey.  Charles is beyond shocked, but can’t dispute the evidence in front of him, especially when he sees the marriage certificate.  I have to say that it is about time Charles found out the truth.  We know that Liza’s deception had damaged the relationship between her and Josh and her friendship with Kelsey in the past, but this discovery is something earth shattering.  Charles is Liza’s boss and he also has very real feelings for her.  Even though they haven’t gotten a chance to see their story through, what will happen now that Charles knows the truth?  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Younger below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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