Ranking the top 5 couples from “Buffy the Vampire Slayer”

“If my heart could beat, it would break my chest” (Spike).  When you think about epic love, what comes to mind?  Is it that indescribable feeling that you get within your gut?  Is it the tears that pour down your face when you witness a significant moment that will change your outlook on love forever?  I think that epic love can be described in so many different ways and that is what makes it so incredibly powerful.  It can be passionate and fiery or even one-sided, but there is something to be said about the things we do for love.  As I am re-watching one of my all time favorite television series, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, I have realized that Joss Whedon does an incredible job of introducing us to so many great loves on the show.  They don’t end up living happily ever after, but that’s what makes them so real and consuming.  We watch our favorite characters go through heartbreaking moments, as they desperately try to pick up the pieces when it seems impossible to do so.  However, we cannot deny the chemistry and beautiful connections they have shared, touching our hearts and souls in the process.  Please note spoilers are ahead.  My top five ships from Buffy the Vampire Slayer are:

5

Giles & Jenny

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Giles:  In my years as watcher, I’ve buried too many people.  But Jenny was the first I loved.(Passion, season 2 episode 17)

The budding romance between Giles and Jenny was absolutely delightful to watch.  Even though they both often spent their time supervising Buffy and the Scoobies, they had some undeniably sweet moments together and real chemistry.  Jenny often teased Giles and he would get baffled in front of her, which was absolutely adorable.  However, a strain was put on their relationship after Jenny was possessed by a demon targeting Giles.  We then later found out that Jenny was sent to Sunnydale to watch Angel, as her ancestors were responsible for the curse of his soul.  Giles supported Buffy here and kept Jenny at a distance, but Buffy eventually let go of her anger and confided to Jenny that Giles did truly miss her.  In the episode, “Passion,” it looked like Giles and Jenny were finally going to get the romantic evening they deserved.  Only Angelus ripped this chance at happiness away from them.  Angelus killed Jenny to prevent her from cursing him again, but took this tragic moment much further when he staged a romantic evening for Giles at his home.  Giles walked in to rose petals and opera music with champagne and a note reading, “upstairs.”  To Giles’s horror, he discovered Jenny’s lifeless body on his bed, as the champagne glasses shattered along with his heart and ours.

4

Xander & Anya

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Xander:  I’ve gotta say something cause I don’t think I’ve made it clear.  I’m in love with you.  Powerfully, painfully in love.  The things you do, the way you think, the way you move…I get excited every time I’m about to see you.  You make me feel like I’ve never felt before in my life.  Like a man.  I just thought you might wanna know. (Into the Woods, season 5 episode 10)

There is something to be truly said about the quirky and adorable love between Xander and Anya.  Anya initially came to Sunnydale as a demon to grant Cordelia’s wish in season 3, but she ended up human when this backfired.  Anya soon found herself attached to Xander and the two started an interesting relationship together.  While it first seemed like a relationship of convenience, Xander began to truly fall in love with Anya.  Even though Anya typically said the wrong thing at the wrong moment, you couldn’t help but adore her.  Anya also started to truly feel for Xander, which really helped her develop as a mortal, as she finally started to understand what it meant to be human.  When Xander and Anya were about to get married, I thought that two of our favorite characters were going to get the happily ever after ending that they deserved.  Only Xander had second thoughts and didn’t go through with the wedding after witnessing how his father treated his mother and seeing something similar in an alternate future for him and Anya.  This moment is truly heartbreaking, as Anya loved Xander so completely.  Xander felt like he was doing the right thing here, but my heart goes out to Anya.

3

Buffy & Spike

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Spike:  I’m not asking you for anything.  When I say I love you, it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you.  It has nothing to do with me.  I love what you are, what you do, how you try…I’ve seen your kindness and your strength, I’ve seen the best of you and the worst of you and I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are.  You’re a hell of a woman.  You’re the one, Buffy.  (Touched, season 7, episode 20)

I always felt a spark between Buffy and Spike even when they were mortal enemies.  There was just an undeniable sense of desire between them and I often used to wonder about what would happen if they ended up together.  In the episode, “Something Blue,” fans got a chance to see a potential for these two when Willow’s spell went horribly wrong and Buffy and Spike said that they were getting married.  When Spike got the chip in his head, he was no longer able to hurt anyone, but this became even more complicated for him when he became infatuated with Buffy.  Spike’s feelings for Buffy started out somewhat stalker-like, as he would wait outside her window and even steal her panties here and there.  However, Spike revealed true potential and friendship when he sat next to Buffy on her porch after she learned that her mother was very sick.  Buffy and Spike remained here in silence and Spike awkwardly patted her back, letting her know that he was truly there for her.

Later on in the series after Buffy came back from the dead, she was desperately trying to feel something and her and Spike shared an epic kiss at the end of the episode, “Once More, With Feeling,” leaving fans completely shocked.  Buffy started a dark relationship with Spike, as she tapped into her desires, keeping her relationship with him a secret at first.  Later on, their relationship got even more complicated when Spike attacked Buffy sexually, which was extremely difficult to watch.  Spike left town, horrified by his actions, and ended up earning his soul, which gave him a real chance to redeem himself.  Even though Buffy and Spike did not get a chance to truly work out, Buffy did appreciate everything he did for her and Spike truly became a man because of her.  There’s something to be said about true love redeeming someone who started out so evil.  Spike became a hero one could be truly proud of, performing selfless acts because of his unconditional love for Buffy, which sparked the humanity within his vampire soul.

2

Willow & Tara

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Tara:  Even when I’m at my worst, you make me feel special.  How do you do that?

Willow:  Magic. (Family, season 5, episode 6)

While I always shipped Willow and Oz, I felt so incredibly heartbroken when Oz left town.  I was beginning to wonder if Willow would ever find true love and we were all lucky enough to witness the beautiful love and friendship between Willow and Tara.  Willow and Tara met in Wicca club and quickly discovered that they were the only two members of the group to have any real powers.  Willow was very interested in experimenting with witchcraft and magic and she shared so many intimate things with Tara, as their friendship blossomed into something more.  Willow and Tara have always had such a pure and magical love.  Tara’s heart had always belonged to Willow and she was even willing to let her be happy when Oz returned, but Willow could not deny where her heart belonged now.  When her and Tara blew out the candle together, they were ready to fully explore their feelings for one another.  In a tragic moment later on in the series, Tara was shot and killed in front of Willow.  Her lifeless body collapsed in Willow’s arms, as Willow’s grief escalated into pure darkness and vengeance, as her dark magic consumed her.  Even though Willow got another chance at potential love later on in the series, nothing can compare to her love with Tara, which is something so transcendent and beautiful.

Some honorable mentions before revealing my number one ship are:

  • Willow & Oz
  • Spike & Drusilla
  • Xander & Cordelia
  • Spike & Harmony
  • Buffy & Riley

 

1

Buffy & Angel

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Angel:  Are you still my girl?

Buffy:  Always. (Enemies, season 3 episode 17)

My number one ship has to go to Buffy and Angel.  Giles got it right when he said, “A vampire in love with a Slayer.  It’s rather poetic.”  There is something so completely romantic about these two together. It’s almost like we are trapped within a dark fairy-tale, as we witness the emotional roller coaster ride between them.  Ever since Angel first saw Buffy, he loved her and wanted to help her.  Buffy gave Angel a true sense of purpose, as he did not know how to live with his soul previously.  Buffy and Angel’s love has always been complicated, however.  They have some unbelievably romantic moments together and some hot and steamy ones as well.  After Buffy and Angel make love for the first time, the unthinkable happens when Angel experienced a moment of “true happiness” and lost his soul, as the monster, Angelus, returned.  Angelus began tormenting Buffy and her friends, which was so cruel and heartbreaking.  I remember crying along with Buffy so many times after witnessing what she had to go through.  To make matters even worse, Angel’s soul was returned right at the moment that Buffy needed to kill him to prevent a demon from swallowing the world.  Buffy made the ultimate sacrifice when she told Angel to “close his eyes” and kiss her, right before she stabbed him with her sword.  Buffy left town after this, as she could not bear to handle it, but Angel soon returned from hell, as his purpose was not over.

Buffy and Angel tried out being friends, but learned that they could really never be just friends, as Spike pointed out.  They both desperately want to be close to one another, but knew that they could never have a true chance at a real life together.  Angel wanted Buffy to have a normal life, rather than keeping her hidden in the shadows, and ended up leaving town.  Before Angel left, he surprised Buffy at the prom and the dance between them was so beautiful and romantic, as the rest of the world seemed to just fade away, leaving only Buffy and Angel together.  Even though Buffy and Angel do not end up together, their love is so powerful and undeniable.  Buffy and Angel will always love one another and I will always continue to ship them.  Their love is beyond messy, but there is something truly perfect about it as well, reminding us that epic love is never easy, but there is really nothing like it in the world.

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own comments and thoughts about your favorite ships on Buffy the Vampire Slayer.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

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When Kallie Bennett, a jaded teenage girl plagued by her alcoholic mother and her peers molded out of sheer bubble gum perfection, chases after Alice in Wonderland herself, she ends up lost in her own version of Wonderland, which forces her to face her utmost fears and introduces her to familiar characters with a dark twist. Among these characters is Ches, a gorgeous vampire with a conflicted conscience, who becomes Kallie’s guide and blossoming love interest. She also crosses paths with Queen Hartley, a manipulative witch who has the power to strip away one’s memories and imagination, which brings a bone chilling new meaning to “off with their heads.” In The Search for Alice, Kallie starts to realize that her Wonderland is just as frightening as her own reality and that she cannot always run away from her problems. She must figure out a way to defeat Queen Hartley and return home before it is too late, but she soon learns that escaping Wonderland means leaving Ches behind forever.

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Riverdale” season 3 episode 6: “The Gargoyle King Is in the House”

Happy Wednesday TV fans!  After watching the CW’s Riverdale season 3 episode 6, the mystery behind “The Gargoyle King” continued to mystify us, as Betty desperately tried to connect the dots.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch yet.  In tonight’s episode, “Chapter Forty-One:  Manhunter,” Betty refuses to back down, as she confronts the parents of Riverdale about their past secrets.  Meanwhile, Veronica gets cozy in a jail cell, Josie’s health takes a turn for the worse, and Archie’s guilt is too much to bear.  My top 5 moments from Riverdale season 3 episode 6 are:

5

“What’s the connection there?”

In the beginning of the episode, Josie begins to feel pressure when questioned about her alibi and is the next one to have a seizure.  Luckily, she will be OK, but why Josie?  We know that Betty, Ethel, and now Josie have had seizures, but is there any connection between these three?  Evelyn Evernever was present in the classroom so I am starting to think that she could be the link here, but there are still so many missing pieces of the puzzle.

4

“Someone in this room is a murderer.”

There’s just something to be said about Betty Cooper.  She is smart, loyal, and probably the most capable person in Riverdale.  When Betty is on the case, she follows through on every lead, proving to be an amazing detective and our favorite modern day Nancy Drew.  Betty invites all of the parents to a meeting by using an invitation from “The Gargoyle King.”  The parents fall for the bait and Betty wants to get to the bottom of the murder of Principal Featherhead.  Penelope Blossom suggests that Dilton’s father, Darryl Doiley, was the culprit, but things get complicated when Betty discovers that his suicide was actually a covered up murder.  Penelope is straightforward with Betty and I don’t suspect her yet as “The Gargoyle King.”  However, my theory about Hermione is starting to make more sense now.  During the meeting, Hermione told Hiram that they should just get this over with and was also the first one to point fingers at Penelope, which quickly took the spotlight off of her.  Clever Hermione, but what’s your potential motive?

3

“You’re the Gargoyle King.”

Jughead and the Serpents track down Joaquin, who reveals that Hiram Lodge met with the warden.  Jughead doesn’t need any further evidence to confront Hiram Lodge.  Hiram is not threatened by Jughead at all and dismisses his accusations.  I still think that Hiram is way too obvious here, but he is far from innocent, as he orders for the witnesses at Shadow Lake to be eliminated.  Later on, Jughead discovers Joaquin’s lifeless body with the sacrifice mark on his forehead.  Who is behind Joaquin’s death?  I’m not completely sure, but someone definitely knows that he was over sharing.  Sorry to see you go Joaquin, but also kind of not because you stabbed Archie…

2

“Because we’re end game.”

After discovering the bodies of the Shadow Lake witnesses, Archie cannot handle anymore blood on his hands.  Even though he is not responsible for this, Archie feels like he needs to leave town, as he is no longer safe from Hiram Lodge.  He calls Veronica from a pay phone to say goodbye to her, but Veronica tries to explain that she found evidence to exonerate him.  Archie tells Veronica, “You were it for me” and proceeds to tell her how much he loves her, but Veronica cannot bear to say goodbye.  After he hangs up the phone, Archie says, “Goodbye Veronica,” which is beyond heartbreaking.  Archie is not alone; however, as Jughead is by his side and the two head out together.  What’s next for Archie?  I’m not sure, but I am hoping that he has a change of heart and returns to Veronica.  Veronica has always been by his side and she deserves the very best, but we know that Archie tends to carry the weight of the world on his shoulders.

1

“The Gargoyle King is in the house.”

In a frightening moment, Betty and Alice are speaking when the power goes out in their house.  “The Gargoyle King” appears before them and they run up the stairs, abandoning the popcorn on the stove.  When they reach a bedroom, there is a message on Darryl Doiley’s grave stone, threatening both Alice and Betty.  With perfect timing, FP comes through the window and stays with them until the threat is over.  I definitely had a little bit of Scream nostalgia here with the burning popcorn and Skeet Ulrich coming through the window, but it’s definitely no longer safe for the Cooper women.  Alice tells Betty that she is heading off to the farm, but in a shocking twist, sends Betty to the “Sisters of Quiet Mercy” against her will.  Betty feels betrayed and confused here and walks into a room, surrounded by disturbing portraits of “The Gargoyle King.”  It doesn’t look like Betty is going to escape this nightmare anytime soon, but why did Alice choose to turn on her now?  I think we are in desperate need of another rescue from Cheryl, Toni, and Veronica, but we’ll have to wait and see.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own thoughts and theories on Riverdale in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

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If you enjoyed this blog, I would love it if you would click the follow button on your way out to subscribe.  Thanks for your support!

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When Kallie Bennett, a jaded teenage girl plagued by her alcoholic mother and her peers molded out of sheer bubble gum perfection, chases after Alice in Wonderland herself, she ends up lost in her own version of Wonderland, which forces her to face her utmost fears and introduces her to familiar characters with a dark twist. Among these characters is Ches, a gorgeous vampire with a conflicted conscience, who becomes Kallie’s guide and blossoming love interest. She also crosses paths with Queen Hartley, a manipulative witch who has the power to strip away one’s memories and imagination, which brings a bone chilling new meaning to “off with their heads.” In The Search for Alice, Kallie starts to realize that her Wonderland is just as frightening as her own reality and that she cannot always run away from her problems. She must figure out a way to defeat Queen Hartley and return home before it is too late, but she soon learns that escaping Wonderland means leaving Ches behind forever.

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 10: “I Can See Her In You”

Happy Thursday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 10, I remembered that good memories can save your life.  You may try to forget the past, but the good in those we lost before can help us find our way, even if it seems like it is hopeless.  We can find strength in ourselves and in others just by opening our hearts a little bit, just enough to let someone else in who may be in as much pain as we are.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “Close Your Eyes,” the storm has arrived and Alicia tries to find shelter on her own, but quickly realizes that she has an uninvited guest that she is now trapped with.  Alicia desperately wants to do the right thing, but has trouble facing the person she holds responsible for killing her family.  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 10 are:

5

“You can never make up for it.”

While Alicia begins securing the house and taking out the walker family residing, she quickly discovers that Charlie is there too.  Alicia panics and tells Charlie that she can’t be there, fearing what she might do to her.  Alicia has a lot of bottled up pain and anger toward Charlie and rightfully so.  Alicia is still a good person; however, and tells Charlie that she can’t send her out in the storm, but is worried that she may kill her if she stays there.  Even though Alicia doesn’t physically harm Charlie, her words cut straight to the bone.  Alicia tells Charlie that she is a waste of a person and that she wants her to stay alive so she can live with the pain and guilt of what she did to her family.  Alicia’s brutal honesty clearly impacts Charlie, especially when she tells her that she can never forgive her.  At this point, it’s clear that both Alicia and Charlie are in pain, unsure of how to deal with it.  While Alicia puts her feelings out in the open, Charlie remains quiet for a long time, which creates an interesting contrast between these two.  We all handle pain and grief in our own way.  Sometimes we want to scream so loud that the earth will shake and other times we want to quietly numb ourselves, secluded away from the rest of the world.  Alicia and Charlie’s worlds are about to collide; however, forcing them to deal with the pain that has been locked inside both of them for so long.

4

“Why did you save me?”

During the episode, both Alicia and Charlie spot a walker pinned by a tree branch outside the bedroom window.  Charlie heads outside toward the walker, getting closer and closer to death, but Alicia pulls her away in the nick of time.  Charlie finally speaks and asks Alicia why she saved her.  Alicia suddenly realizes that the gun Charlie held on to was not for her.  Charlie had come here to end her own life, but Alicia reminds her once again that she needs to live with it and that she can’t help her.  While Alicia continues to do the right thing, she still cannot completely open up to Charlie.  However, this moment is important because we start to truly understand Charlie’s character.  While she has made many mistakes previously, she’s not that different from Alicia and the others, as she tries to find some way to cope with her loss.

3

“Sometimes when I’m reading I just like to close my eyes and try to see what I just read about.”

Charlie begins to open up to Alicia and tries to break the ice.  She asks her about living in California, intrigued by the idea of the beach.  Charlie’s love for reading and books starts to make more sense, as she explains the need to try and find some kind of escape in these words and stories.  Alicia coldly responds that the beach is just like everywhere else, now covered with the dead.  While Charlie is disappointed with her answer, Alicia begins to understand her more and more now.

2

“I can’t end up like them.”

Later in the episode, Alicia and Charlie end up trapped in the basement, as the water begins to quickly rise, threatening their lives.  Charlie begins to panic and tells Alicia that she doesn’t want to end up like the dead.  She tells Alicia that she saw her own parents turn and that she tries to remember what they looked like before, but she can’t.  Charlie’s interest in photographs adds up now, as she tries to create some kind of picture of what her parents looked like before.  She asks Alicia to end her life so that she doesn’t turn and Alicia even points the gun right at her head, but she can’t go through with it.  Alicia breaks down also and begins seeing images and pictures of the last moments of her family, which is heartbreaking.  Even though it is clearly difficult for Alicia to remember these moments, it gives her the strength she needs to do the right thing.  When all seems lost, the walker from the roof falls on the door to the basement, ultimately saving both Alicia and Charlie.  Whether this is coincidence or fate, I’m not so sure, but Alicia’s refusal to give up proves that she is more than just a survivor.  She is a force of nature, stronger than the storm outside.  Alicia finally channels her pain the right way, trying to keep her mother’s memory alive by doing so.

1

“Close your eyes…”

At the end of the episode, Alicia buries the walker family and has finally made a connection with Charlie.  Charlie tells Alicia that she can see her mother in her, which is truly heartwarming.  This leads to my absolute favorite moment of the episode, as Alicia and Charlie drive away.  Alicia tells Charlie, “Close your eyes…I’m going to take you to the beach.”  Charlie closes her eyes and Alicia walks her through every sight, smell, and sound.  Charlie tells her that she can see it all and can now also finally see her mom and dad again.  While this moment is truly touching, the escape is temporary, as Alicia quickly discovers that her friends are gone and tells Charlie that “things don’t get better…they get worse.”  Reality has surfaced again and we don’t yet know the fate of the other characters, but this episode was extremely significant for both Alicia and Charlie.  Alycia Debnam-Carey’s performance was so real and heartbreaking.  It’s like I could feel every breath she took and every word she blurted out, empathizing with the pain screaming inside her character.  While some of our favorite characters are gone, Alycia’s performance proved that she is a strong female protagonist, worthy of the lead and I am absolutely ready and willing to follow her.  It looks like we will determine Morgan’s fate next week.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

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When Kallie Bennett, a jaded teenage girl plagued by her alcoholic mother and her peers molded out of sheer bubble gum perfection, chases after Alice in Wonderland herself, she ends up lost in her own version of Wonderland, which forces her to face her utmost fears and introduces her to familiar characters with a dark twist. Among these characters is Ches, a gorgeous vampire with a conflicted conscience, who becomes Kallie’s guide and blossoming love interest. She also crosses paths with Queen Hartley, a manipulative witch who has the power to strip away one’s memories and imagination, which brings a bone chilling new meaning to “off with their heads.” In The Search for Alice, Kallie starts to realize that her Wonderland is just as frightening as her own reality and that she cannot always run away from her problems. She must figure out a way to defeat Queen Hartley and return home before it is too late, but she soon learns that escaping Wonderland means leaving Ches behind forever.

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 9: “Yesterday is Yesterday”

Happy Thursday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 9, I learned that it’s important to leave the past in the past, but what happens when the future is uncertain?  Are we able to get through the day or do we find ourselves replaying moments that we can’t change?  While we don’t know what the future holds, it’s important to keep Al’s words in mind:  “Yesterday is yesterday, but today is today and God knows if there’ll be a tomorrow.”  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “People Like Us,” Morgan decides that it is time to return home, now understanding that Rick was right all along.  Meanwhile, Alicia, Victor, and Luciana distract themselves in different ways and June confides in Al about John.  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 9 are:

5

“There’s nothing for me anywhere.”

While Alicia handles her grief by isolating herself, Victor and Luciana remain inside the big house they found.  Victor gets through the day by drowning himself in alcohol and Luciana tries to shut off everything around her by losing herself in the music from the record player.  Morgan tries to convince both of them to come to Virginia with him.  While Victor explains that he has had his “fair share” of road trips, Luciana’s response about there being nothing for her anywhere is hopeless and devastating.  Nick’s death has clearly had a huge impact on her, but it’s truly heartbreaking to see her feeling so alone and isolated.  Luciana needs someone to believe in again and maybe it’s the last person in the world you would ever think she would be invested in, but at least Charlie’s act to return the book, “The Little Prince,” got her out of the house.

4

“I just want to look him in the eye and tell him he was right.”

During the episode, Morgan recognizes that it’s time to return home and he asks that Al drive him there.  He plans on leaving the next day and he shares that his friend was right all along.  We know that Morgan is referring to Rick, but he had to see it for himself.  Morgan thought that he needed to be away from people, but his experience with the people he met here reminded him that he can still do some good for those around him and make a difference.  It’s great to see Morgan have a change of heart here and it’s important that he came to this epiphany on his own.  Let’s just hope Morgan can get a chance to tell Rick all of this.

3

“Telling her brought me back to the world.”

Charlie is having a tough time in her new circumstances and doesn’t even call out for help when she is almost attacked by a walker.  John Dorie is very concerned about her and tries to talk to her about it in the tank without any pressure.  He understands what it feels like to have something eat away at you, especially guilt and regret.  John explains that he found someone to talk to, meaning June, and says that “telling her brought me back to the world.”  Hopefully Charlie can trust John or find someone else to confide in before it’s too late.  His words do clearly resonate with Charlie, as she risks her life to try and take a step toward forgiveness by returning the book, “The Little Prince,” to Luciana.  While she may never be forgiven completely, it is a step in the right direction.

2

“I’m not Laura.”

When Al and June go to investigate things down the river, June requests to talk to Al off the record.  She confides in her about her concerns and fears, worrying that John will soon realize that she’s not “Laura,” the woman he fell in love with.  June feels like she’s a woman who got scared and ran away and is defined by this.  Al admits that she doesn’t really give advice, but tells June that she has been helping John everyday now and “that’s who you are now.” 

1

“My mom would have saved him.”

Morgan is very concerned about Alicia who has been staying by the garden, isolating herself from everyone else.  Alicia has been finding notes asking for help pinned to walkers and she distracts herself from the pain and grief swirling around inside of her by focusing on finding this person who needs help.  Morgan agrees to assist her, as they follow the notes like a trail of breadcrumbs to the source.  Morgan tries to caution Alicia about rushing in and the two team up to execute a plan.  When Alicia reaches the man, she is devastated to find out that he has already turned.  Morgan tries to explain that he has been like that for days and that she could not have saved him, but she tells him that her mom would have, which makes this moment truly heartbreaking.  Alicia knows that she has a lot to make up for, but Morgan suggests something simpler like just being there for her friends since they clearly need her.  This moment between Morgan and Alicia is real and honest.  Morgan has felt exactly like Alicia, wanting to run away from everything and stay away from people, but now truly understands that this is not the way.  Let’s hope that they both get a chance to help their friends before it’s too late.  After all, it’s raining walkers and a storm is coming.  Stay tuned!

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The 100” season 5 episode 11: “She Bore It So That They Didn’t Have To”

Happy Thursday TV fans!  After watching the CW’s The 100 season 5 episode 11, I learned that things aren’t always how they seem.  You may think you know why someone does what they do, but until all of the pieces of the puzzle come together, it’s impossible for you to put yourself in their shoes.  Would you do any differently?  Would you understand what is at stake for survival?  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In Tuesday night’s episode, “The Dark Year,” Clarke desperately tries to save her mother’s life and learns the truth about what Wonkru had to endure.  Meanwhile, Shaw tries to protect Raven, Marcus discusses next steps with Diyoza, and Madi lectures Clarke on what it means to be a hero.  My top 5 moments from The 100 season 5 episode 11 are:

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“I’ll give you 24 hours to get her operating again.”

After Clarke saves Abby’s life, she is horrified to learn that she is addicted to pills and recognizes that if she takes anymore, she could die.  McCreary discovers Clarke and Madi and tells her that she needs to have her mother up and running again or “you both get to watch your daughters die.”  Clarke understands that it’s not just her life being threatened and takes the necessary steps to help her mother, but Madi reminds her that she is fighting on the wrong side of the war.  Clarke forms an unpopular alliance with McCreary, recognizing that they both want the same thing.  She tries to explain this to Madi, but Madi reminds her about what it means to lead and fight with honor.

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“I’m not fighting for you.”

Octavia begins to march Wonkru off to war and Bellamy reminds her that she is “marching us into a massacre” and killing her own people.  He talks about the importance of winning the war the right way and making a deal with Diyoza so that they can all share the valley peacefully.  Octavia listens to what Bellamy has to say, but it’s clear that she is only focused on one outcome…winning.  She thanks Bellamy for fighting for her and he harshly reminds her, “I’m not fighting for you.  I’m fighting to get back to my family.”  Octavia has always been Bellamy’s family and these words clearly impact her, but she keeps going, realizing that there is no turning back now.

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“I’m not mad at you for saving my life.  I’m mad at you for making me care about yours.”

Shaw refuses to stay behind and is willing to help Raven and her friends no matter what.  Raven reminds him that if he is captured, he can endanger everyone, but Shaw is willing to take that chance to protect her.  Shaw shows up with perfect timing to help save the day and everyone is grateful except for Raven.  When he later confronts her about it, he tells her, “Maybe you should forgive me for saving your life.”  In an impulsive and passionate moment, Raven says, “I’m not mad at you for saving my life.  I’m mad at you for making me care about yours,” and the two share the kiss we have all been waiting for.  The tension between these two has finally been explored and I’m looking forward to see what’s next for them.  However, I still see romantic sparks between Raven and Murphy, but with Emori still in the picture, I’m not sure that we can expect to see anything happen here just yet.

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“I won’t let the devil in this garden.”

When Marcus speaks to Diyoza about how this war will end, they both realize that a peaceful resolution seems out of the question now.  McCreary and Octavia are both dangerous leaders, but Marcus tries to figure out which option is potentially better when he asks, “How do you choose between a monster and the devil?”  Later in the episode, Marcus agrees to help McCreary, reminding everyone that he doesn’t want to let Octavia in this garden, revealing that he thinks that she is the greater threat. Marcus has spent years with Octavia and witnessed what her leadership has done to humanity.  He is not about to just stand by and watch this again, hoping that he will have better luck with McCreary.  Is he making the right choice or is there another way out of this?

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“She bore it so that they didn’t have to…just like you.

In this episode, we finally get a glimpse into “The Dark Year” and truly learn and understand what Wonkru had to go through to survive.  While the fighting pits seemed brutal and violent, I never realized their true purpose until Tuesday night’s episode and I have to admit that my stomach is still turning.  Abby’s addiction clearly escalated because of her role in all of this, as she reveals to Clarke what they had to do to survive.  “All of me for all of us,” took on a new meaning, as we learned that Wonkru was eating the meat of the people who lost in the arena.  While some recognized that this was necessary to survive, others refused to resort to cannibalism and took a stand, including Marcus.  Even Octavia felt that she could not force her people to do this, but Abby explained to her that it was the only real way to survive and told Octavia that she needed to take away their choice.  In a horrific and heartbreaking moment, Octavia points a gun at a man who refused to eat because his brother died in the arena.  She shoots and kills him to make her point and continues to do so, telling everyone that they must eat or die.  After enough people died, Marcus stood up and said he would eat, swaying everyone else.  After hearing Abby’s part in this and what Octavia had to convince her people to do in order to survive, Clarke is horrified, but Madi reminds her that Octavia did what Clarke did at Mount Weather.  Even though Clarke says she never was a hero, Madi tells her that she is ashamed of her, searching for the Clarke who risked everything over and over again to protect her people.  Will Clarke be able to find the hero within?  Will Abby ever be able to truly redeem herself?  Will Octavia ever be able to live with herself after all she has taken on to protect her people?  Stay tuned!

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 4 episode 5: “Take Care of your Mind, Body, and Soul”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair last night, I learned that we sometimes have to go back to the past and walk in the steps of those before us in order to truly know which path to take for our own future.  We may find answers to a mystery that we never even knew existed or realize that we have never made a single choice for ourselves, but what we do next can help determine who we are and who we can still become.  We don’t have to travel across the country to find it, but sometimes we need to escape just for a little while to listen to our heart and find out what or who it truly desires.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “405,” Cole journeys to Morro Bay, California to find out more about his father’s surfboard, but meets someone unexpected from his father’s past who will potentially change his future.  Meanwhile, Vik feels like his whole world is crashing down around him, desperate to turn off the reality of his situation and live in the moment.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 4 episode 5 are:

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“I can’t do it alone.”

Part one of the episode opens up with Vik and it was refreshing to see things from his perspective.  Typically when we learn anything about Vik, it is from Helen’s eyes, so this was a nice change.  Vik certainly has a lot on his plate, as he has just found out that he has stage 4 pancreatic cancer and is looking for some way to give his short life meaning.  After trying to talk to his parents, his father asks him, “Why do you have to be so cruel?”  Vik is merely trying to let his parents know about his life insurance policy and prepare them for the inevitable, but they don’t want to hear the truth about his situation.  Vik hopes to have better luck with Helen and is disappointed when the fertility doctor explains that their situation has not improved in order for Helen to have a baby.  Helen admits that she has not been giving herself the shots as much as she should because she really doesn’t want to have a baby in a world without Vik.  While one can understand where Helen is coming from, who already has four children, Vik is crushed by this and is angry that Helen has lied to him once again. 

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“I haven’t made a single choice for myself.”

After realizing that his day isn’t going to get any better, Vik decides not to return to work at the hospital and instead buys a fancy Porsche with no hesitation.  After going off on his neighbor, Sierra, for leaving her garbage can out again, Sierra is distracted by his new shiny car and suggests that they take it for a ride.  After testing out how fast the car can go, Vik gets pulled over and starts laughing when the cop tells him that they could have gotten killed.  He blurts out that he has stage 4 cancer and the cop reminds him this isn’t the first time he has heard this from someone.  Vik tells him, “so write me a ticket then,” not caring about the consequences of his actions, as Sierra is shocked to find out that that Vik is dying.  Vik later returns to Sierra’s home and the two talk about their lives and Vik comes to the realization that every single choice he has made has been for his parents.  He finally makes a decision for himself when he decides to sleep with Sierra, but will he be able to tell Helen what happened?  Vik is all about living in the moment right now, but what happens when reality begins to set in again?

3

“I come with the room.”

In part two, Cole travels out to Morro Bay, California and meets the beautiful and mysterious, Delphine, played by the brilliant Phoebe Tonkin.  Cole initially declines her forward advances, but eventually gives in to temptation after the two of them bond later in the episode.  Cole recognizes that his affair with Delphine is fleeting and temporary and she is perfectly OK with that, explaining that Cole doesn’t need to apologize to her because it was something she wanted.  Even though Cole will probably never see Delphine again, it’s clear that she has had an impact to him, opening his eyes to the truth that he kept hidden away for so long.

2

“You look so much like someone I used to know.”

Perhaps the biggest surprise for Cole is that he meets Nan, who is beyond shocked when Cole walks through the doors of the Perino Gallery.  Cole discovers that Nan is the one who made his father’s surfboard and quickly learns that they also had an affair for a summer.  Nan is very welcoming to Cole and has a free spirit charm that is endearing.  She confides in Cole about his father and tells him that he was adventurous, which drastically differs from Cole’s own memories about his father, who he described as “emotionally depressed.”  After revealing that his father died many years back, Nan is beyond upset.  Cole realizes that their affair was not meaningless, as Nan truly loved his father.  She shows Cole the love letters that she continued to write him for 10 years after he went back home and Cole starts to see everything with fresh new eyes.  Nan explains that she thought of Cole’s father, Gabriel, as her soul mate and her destiny.  She shows him that the symbol on his surfboard contains their initials, intertwined for eternity.  You can see the love in Nan’s eyes when she talks about Gabriel, as she tells Cole that he called her “wild eyes” and said that he didn’t know that women like her existed in the world.  Nan admits to Cole that they wanted different things and that she has no regrets, but that he had to return home because Cherry was pregnant and threatened to kill herself.  Cole is shocked to learn this, but Nan explains that she tried to do an “exorcism” of sorts through letters to give Gabriel the opportunity to free himself from her and move on with his life.

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“Take care of your mind, body, and soul.”

After learning about the “exorcism” that Nan describes, Cole takes this opportunity to try it out for himself and to use it on his own feelings for Alison.  Nan reads each of the five letters to him, which are assigned with a task and asks Delphine to be his guide through this experience.  The letters start off with tasks like finding something in nature that has the scent of the one you love and writing down everything you love about that person.  It then escalates to burning these items along with the scent and stating out loud everything you hate that you associate with them.  Cole finally allows his emotions and feelings to reach the surface and his words are beyond moving.  He finally says that, “I hate that you gave up on me and I hate that I can’t give up on you.”  Delphine reminds him to state his intention as he says these words and burns everything and he finally says, “I want to be free of you.”  During Cole’s “exorcism” of his feelings for Alison, the song, “The Night We Met” by Lord Huron is playing in the background.  If you have ever seen the show, “13 Reasons Why,” this is the song that played when Clay and Hannah danced together and it instantly tugs at your emotions and you will find yourself crying before you know it.  You can listen to the song here.  This song was the perfect soundtrack to Cole’s “exorcism,” as he allows himself to try and be free of Alison, but tells Nan the next day that he only feels worse and it didn’t work.  Nan tries to tell him it worked for his father because the last task was to send back the letters and she has them.  Cole looks closely at the postmark and tells Nan that his father never sent them, as it was postmarked two years after he died.  He realizes that Cherry must have found them and sent them back to Nan, crushing her hope that Gabriel’s love for her still existed.  Cole explains that his father hung himself on his 10th birthday, just a couple of weeks after the last letter arrived.

This moment is heartbreaking, but Nan finally learns the truth that Gabriel’s love for her never burned out and Cole now understands that he is still in love with Alison and that he needs to tell her how he feels before it’s too late.  Delphine tells Cole to “take care of his mind, body, and soul,” before he goes and Cole thanks his father, as he leaves Morro Bay behind.  After watching this episode, I almost wish that part two was the entire episode, but I do think it is important that we saw what is going on with Vik as well.  That being said, part two of the episode was so beautifully written and well executed and may have been one of the most beautiful moments I have ever seen on the show.  Now that we know how Cole feels about Alison, will she return his love before it’s too late?  Does Cole get a chance to tell Alison that he loves her before she goes missing?  Stay tuned, as things continue to heat up each week!

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The 100” season 5 episode 7: “I’d Walk Through Fire for You”

Happy Thursday TV fans!  After watching the CW’s The 100 season 5 episode 7 last night, I learned that “acceptable losses” are a necessity in war, but how do you know when you have gone too far?  Once you cross that imaginary line between right and wrong, there may be no coming back.  So do we compromise who we are and what we stand for to win or do we make sacrifices and do things the hard way to keep our integrity intact?  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “Acceptable Losses,” Marcus is concerned about Abby’s ability to function as a doctor because of her addiction.  Meanwhile, Clarke tells Madi to hold back in training to keep her safe, Raven has second thoughts about a necessary decision, and Monty receives an emotional message from an old friend.  My top 5 moments from The 100 season 5 episode 7 are:

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“It’s time for Wonkru to go home.”

Clarke and Bellamy discover that someone in Wonkru has been trying to breed the worms utilizing human hosts.  At first they come across dead bodies, but soon discover that one of the bodies is being kept alive, which is beyond horrifying.  Octavia plans on using the worms in defectors so she can take out everyone in Shadow Valley.  Clarke explains that “desperation has a way of making the unimaginable a necessity,” but this plan seems beyond dangerous.  Clarke and Bellamy inform Indra about what is going on, hoping that she can get through to Octavia, but Octavia explains that she is completely aware and that this was her idea.  Octavia is ready to win the war and give up “acceptable losses,” but it seems like any source of goodness within her has completely evaporated.

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“I’ve been meaning to give this to you.”

In this episode, Clarke gives Monty the letter she found from Jasper shortly after Praimfaya occurred.  She explains that she did not open the letter even though she wanted to.  It seems like this note has perfect timing, as it really strikes a nerve with Monty.  He reads several parts aloud and reveals that Jasper thought that human beings were the problem and that there would always be another war.  When Monty sees the measures everyone is willing to take to win the war, he tells his friends that Jasper was right all along and that maybe they do not deserve the last piece of livable earth after all.  While this moment is heartbreaking for Monty, it’s about time he got some screen time.  It seems like he has been fading into the void of forgotten secondary characters for too long and I would like to see him take matters into his own hands and really make an impact, but will anyone heed his warning?

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“How could you be loyal to someone who collars people like animals?”

Back in Shadow Valley, Echo tries to work with Raven so that they can get the eye down according to Bellamy’s plan, but Raven is having second thoughts about betraying Shaw.  Echo gets Diyoza’s attention when she has Raven prove that Shaw was the one to take down the missiles while they insert the drive with this sleight of hand.  Later on we see that Shaw is now a prisoner as well, but Raven can barely look him in the eye.  Her guilt is weighing on her conscience, but is it perhaps because there are some other feelings present as well?  Could Shaw be a potential romantic interest for Raven?

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“Be the last.”

Clarke and Gaia try to protect Madi by informing her not to try her hardest during training.  While Madi seems initially confused by this, she does as she is told but makes it too obvious.  Gaia shows Madi the flame and tells her that she will never force it on her, but it’s clear that Madi will eventually need to accept her destiny as “The Commander” sooner or later.  When Octavia asks to see her fight, Madi makes the conscious decision to put forth all of her effort, proving to be a strong fighter with a lot of potential.  Octavia asks her to be her “second” and Madi agrees to Clarke’s dismay.  Clarke does not oppose Octavia publicly, but later radios to Diyoza to make a deal and tells Bellamy and the others that they will need to take out Octavia, knowing that she will never agree to any kind of compromise.  Will Bellamy be able to stand by and let this happen to his sister?  Will Clarke be able to get Octavia to surrender without killing her?  We will have to stay tuned, but Clarke is ready to do what is necessary to protect Madi and her friends no matter what.

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“I’d walk through fire for you.  I’d die for you…choose.”

After Abby loses a patient who was shot, Marcus is beyond concerned when he sees that Abby is still extremely dependent on her pills.  He reminds Abby that this was supposed to be their second chance and that people are dying.  Abby tells him that she did everything she could, but Marcus feels it wasn’t enough.  Marcus reminds Abby that he would walk through fire for her and die for her, but that he refuses to stand by and watch her kill herself.  He tells her to choose between him and the pills, but they are interrupted by Diyoza before Abby can give him an answer.  Marcus clearly cares about Abby more than anything or anyone, but will he finally be able to get through to her?  Later on, Abby gets ready to examine Diyoza after telling her that the disease is present among 75 percent of her people.  We are all in for a shock and learn that Diyoza is pregnant.  As I think back to the other seasons, I believe Diyoza is the first character that we have seen pregnant on earth.  While there are still many unanswered questions surrounding this revelation, it certainly throws another twist in there that we did not see coming.

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The 100 in the comments section below.  Thanks for reading and happy viewing!

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