Ranking the top 5 couples from “Once Upon a Time”

“I’m a fan of every part of you” (Hook to Emma).  Happy Saturday TV fans!  I invested quite a bit of time over the years into watching ABC’s Once Upon a Time and one of the main reasons why I love the show so much is because I fell in love with the characters and found myself constantly rooting for different ships to make it against all odds.  OUAT does an excellent job of providing us with nostalgia from some of our favorite fairy-tales, but the writers were never afraid to shake things up and present us with a ship that we may have never predicted or some that initially seemed unconventional.  However, once we detected the undeniable sparks between some of these characters, it was quite easy to imagine their stories intertwining.  Villains got their first glimpse at what true love looked like and learned that it was never too late to change and that it was possible to still achieve a happy ending.  While some ships supported each other no matter what, others had to face many trials and obstacles, testing their love for one another constantly.

Some of our favorite ships have been ripped apart brutally and while some were lucky enough to experience their happy ending together, others were not able to do so, but their love still remained unchanging, teaching them to hold on to the goodness still within them and to open their hearts to everyone around them.  An OTP or one true pairing is difficult to find, but these characters below certainly achieved this title, making us believe that true love is possible but it is far from easy to hold on to.  These characters learned never to take their love for granted and would do anything for the other.  Their love for one another helped shaped them into who they were meant to be, inspiring hope throughout their epic stories.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the series yet.  My top five ships from Once Upon a Time are:

5

Rumple & Belle

Ship name:  Rumbelle

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“But that monster is gone. And the man beneath him may be flawed… but we all are. And I love you for it. Sometimes the best book has the dustiest jacket. And sometimes the best teacup is chipped.”

When I first learned that Rumple was also the “beast” in Belle’s story, I was not sure how I felt about this.  Rumple had already been presented as a major villain and it made sense that he would also fit right in as a “beast” or a “monster” in another story or realm, but I wasn’t sure if Rumple would truly be able to shed his wicked ways and learn to love Belle.  However, I changed my mind when I saw Belle looking at Rumple with pure love and acceptance.  When they danced together, it was like the story of “Beauty and the Beast” opened up a new chapter filled with a chance at redemption.  Rumple was one of the most devious villains on the show and somehow Belle was able to get through to him and show him that there was a different path that he could take; a path that led to love and a family, even if they had a rocky journey ahead of them.  Belle always saw the good in Rumple but was hurt many times by him as well when he allowed the darkness to consume him, putting his agenda above his love for Belle without always realizing it.  In season 7, Rumple was desperately trying to rid himself of the Dark One’s dagger and get back to Belle so that they could be together, but ultimately realized that this might never happen and sacrificed himself to save his friends and family.  Rumple’s actions were truly selfless and he was greeted by Belle in limbo so that they could finally be together always and forever.

4

Snow & Charming

Ship name:  Snowing

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“True love isn’t easy, but it must be fought for because once you find it, it can never be replaced.”

This list would not be complete without including Snow White and Prince Charming.  When the series first began, there was a lot of focus on these two and it was adorable to see their “meet cute” when Snow got caught in the net by Charming.  Out of all of the ships on the series, Snow and Charming are the most stable and constant.  No matter what was thrown at them, they always found their way back to one another and they never gave up on each other.  Even when Charming didn’t remember Snow in Storybrooke, their love was able to seep through, ultimately reminding them that they did belong together.  Emma is the daughter of Snow and Charming and their unconditional love for her made them even stronger.  While their story was often presented as less complicated than some of the other ships on this list, their love was selfless, kind, and unwavering.

3

Regina & Robin

Ship name:  Outlaw Queen

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“Our story was so short.  Doesn’t make it any less epic.”

Out of all of the ships on this list, I have to say that I was initially rooting for this couple above all others.  Regina started out as an evil queen with only coldness and revenge in her heart.  However, her feelings for Robin were beautiful and heartwarming.  They were never lacking passion and it seemed like Robin was the absolute perfect match for Regina.  It was predicted that Regina’s true love was a mysterious man with a lion tattoo and when this was revealed as Robin, it was impossible not to root for these two to end up together.  Robin was able to see that Regina had clearly changed and was ready to become a good person.  Robin sacrificed himself to protect Regina just shortly after they talked about their future together, which made this moment even more heartbreaking.  Even though Regina and Robin did not end up together, Robin was always with her in her heart.  In the series finale, Regina was dreaming and Robin visited her.  She told him how much she missed him and explained she may be joining him.  Regina clearly remembered being a villain and started to think that maybe this was what she deserved.  However, the goodness in her was articulated by Robin, who told her that she was able to move her dark actions to the light and that was all because of her.  He told her that “her life is proof that no one’s path is set.” Robin provided Regina with the strength she needed when it seemed like the world was against her.  When he revealed to her how epic their love was, this was one of the most beautiful moments on the show.  While it seemed beyond unfair that these two could not be together, we know that Robin would always be in Regina’s heart, reminding her that her new path is one of goodness and love.

2

Alice & Robin

Ship name:  Mad Archer

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“I told you we’d always know each other.”

Alice and Robin, also known as Tilly and Margot, possessed a pure and beautiful love.  Fans could not help falling in love with these two, as they reminded us what true love is all about and fans are still talking about them now.  Fan fiction and requests for a Mad Archer spin-off are everywhere and I have to say that I absolutely agree.  There is just something about Alice and Robin that bring us right back to the first moment where we may have experienced love ourselves.  I’m talking about those over-the-top feelings of butterflies in your stomach and smiling constantly for no reason at all.  When Robin/Margot awkwardly asked Alice/Tilly out on a date and explained she was wearing lip gloss, it was impossible not to identify with these lovely ladies.  Their shyness and awkwardness made them even more lovable and it’s like we were along for their journey, as they tried to get to know one another and shared their dreams and secrets.  Both Alice and Robin had a strong sense of doing what’s right and supporting family and friends no matter what, which made their relationship that much more powerful.  As individual characters they were remarkable, but as a team they were truly something special.  When they finally remembered each other and shared a passionate kiss, it was like you could see the imaginary fireworks going off around them, as fans everywhere cheered.  While we know that they are engaged at the end of the series, their story is far from over and it would be amazing to see a wedding between these two.  After all, Nook should get the chance to walk “Starfish” down the aisle.

1

Hook & Emma

Ship name:  Captain Swan

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“When I win your heart Emma, and I will win it. It won’t be because of any trickery. It will be because you want me.”

 My number one ship has to go to Hook and Emma.  When the devilishly handsome Captain Hook sailed into our hearts on OUAT, he initially was out for revenge.  While Hook innocently flirted with Emma from the start, his love for her allowed him to grow as a character and to learn from his wicked past.  Hook was always used to taking the easy way out and making decisions based on how well it suited him.  Emma changed this perspective, however; proving that he could be a selfless man.  When Hook realized his strong feelings for Emma, he even backed down and explained that she should be with Neal so that Henry could have his family all together.  Hook truly loved Emma at this point, but was willing to sacrifice this so that she could find happiness.  Later, when they did end up together, Emma consumed the power of the Dark One and evil corrupted her heart.  The only thing that could bring her back to goodness was Hook’s love for her and his willingness to sacrifice himself to save her.  Emma and Hook had one of the most beautiful relationships on television and their wedding at the end of season 6 was touching and heartwarming.  Hook’s love for Emma transformed him from a villain into a hero one can be proud of, who would never stop fighting for the one he loves.  In the series finale, we finally got to see Hook and Emma again along with their beautiful baby daughter, Hope.  The name of their child is absolutely perfect, symbolizing what kept them going strong all this time.  Emma and Hook never lost hope in each other and it’s wonderful to see that they are starting the next chapter of their lives together.  And so they lived happily ever after…

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to share some of your own thoughts and comments on your favorite ships on OUAT.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 8 Mid-Season Finale: “No One’s Gone”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 8, I learned that we really are all “connected by this single screwed up world,” as Al suggested.  The truth is important and the stories and memories we leave behind are sometimes all we have left to cling to.  We may not always find what we are looking for, but we touch the lives of so many without even realizing it.  Words and actions matter and more importantly, the truth can bring us some much needed comfort, reminding us that it’s never too late to become the person we are meant to be.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “No One’s Gone,” we learn that Madison and Al crossed paths in the past; making a much bigger impact on each other than anyone might have guessed.  Meanwhile, Morgan and Naomi try to make it to the infirmary to help save John Dorie’s life, Alicia shows up to finish things once and for all, and Madison’s fate is finally revealed.  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 8 Mid-Season Finale are:

5

“Thought I’d mix it up today.”

When Al and the others show up at the stadium, the tank is surrounded by an overwhelming amount of walkers, but they are ready to cause a distraction that will allow Morgan and Naomi to get inside to help John.  The plan seems to be working, but Alicia, Victor, and Luciana show up with an RPG, refusing to make this go seamlessly.  Alicia and Al share some choice words over the walkie-talkie, while Al reminds her that she’s now definitely supporting the other side.  It’s great to see Al finally step into the action, as she trusts Charlie to record what goes on, not wanting to lose out on a chance to document their story further.  Alicia and Al get into quite the fight when Alicia shows up at the tank.  Al comes pretty close to being the main course meal for the walkers, but is able to get out of this without a scratch.

4

“We’re connected by this single screwed up world.”

During the episode, we flash back to the past before Madison found the stadium and learn that she crossed paths with Al.  While they initially start off not trusting each other, Madison eventually lets her guard down after aimlessly searching for a tape from one of her kids.  Al talks to Madison about the truth and tells her how it can change things.  She empathizes with Madison and explains that even though she didn’t find the story she was looking for, someone might be interested in her story one day.  Madison explains that she broke her promise to her kids and that “you don’t need a camera cus it just sticks.”  She tells a heartwarming story about her kids trying to help a wounded bird and nurse it back to health.  They named the bird “Amina” for short and took care of her, giving her a chance when no one else would.  Madison would open the box each day, fearing what she might find, but was shocked to see the bird flying around in their living room.  Madison was so touched by the actions of her children who refused to give up on this bird that anyone else might have turned their back on.  She explains that there is not a lot of that left in the world now and she never wants her kids to lose that.  When Madison and Al part ways, Al gives her some Ramen noodles and tells her that maybe they will meet again.  Later on, when Madison reunites with her kids at the motel, she reveals to them that someone helped her when they didn’t have to and that “It’s time for us to do the same.”  Her interaction with Al inspires her to build the stadium into a place where others can go to find a sense of belonging, protection, and people who will stand by them.  Madison’s words are absolutely beautiful and remind us that there is still good in the world.  Even though she and Al were strangers, they ended up helping each other, reinforcing the belief that there are still good people existing in this world.

3

“June, well that’s my favorite month.”

When Naomi goes into the infirmary with Morgan, John is holding on by a thread.  He asks Charlie to record him, but Al tries to get him to stay positive.  John explains that “it’s for her,” as he speaks openly to Naomi on camera and tells her to stop running and to help Morgan do the same.  Luckily, Naomi is able to stabilize John and it looks like he is going to be OK.  Naomi tells John that her real name is June, finally wanting to tell him something real and meaningful.  John’s reaction is beyond heartwarming when he tells her that June is his favorite month.  June touches John’s hand and the spark between these two is burning brightly again, allowing us John Dorie fans to cheer.  It looks like these two might get the chance they deserve after all, inspiring some hope in this distressing world.  I am absolutely thrilled that John is going to be OK because his character elevates the show, opening up possibilities for a new chapter.

2

“I’m not that person anymore.”

When Alicia is in the tank, she spots the Ramen noodles and demands to know where Al got them.  Everything clicks in her head when she frantically searches through the tapes and finds one titled, “Amina.”  Alicia watches the recording of her mother, Madison, carefully listening to each and every word, displaying her grief across her face.  Alicia still wants to take revenge on Naomi, however; and demands that Al convinces her to come out.  Al strategically leaves on the walkie-talkie to warn Morgan and Naomi.  Morgan offers to go first because he doesn’t want anything to happen to Naomi.  When Alicia comes out, he stands in front of Naomi and she is shocked that is willing to give his life for a stranger.  Alicia’s rage is almost uncontrollable now, as she points the gun at them and screams, “My Mom’s dead because of what you did!”  Morgan doesn’t give up on Alicia and even when she says that she’s not that person anymore, Morgan tries to get her to realize that it’s not too late and that things can change.  Morgan explains that they did for him and they still can for Alicia.  He ultimately gets through to her when he tells her that they already have because he’s not dead.  Alicia breaks down crying and the immediate threat is over, as she finally allows her emotions to break through.  This moment is absolutely heartbreaking, as Alicia shows her own vulnerability.  It’s shocking that she waited this long to cry, but her actions are understandable and I just hope that she can take comfort in knowing how much her family cared about her and how she still has the opportunity to become who she is meant to and to help others in need.

1

“It was never about the stadium.  It was about the people.  It was about us.”

Al asks Alicia what happened to her mother, as she made quite an impact on her as well and Alicia replies with, “You want the rest of my Mom’s story?  Pull over.”  All of the pieces finally come together, as we learn about the last moments for everyone in the stadium.  Charlie explains that Mel saved her life and got her out of there in the car.  Naomi reveals that she tried to talk everyone out of leaving, but they had already made up their minds.  She explains that she was then surrounded by walkers and made a run for it, thinking that everyone was already dead.  She was then later picked up by the Vultures, but it’s clear that Naomi was just trying to survive like everyone else.  We learn that Victor got burned when he saved Alicia from running after her mother and then we finally learn the fate of Madison.  Madison recognized that her friends and family were in danger and lured the walkers away from them with a flare, trusting that the walls would hold.  No one else believed her and the other people died trying to escape, but Madison knew that she was right.  Once she saw that her family would be able to get away safely, she tried to make it to the tunnels but was trapped with nowhere to go.  As the walkers surrounded her, Madison threw the flare into the hoard and a bright glow reflected off her face before the explosion hit.  Madison gave up her life so that her family and friends could live.  After the story is recorded, Al labels this one “Madison,” reminding us that her story is never gone.  Madison will live on through her family and her actions will hopefully inspire them to continue to try and do the right thing.  We will need to wait until August 2018 for new episodes, but we have now lost two main characters and I’m interested to see where we are going now.  While we know that new threats are always right around the corner, it will be interesting to see how the dynamic of the show shifts now that we are focusing on different characters and story-lines.  I’m absolutely open to the change, but I will miss Madison, as Kim Dickens did a phenomenal job as the main protagonist on the show.  RIP Madison.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

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13 Reasons Why you should watch “13 Reasons Why” Season 2

If you’re a devoted television fan like me, then I’m sure you have heard of the Netflix show, 13 Reasons Why.  Last year I spent an entire day binge-watching the first season and I have to say that it had me laughing, crying, and shocked more than I thought possible.  I do recommend that you read the warnings before each episode, as some of the content can be emotionally disturbing.  Having said that, the characters on this show are so real and it’s hard not to connect to their stories and dive into their world.  Our hearts break for some characters and we find ourselves angry at others, but we learn that “everyone affects everyone” in some way or another and it’s up to us to decide how we are going to behave and who we are going to become in the process.  It may be difficult to step out of a label or an expectation, but doing the right thing and supporting the people around us is so much more important.  While season 1 focuses primarily on Hannah Baker’s story, season 2 gives us the chance to see what happened from other perspectives, as unlikely heroes emerge and second chances are presented.  Please note major spoilers are ahead.  My top 13 reasons to check out 13 Reasons Why season 2 are: 

 

13

Clay gets a tattoo.

In the beginning of season 2, Clay is still with Skye and we learn that it has been 5 months since Hannah committed suicide.  Clay decides to get a semicolon tattoo, but ends up passing out.  As a result, he has a “fucking comma.”  Skye has emotional problems of her own and ends up moving away, but is an important influence on Clay’s life.  At the end of the season, Clay returns to finish the tattoo.  The semicolon symbol is important, representing another way to continue a sentence, rather than end it simply with a period.  This can be true about a sentence, a story, and about one’s life.  Selena Gomez and several of the actors on 13 Reasons Why have gotten the same tattoo and have discussed its message and significance.  The tattoo marks the beginning of Clay’s new journey, as he tries to deal with his life without Hannah.  No one said it would be easy, but Clay is ready to move on.

12

“There’s always another side to every story.”

Part of what makes season 2 so great is that we get to see what happened from different perspectives.  In season 1, everything we learned was mostly through Hannah’s eyes.  However, season 2 allows us to explore more of that story and understand how her suicide has truly impacted those around her.  For example, we learn that Zach actually had a summer romance with Hannah and had real and true feelings for her.

11

Clay is still seeing Hannah.

It’s hard not to root for Clay and want the very best for him.  Clay’s world is still falling apart, even though he has tried to move on.  He begins seeing Hannah and even has full conversations with her throughout season 2.  Clay clearly understands that Hannah is gone, but his loneliness is sometimes too much to handle and it seems to bring him some sort of comfort to talk out loud to her.  While this allows us to see more of Hannah Baker, the real emphasis here is on Clay and him trying to make sense of his life and figure out a healthy way to move on and still get justice for Hannah.

10

“Feeling the pain and facing it.  That takes courage.”

Hannah’s mother, Mrs. Baker is dealing with quite a lot.  Her daughter is gone, her husband is filing for divorce, and she is consumed by the trial against the school.  It’s difficult to sit through the trial as some witnesses tell a truth that is difficult to hear, while others completely lie.  Later on we learn that Hannah was responsible for bullying a girl at her old school.  Hannah wasn’t perfect, but Mrs. Baker’s love for her is unconditional and like Clay, she desperately wants justice for her daughter.  Mrs. Baker does have a second chance to make things right, as she becomes an important influence for both Jessica and Alex.  While Mrs. Baker may not have been able to save Hannah, she has the opportunity here to make a real difference with two kids in pain.

9

Alex puts the pieces back together.

At the end of season 1, Alex shot himself in the head, but did survive.  It’s difficult for him to walk and he has lost huge chunks of his memory, but he is determined to put the pieces back together.  He even listens to the tapes again, which eventually Clay leaks out to everyone anonymously so that they can learn what truly happened.  In episode 11, a huge fight breaks out and Alex begins to remember things, like Monty’s part in all of this.  He refuses to sit by on the sidelines and becomes a character you can truly relate to.

8

“Love as infinity.”

In one of my favorite moments of season 2, Clay and Hannah are lying on the floor and looking up at the ceiling.  They discuss the concept of infinity and how to understand it and Hannah suggests that “maybe that’s how we understand it.  Love that goes on forever.”  In this moment, it’s like the entire world has stopped and it’s just Clay and Hannah.  Clay’s love for Hannah is beautiful and transcendent.  This is a memory he can always hold on to forever, suggesting that her words are actually spot on.

7

Unlikely heroes step forward.

Characters like Mr. Porter, Justin, and Zach all get second chances in season 2.  Mr. Porter breaks down in court and even though he did everything he could according to policy, he feels like he could have done more.  He ultimately loses his job, but his words are important and he tries to make a difference in as many lives as he can.  While he feels like he let Hannah down, he has a second chance to make it right.  Justin has been living on the streets and Clay finds him and lets him stay at his house secretly.  Justin has an addiction to heroin and has been dealing with quite a lot, but he is able to do the right thing and tell the court and the police what he saw Bryce do to Jessica.  While Justin has consequences of his own because of his involvement, he is willing to do the right thing and become someone to be proud of.  When Clay tells Justin that his family wants to adopt him, it looks like he can finally get the second chance he deserves.  Now he just needs to kick that nasty drug habit.  Zach is another character who becomes an unlikely hero.  Even when he was with Hannah, he was a coward and allowed Bryce and the others to make fun of her.  Zach finally breaks out of this and stands against Bryce.  In the huge fight in episode 11, he finally picks a side.  Zach is an important character because he reminds us that sometimes it’s easier to do nothing and stay quiet, but taking a stand takes real courage and can shape us into who we are meant to be.

6

“Some people will still blame others.”

While many of the characters are trying to pick up the pieces and move on, poor Tyler is having a rough go at it.  While it’s easy to dislike Bryce who refuses to believe that he is wrong, a character like Monty can be even more dangerous.  Monty’s actions are cruel and disturbing.  In a graphic sexual assault, Monty does the unthinkable to Tyler.  The rape scene in the bathroom is extremely difficult to watch.  Tyler is traumatized and is looking to take revenge against his classmates as a result of this.  Even though unlikely heroes have emerged, there are still bullies and villains present, refusing to take a hard look in the mirror to see what they have done.  Bryce and Monty have destroyed lives with their actions.  But will they ever truly try to make amends?

5

Justice for Jessica.

Jessica is having a very difficult time coping and is unable to name Bryce throughout most of season 2.  After Justin comes forward, Jessica is able to finally file a police report.  Even though Bryce gets off with 3 months probation, she no longer needs to hide from the truth.  Jessica learns how to live her life without being defined by something that happened to her and to step forward for those who can’t.  For example, Chloe has the opportunity to speak out against Bryce and can’t go through with it.  However, Chloe has another problem to deal with, as she confides in Jessica that she is pregnant.  Jessica is also able to get justice for Hannah in this moment as well, who never got the chance to speak out against Bryce.  Even though the trial ends with ruling in favor of the school, what happened to Hannah is not to be forgotten.  Jessica’s justice is also extremely important.

4

“I can love you and still let you go.”

Earlier in season 2, Skye leaves and says these words to Clay.  They are beautiful and meaningful and later when Clay speaks at Hannah’s service, he applies them to his love for Hannah.  The service allows everyone to finally say goodbye to Hannah and cherish her memory.  Clay’s eulogy is so real and heartbreaking.  While he will never forget Hannah, he is ready to move on with his life.

3

“The Night we Met.”

In the season 2 finale, Clay and everyone are at the school dance.  “The Night we Met” song comes on again, which is the song he danced with Hannah to.  Clay’s emotions begin overwhelming him and Tony immediately goes to find him when he hears the song.  In a beautiful moment, Tony and all of his friends surround Clay and sway back and forth to the music.  All of these characters have come together to be there for Clay.  He is no longer alone and these characters are now linked forever.  In season 1, they were all brought together by terrible secrets, but in season 2 they are brought together to honor Hannah and to support each other no matter what comes their way.

2

“What do we do?  Do we look the other way or do we help them?”

When Clay discovers that Tyler is on his way to the school with an assault rifle, everyone suggests that they call the police and get out of there.  Clay refuses to run away, however.  He knows that Hannah would want him to step in and help.  It’s never too late and Clay risks his life trying to tell Tyler this.  Tony gets Tyler out of there in the nick of time, while Clay is left standing outside holding the gun.  In this moment, Clay is beyond courageous, but he has a lot to explain once the police show up.

1

“But no matter how many reasons there might be why, there are always more why not.”

This is probably the most significant moment for me.  Mrs. Baker finds Hannah’s list of reasons and discovers that she made a list of reasons why not.  Clay and “Helmet” are on there, which reveals how important he truly was to Hannah.  Mrs. Baker tries to tell him that she left so many reasons out and that there are always more reasons why not, reminding us that living is what’s important.  Clay and the other characters are ready to finally start living.  The tragic moments are always going to happen and we can’t always control that, but we can control what we do afterwards.  It’s what makes us who we are; who we can still become.

 I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on 13 Reasons Why in the comments section below.  Thanks for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 4: “How Did You End Up Here?”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 4, I learned that some of us are born to run, but are we able to do so when we need to?  When it comes to survival, there has to be something more to live for than just food, as Nick explained.  Surviving becomes the everyday routine, but living is the hard part.  Living with guilt, living with emptiness, and living with the growing feeling inside you that you may never connect with the one you love again.  That’s the hard part.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In Sunday’s episode, “Buried,” Al asks a big question and is in for an emotional roller coaster ride, as Victor, Alicia, and Luciana talk about why one day was so important.  Meanwhile, Morgan tells John that he plans to leave once Nick is buried and John discovers a painful truth of his own.   My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 4 are:

5

“How did you end up here? That’s a big question.  Sometimes those are the easiest ones to answer.”

In the beginning of the episode, Al sets everything in motion when she asks the big question to Victor, Alicia, and Luciana.  We get to hear about one day in particular that changed everything for each character, which lets us into their hearts and minds for just a little while.  Luciana remembers heading off to the library with Nick when everyone went out looking for supplies.  Luciana tried to get Nick to stay on track and focus on finding food, but he reminded her that “people need a reason to stick around and it can’t all be about food.”  Nick’s eyes lit up at the idea of starting a library at the stadium.  Even though it seemed like he mostly wanted to do this for Charlie, his words have a lot of truth behind them.  Luciana talks about a book of maps and navigation that they came across.  They decided to flip to any page randomly and that would decide their fate and where they head to next.  Luciana gravely says, “I should have never opened that book.”  The book opened to somewhere north, but Nick realized that the book took them to somewhere much farther than on those maps.  It’s what sparked the idea to find seeds and fertilizer to replant and build up the stadium.  Luciana breaks down into tears when she talks about this.  Nick’s focus on re-growth seemed like a wonderful sentiment, but it is brutally destroyed when we remember that Nick is dead now at the hand of Charlie.  However, that doesn’t mean that he wasn’t right all along about needing something more.

4

“You’re either with us trying to keep this going or you’re not.”

When Al gets to Alicia, she remembers that very same day and talks about going out to the abandoned water park with Naomi to find supplies.  Naomi was the newest member to their group and Alicia was putting a lot of trust in her when they set out together.  Going on the run brought them closer, but that can be a dangerous thing.  After barely escaping a gruesome death on the slip n’ slide filled with walkers, they came across a stash of medical supplies which made the trip worth it.  Naomi told Alicia to keep a look out and grabbed the supplies, taking off for the truck.  However, she doesn’t make it very far when she realized there was no gas in the tank.  Alicia remained calm when she approached the truck and shared a little about how she went off on her own for a while and that she soon discovered it was not where she really wanted to be.  She offered to get Naomi gas and told her that perhaps she will come to the same conclusion.  Alicia’s willingness to let Naomi go showed her that she truly understood the need to run, but she’s been down that path before and she won’t leave her mother, Madison again.  Naomi ultimately came around and returned to the stadium with Alicia.  They explained that they were going to set up an infirmary but Naomi warned Madison that “things are going to get worse before they get better.”  She’s certainly right about that, but no one could imagine to what extent.

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“You want to get to know me.  This is me.”

For me, Victor’s disclosure of that day is the most resonating.  Victor carried his past around him and tried to cling to the good man he was been trying to be.  However, we know that it is no easy task to move forward without looking back from time to time.  Victor had a car filled with supplies that he had been keeping hidden from everyone.  His initial plan was to run away and survive as long as he could, but he had second thoughts.  Victor spotted the “Vermont’s finest” bottle that he was saving to celebrate with Alicia and said, “I got a little reminder of what I stood to lose.”  Victor brought back the truck with supplies to Madison but didn’t tell her the truth.  Even though Victor had always done what he needed to do, he found himself staying with Madison to do the right thing, even if will not work out in the end.  Victor had finally become the good man he had been trying to be for so long but at what cost?

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“I should have convinced Madison to leave.  I should have kept the car secret.  We should have flipped to another page.”

While each character’s story about that day is emotional and sympathetic, this moment intertwines all three of them and reminds us that the day all results in the same outcome.  Nick is dead and the guilt is all too real and heartbreaking.  They all wanted to believe or stay or become a better person, but this had a consequence that can never be reversed.  While we all find ourselves replaying moments in our lives, regret and grief is something that we unfortunately need to experience along the way.  It can change us forever if we let it or it can remind us to hold on to the connections around us.  For now, it looks like Victor, Alicia, and Luciana are ready to turn to vengeance, but is it truly the right call?

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“The answers only matter if they’re the truth.”

The van pulls over and Morgan is surprised that they want to bury Nick in some random spot off the road.  However, he quickly realizes that Victor, Alicia, and Luciana have another agenda, as they dig up weapons and supplies, ready to take on the Vultures.  Morgan reminds them about the importance of burying Nick and suggests that they bury him by a tree since he liked to grow things so much.  In a beautiful moment, Morgan places the blue bonnet flower over his grave, symbolizing that something good can still live on in a world filled with chaos and emptiness.  While everyone argues about whether or not to go after the Vultures, John Dorie comes across Naomi’s pack and recognizes the gun he described in the season premiere episode.  It belongs to his love; Laura who we discover is actually named Naomi.  Alicia reveals that she is dead and John is distraught, as the hope that has been keeping him going for so long finally breaks.  Al promises to find out what happened to her and goes off with Victor, Alicia, and Luciana, while Morgan stays behind with John.  John tells Morgan that he was right about being better on your own, which is perhaps the most heartbreaking moment of all.  John tried to see the good in everything around him, but his belief has been harshly shattered.  Based on the preview from next week’s episode, it looks like we will get to learn quite a bit about John and Naomi’s time together, but there is another question that is much more pertinent.  If Naomi is dead and the stadium is gone, where is Madison?  I am desperately hoping that she is alive, but our favorite characters are dropping like flies.  We’ll have to stay tuned to find out!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

 

Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 3: “Because the Truth Matters”

Happy Tuesday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 3, Al’s words really resonated with me when she explained that “the truth isn’t about words.  It’s about what really happened and what happened now.”  Well a lot has certainly happened now, including the death of a main character, proving that Fear the Walking Dead is not afraid to rip the Clark family even further apart.  Please note major spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In Sunday’s episode, “Good Out Here,” Morgan attempts to teach Nick the way of “The Art of Peace,” but Nick’s desire for vengeance gets in the way.  Meanwhile, Al strikes up a deal with Victor, Luciana, and Alicia, and Charlie’s innocence has shattered.   My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 3 are:

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“Because the truth matters.”

In the beginning of the episode, Al agrees to take Nick and the others to where she saw the flag, but she wants their stories in return.  She tries to remind everyone that “we’re all breathing here.  Means we’re on the same team.”  She explains the importance of capturing the stories of others even if it is only read out loud once, explaining that our stories are all we have left in this world filled with emptiness and death.  While the others may not agree with Al, focusing more on survival, Al’s desire to keep the story alive and relevant explains how she has lasted so long.  The truth is important and each story matters, keeping humanity alive and present, which is something that can be easily forgotten when you are living one day at a time.  Either way, it is refreshing to see Al’s perspective.  While some survivors cling to family and other connections, Al is clearly alone and the stories she has collected are all she has left, but it’s enough to keep her going.

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“A deal requires an act of faith.”

After some initial hesitation from Victor, they are out of options when the tank gets stuck and they agree to help tow it out so they can continue on.  Everyone is clearly letting their guard down to trust a stranger they know nothing about, but they would remain at a standstill if unable to come to some kind of agreement.  Walkers are around the tank and time is of the essence.  Alicia courageously lures the walkers away and gets to the tank without a scratch while Al covers her with her gun, proving that both of these women can handle any threat that comes their way.  While the trust has not been completely earned yet, it looks like they realize that perhaps they are on the same side after all.

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“Wherever I go I try to look for something good.”

Throughout the episode, Nick flashes back to a time where he went out with his mother, Madison for supplies.  The lighting changes in these moments to something brighter and more serene, almost implying a peace or existence beyond the present.  Nick reveals that he feels more trapped outside “like who I’ll be is just closing in on me…just suffocating me.”  When Nick opens up like this, one can’t help but feel sympathetic toward him.  After all, he has gone through more than most and carries the burden and the guilt around with him constantly.  Madison tells him that she tries to look for something good, like a sign of people helping each other.  Her words are encouraging and sincere, trying desperately to remind Nick that there is still good in the world; you just have to be willing to look for it.

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“The Art of Peace.”

When the others go off to find a tow for the tank, Nick is left alone with Morgan and the two end up forming an unlikely friendship.  Nick watches Morgan’s story on Al’s camera and starts to realize that he is not the only one feeling alone and guilty.  Morgan has conflicting feelings about helping Nick and initially walks away from him.  He tells him “whoever you hurt that’s your business,” but has second thoughts when he turns around to ultimately help Nick and try to save him.  Nick lets his bottled up anger and craving for revenge get the best of him when he violently kills Charlie’s adoptive father who belongs to the Vultures.  When Morgan returns and sees Nick covered in blood, he offers him the “Art of Peace” book and tries to help him.  This is a gesture of good faith, which is important because Morgan has been shying away from connecting with others.  Morgan tries to explain to Nick that he has gone through similar losses and knows what he is dealing with and the two men have an unspoken bond that they ultimately both really needed.

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Bluebonnets.

During the flashbacks to Nick’s outing with Madison, they come across a field of Bluebonnet flowers and his mother tells him that it is a sign of goodness in the world.  This comes full circle when Nick discovers these very same flowers in the present, even holding on to one when he goes to sit outside to contemplate what he has just done.  Charlie shoots Nick out of revenge and he is stunned by what has just occurred.  As his life begins to pour out of him, Alicia, Victor, and Luciana rush over to him in a heartbreaking moment, while Morgan and the others watch solemnly from afar.  Nick still clings to the flower, desperately trying to hold on to something good.  After he is gone, we flash to Nick laying in a field of these flowers, the light pouring over him, suggesting that he is finally at peace.  While there will clearly be mixed feelings about Nick’s death, there is something so real and significant about it.  Nick didn’t die when he was out surrounded by walkers or on the bridge.  There are a number of violent and messy ways that Nick could have died, but his life is ended anticlimactically by a child who desperately wanted the same revenge that Nick did.  Nick, like Charlie, felt alone and trapped by circumstance and their acts of violence remind us that this is not the way to survive.  Al’s words in the beginning of the episode about truth are that much more important in this moment.  While we know that Fear the Walking Dead is not afraid to kill off main characters, as we said goodbye to Travis in the beginning of season 3 and watched the shocking end of Troy by Madison’s hand at the end of the season, we have to wonder where we go from here without Nick.

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl