Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 4 episode 5: “Take Care of your Mind, Body, and Soul”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair last night, I learned that we sometimes have to go back to the past and walk in the steps of those before us in order to truly know which path to take for our own future.  We may find answers to a mystery that we never even knew existed or realize that we have never made a single choice for ourselves, but what we do next can help determine who we are and who we can still become.  We don’t have to travel across the country to find it, but sometimes we need to escape just for a little while to listen to our heart and find out what or who it truly desires.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “405,” Cole journeys to Morro Bay, California to find out more about his father’s surfboard, but meets someone unexpected from his father’s past who will potentially change his future.  Meanwhile, Vik feels like his whole world is crashing down around him, desperate to turn off the reality of his situation and live in the moment.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 4 episode 5 are:

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“I can’t do it alone.”

Part one of the episode opens up with Vik and it was refreshing to see things from his perspective.  Typically when we learn anything about Vik, it is from Helen’s eyes, so this was a nice change.  Vik certainly has a lot on his plate, as he has just found out that he has stage 4 pancreatic cancer and is looking for some way to give his short life meaning.  After trying to talk to his parents, his father asks him, “Why do you have to be so cruel?”  Vik is merely trying to let his parents know about his life insurance policy and prepare them for the inevitable, but they don’t want to hear the truth about his situation.  Vik hopes to have better luck with Helen and is disappointed when the fertility doctor explains that their situation has not improved in order for Helen to have a baby.  Helen admits that she has not been giving herself the shots as much as she should because she really doesn’t want to have a baby in a world without Vik.  While one can understand where Helen is coming from, who already has four children, Vik is crushed by this and is angry that Helen has lied to him once again. 

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“I haven’t made a single choice for myself.”

After realizing that his day isn’t going to get any better, Vik decides not to return to work at the hospital and instead buys a fancy Porsche with no hesitation.  After going off on his neighbor, Sierra, for leaving her garbage can out again, Sierra is distracted by his new shiny car and suggests that they take it for a ride.  After testing out how fast the car can go, Vik gets pulled over and starts laughing when the cop tells him that they could have gotten killed.  He blurts out that he has stage 4 cancer and the cop reminds him this isn’t the first time he has heard this from someone.  Vik tells him, “so write me a ticket then,” not caring about the consequences of his actions, as Sierra is shocked to find out that that Vik is dying.  Vik later returns to Sierra’s home and the two talk about their lives and Vik comes to the realization that every single choice he has made has been for his parents.  He finally makes a decision for himself when he decides to sleep with Sierra, but will he be able to tell Helen what happened?  Vik is all about living in the moment right now, but what happens when reality begins to set in again?

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“I come with the room.”

In part two, Cole travels out to Morro Bay, California and meets the beautiful and mysterious, Delphine, played by the brilliant Phoebe Tonkin.  Cole initially declines her forward advances, but eventually gives in to temptation after the two of them bond later in the episode.  Cole recognizes that his affair with Delphine is fleeting and temporary and she is perfectly OK with that, explaining that Cole doesn’t need to apologize to her because it was something she wanted.  Even though Cole will probably never see Delphine again, it’s clear that she has had an impact to him, opening his eyes to the truth that he kept hidden away for so long.

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“You look so much like someone I used to know.”

Perhaps the biggest surprise for Cole is that he meets Nan, who is beyond shocked when Cole walks through the doors of the Perino Gallery.  Cole discovers that Nan is the one who made his father’s surfboard and quickly learns that they also had an affair for a summer.  Nan is very welcoming to Cole and has a free spirit charm that is endearing.  She confides in Cole about his father and tells him that he was adventurous, which drastically differs from Cole’s own memories about his father, who he described as “emotionally depressed.”  After revealing that his father died many years back, Nan is beyond upset.  Cole realizes that their affair was not meaningless, as Nan truly loved his father.  She shows Cole the love letters that she continued to write him for 10 years after he went back home and Cole starts to see everything with fresh new eyes.  Nan explains that she thought of Cole’s father, Gabriel, as her soul mate and her destiny.  She shows him that the symbol on his surfboard contains their initials, intertwined for eternity.  You can see the love in Nan’s eyes when she talks about Gabriel, as she tells Cole that he called her “wild eyes” and said that he didn’t know that women like her existed in the world.  Nan admits to Cole that they wanted different things and that she has no regrets, but that he had to return home because Cherry was pregnant and threatened to kill herself.  Cole is shocked to learn this, but Nan explains that she tried to do an “exorcism” of sorts through letters to give Gabriel the opportunity to free himself from her and move on with his life.

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“Take care of your mind, body, and soul.”

After learning about the “exorcism” that Nan describes, Cole takes this opportunity to try it out for himself and to use it on his own feelings for Alison.  Nan reads each of the five letters to him, which are assigned with a task and asks Delphine to be his guide through this experience.  The letters start off with tasks like finding something in nature that has the scent of the one you love and writing down everything you love about that person.  It then escalates to burning these items along with the scent and stating out loud everything you hate that you associate with them.  Cole finally allows his emotions and feelings to reach the surface and his words are beyond moving.  He finally says that, “I hate that you gave up on me and I hate that I can’t give up on you.”  Delphine reminds him to state his intention as he says these words and burns everything and he finally says, “I want to be free of you.”  During Cole’s “exorcism” of his feelings for Alison, the song, “The Night We Met” by Lord Huron is playing in the background.  If you have ever seen the show, “13 Reasons Why,” this is the song that played when Clay and Hannah danced together and it instantly tugs at your emotions and you will find yourself crying before you know it.  You can listen to the song here.  This song was the perfect soundtrack to Cole’s “exorcism,” as he allows himself to try and be free of Alison, but tells Nan the next day that he only feels worse and it didn’t work.  Nan tries to tell him it worked for his father because the last task was to send back the letters and she has them.  Cole looks closely at the postmark and tells Nan that his father never sent them, as it was postmarked two years after he died.  He realizes that Cherry must have found them and sent them back to Nan, crushing her hope that Gabriel’s love for her still existed.  Cole explains that his father hung himself on his 10th birthday, just a couple of weeks after the last letter arrived.

This moment is heartbreaking, but Nan finally learns the truth that Gabriel’s love for her never burned out and Cole now understands that he is still in love with Alison and that he needs to tell her how he feels before it’s too late.  Delphine tells Cole to “take care of his mind, body, and soul,” before he goes and Cole thanks his father, as he leaves Morro Bay behind.  After watching this episode, I almost wish that part two was the entire episode, but I do think it is important that we saw what is going on with Vik as well.  That being said, part two of the episode was so beautifully written and well executed and may have been one of the most beautiful moments I have ever seen on the show.  Now that we know how Cole feels about Alison, will she return his love before it’s too late?  Does Cole get a chance to tell Alison that he loves her before she goes missing?  Stay tuned, as things continue to heat up each week!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The Affair below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 4 episode 3: “I’m your Boss”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair last night, I learned that sometimes the best thing we can do for someone we love is to merely be there to support them.  Even though we may want to immerse ourselves into their lives and their problems, we need to also recognize when to give the appropriate amount of space as well.  It’s not possible to control every situation even though we may want to.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “403,” Noah continues to try and make a difference with his students, specifically with Anton.  Meanwhile, Helen has trouble dealing with Vic’s diagnosis and clashes with his mother inadvertently.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 4 episode 3 are:

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“Please don’t pretend to be a real teacher.”

Part one of the episode opens up with Noah and we learn that he is still trying to make a difference with his students as well as with the administration at the school.  In a staff meeting, Noah brings up Anton and explains that he is worried about his life at home, but thinks that he has real potential.  We later discover that Anton is actually the principal, Janelle’s son, which puts Noah in an awkward position.  While the other teachers applaud Noah’s boldness, Noah goes to Janelle to apologize and explains that he didn’t know.  Janelle reveals her thoughts about hiring an ex-con at her school and sheds some light on what she has to deal with on an everyday basis.  After telling Noah not to pretend that he is a real teacher, Noah reveals how much he wants to be there and help Anton.  While these two are still clashing, sparks are definitely in the air and it’s only a matter of time before their passive aggressive comments lead to some passionate foreplay.

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“I totally totally don’t.”

In part two, we see everything from Helen’s perspective and learn that Vic has been diagnosed with late stage pancreatic cancer.  Helen desperately wants to talk about a plan and all of her feelings, but Vic wants to focus on living out his life the way he wants to.  Helen’s neighbor, Sierra, interrupts a complicated discussion without realizing it and just really wants to get to know Helen and invites her to experience a kind of spiritual retreat.  Sierra represents the carefree California attitude that Helen is desperately trying to get away from and she ends up snapping at Sierra, revealing the true New Yorker within.  Sierra is surprisingly not offended by Helen’s quick dismissal and something tells me that she might be the key to opening up Helen to a whole new world whether she realizes it right now or not.

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“Girl’s got a type.”

In the beginning of the episode, we are in present day time and Cole is with Noah and Anton in a car.  Anton hilariously tries to piece together their connection to Alison, which is laugh out loud funny.  Cole speaks to Alison’s mother, Athena, on the phone and learns that the last person she spoke to was Ben.  Cole mentions that Ben is married and Anton reminds them both that she certainly has a type.  While we still don’t know what has happened to Alison, it’s clear that Ben has something to do with it.  We’ll have to stay tuned for the mystery to continue to unfold, but I am loving the unexpected teamwork between Cole and Noah and Anton is lightening up the mood for sure.

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“People in New York don’t take deep breaths.  They fight.”

After failing to get Vic to commit to getting a second opinion or treatment, Helen confides in her therapist about what is going on.  Rather than focus on her feelings, she tries to ask him about his connections in the medical field, desperately trying to find some way to help Vic.  Her therapist reminds her that perhaps what Vic really needs is for Helen to just love and support him, which is spot on.  Vic doesn’t want to rehash the diagnosis and he begs Helen not to tell his parents about him being sick.  After Vic is honored for his work, Helen confronts his mother in the bathroom and tells her what is going on.  Helen is shocked when his mother wants to leave and states that she is not feeling well.  Helen blurts out everything and Vic’s face is full of disappointment.  His mother leaves and tells him that she loves him and knows that he will figure out what to do.  Vic loses his temper with Helen and refuses to give her false hope, as he explains that his illness is very real and that he is going to die.  All Vic wants is to have a baby, but Helen feels almost like the walls are closing in on her when she sits in the doctor’s office waiting room and realizes that she is just simply too old for this.  Will Helen ultimately decide to go through with an unwanted pregnancy to give Vic what he wants or will she make the bold decision to follow her own path?

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“I’m your boss.”

Noah continues to try and get through to his students and make them more engaged.  They are currently reading T.S. Eliot’s “The Wasteland,” and Noah introduces his students to the concept of “previewing.”  According to Noah, previewing is about “making intelligent predictions about what a book is based on first impressions.”  Some of his students participate and call out things like “creepy old white dude,” but Anton takes it a step further when he challenges the reading material and suggests that their curriculum include more relevant authors.  Noah is clearly impressed by Anton’s idea.  His students have been lately feeling like they are unheard and unfairly punished at school and Noah provides some inspiration for a walkout.  Whether it is intentional or not, Anton leads the class out the door and the walkout quickly escalates enough for the police to get involved.  When the media begins grilling Janelle about what is going on with her administration, Noah steps in and saves the day.  Only Janelle wasn’t really asking to be saved.  Later on, he sits with her at the bar and the two have a real and honest conversation.  When Noah walks Janelle out to the parking lot, the two share a passionate kiss, but Janelle quickly ends it and reminds him that she is his boss.  While I’m guessing this is not the last encounter we will see between Noah and Janelle, their relationship could become scandalous and have an impact on Anton.  We’ll have to stay tuned to see what happens next, but I have to say that I am loving the introduction of Sanaa Lathan’s character, Janelle on the show.  It’s about time someone truly challenged Noah and got him to see things from another perspective.

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The Affair below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 4 episode 1 season premiere: “You’re the Earthquake”

Happy Monday TV fans!  So the wait is finally over and I am absolutely thrilled to have new episodes of Showtime’s The Affair back just in time for summer.  The Affair is a guilty pleasure of mine for sure, but there is something so hypnotizing about this show that just reels you in.  The acting and the writing is phenomenal and just when you think you know something, you see things from another perspective and it complicates the story even further.  Season 1 still remains my absolute favorite and I was waiting for something really dramatic to happen in season 3, but in the opening minutes of the season 4 premiere, I already felt that unknown mystery clawing at the surface, capturing my undivided attention.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “401,” Noah moves out to L.A. and tries to fit himself into his family’s life again, but is finding it harder than he ever thought possible.  Meanwhile, Helen meets a new neighbor and battles her own anxiety, trying desperately to find some sort of inner peace and happiness.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 4 episode 1 are:

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“I like a man with a past.”

Part one of the episode opens up with Noah and we learn that he is living in L.A. and back to teaching.  It’s great to see Noah trying to move on and make a difference in the lives of others again, which is something he has a lot of passion for.  In his class they are reading Orwell’s “Animal Farm,” and Noah does his best to get everyone to participate.  While some of his female students have no problem paying attention to Noah, he takes notice of a student named Anton who sits in the back of his class, refusing to contribute.  Noah’s class is interrupted by the presence of the principal who I already predict Noah will be pursuing romantically before he knows it, but he quickly realizes a lot has changed since he was last teaching.  Noah has trouble entering the grades in the computerized system, but tries to do the best he can, recognizing that he needs something constant and stable in his life.  When he finds out that Anton is repeating the course and the entire school year because of a plagiarized paper, he pays even closer attention to him.  After reading his paper, he confronts Anton and realizes that Anton absolutely wrote the paper and has more potential and intelligence than anyone is giving him credit for.  I have to say that I much prefer Noah as a struggling teacher to the smug writer and I think he is taking a step in the right direction.

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“Let’s try scanning your body.”

In part two, we see everything from Helen’s perspective and learn that she is facing a lot of anxiety in her new home.  While everything appears to be fine on the surface, Helen cannot shake the overwhelming sense of panic whirling around inside of her.  She hallucinates feeling an actual earthquake and goes to see a therapist for some guidance.  Helen is clearly not a fan of some of her therapist’s new age methods, as she much prefers just talking about her feelings rather than scanning for them.  After initially stating she doesn’t have any problems, she focuses on Noah and how much he annoys her, which then leads to her explaining that pretty much everything in L.A. annoys her.  Helen complains, “Every goddamn day is sunny and I hate this ocean.”  After her therapist asks her about the ocean being an attention whore, Helen has had enough and leaves.  The anxiety doesn’t go away, however; as Helen begins to realize that her son, Trevor might be gay and then has to deal with Vic’s intrusive mother judging her passive aggressively.  Helen hilariously interrupts his mother and says that she has to do something and enjoys a much needed glass of wine by the bath tub, but she still has trouble relaxing.  Helen meets her neighbor, Sierra, who has a carefree attitude and tells Helen that she would like to be friends, but is there something more here?  We’ll have to stay tuned to find out, but one can’t help feeling sympathetic toward Helen and desperately wanting her to find some kind of happiness after all she has been put through.

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“More ridiculous than trying to out your son in a Mexican restaurant when he might not even be gay?”

In both part one and two, Noah joins Vic and his family at a Mexican restaurant after he was unable to attend Trevor’s school function.  Noah is initially upset that he was left off the list, but tries to make the most of it and really connect again with his family.  Noah is hilariously surrounded by a Mariachi band when Helen tries to get Trevor to express himself and admit that he may be gay.  Noah asks to speak to Helen in the restroom and is outraged that she is trying to get Trevor to admit this when he may just be confused.  While the story changes slightly from each perspective, Noah tries to get Helen to realize that he doesn’t know his children anymore and he just wants the chance to be able to become a part of their lives again.

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“You’re the earthquake.”

When Noah is speaking to Helen in the restroom, it finally clicks that Noah is the “earthquake” and that even though she has a new life, he is still in it.  When Noah is around, Helen feels like she is waiting for the next disaster to happen and asks him to stay away from her as much as possible.  While it’s important that Helen has finally realized the source of her anxiety, she is about to have an entirely new problem to deal with.  When she is speaking to Vic later that night, he collapses on the bathroom floor and is unconscious.  While we are unsure if Vic will be OK or not, it’s clear that Helen will not be getting a moment of inner peace anytime soon.  But will she be able to handle something this devastating?

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Is Alison missing?

In the beginning of the episode, we see Noah meet up with Cole and they discuss how “she” didn’t show up to pick up Joanie.  Noah explains that she has been officially declared a missing person, which gives us fans a new mystery to dive into.  While her name is never mentioned, we assume that they are discussing Alison and we learn that this news comes 6 weeks after the timeline we just watched with Noah in California.  However, it’s clearly important that they did not mention her name so perhaps there is a lot more to this mystery than meets the eye.  When Noah is in California, he leaves a message for Alison, but doesn’t talk to her so can we assume that she has been missing all this time or is there an event we are unaware of?  Either way, I am extremely excited for this new mystery to unfold and I am even more invested now that I know that it somehow involves Alison.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The Affair below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

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