Ranking the top 5 heartbreaking moments from “Angel”

Happy Wednesday TV Fans!  For today, I have once again returned to one of my old favorites, Angel.  After ranking my top episodes last week, I realized how many truly heartbreaking moments there are on this show.  I mean, you sort of start to expect this from a Joss Whedon series, as many of our beloved characters do not get a chance at a happily ever after, but there is something so incredibly soul crushing about some of the moments on Angel in particular.  It’s been quite some time since I have watched the series and while I knew certain moments were coming, I couldn’t stop the tears from falling.  These moments are not just sad or tragic, they impact me in such a way that I end up thinking about my own life and my connection to others.

It’s interesting how a few familiar key words in these moments can truly impact us.  Whether it’s the death of a favorite character or a moment of true compassion, these moments stand the test of time and continue to tug at my emotions.  The heartbreak is so real and unavoidable and yet I still find myself hoping that the outcome will change, but it never does.  While I love that Joss Whedon is not afraid to kill off main characters, I found myself needing to emotionally prepare for the moments that follow.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the full series yet.  My top 5 heart-breaking moments from Angel are:

5

Darla’s sacrifice.

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“This child – Angel, it’s the one good thing we ever did together…you make sure to tell him that.”

Lullaby (Season 3, Episode 9)

Darla has always been known as a ruthless and evil vampire.  However, she is the one who turned Angel and he cannot always ignore his connection to her, especially when she is brought back from the dead.  After Darla and Angel sleep together, we later find out that there is a major consequence.  Angel’s soul is still intact, but Darla is pregnant with their child.  As Darla progresses with her pregnancy, we learn that the baby is human with a soul.  The baby’s goodness begins to truly impact Darla and she realizes what she must do.  In a tragic moment, Darla tells Angel that this is the one good thing they ever did together, right before she stakes herself.  Angel’s son, Connor, is born in the alley because of Darla’s sacrifice.  Darla has redeemed herself in this moment and while she cannot erase all of her past sins, this act proves that it’s never too late to try and do the right thing for the ones you love.

4

Angel & Buffy’s day together is reset.

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“No!  Oh God.  It’s not enough time.”

I Will Remember You (Season 1, Episode 8)

In the episode, “I Will Remember You,” we get a Buffy/Angel crossover, as Buffy comes to town to confront Angel after he stopped by in Sunnydale to save her without talking to her.  Their argument is put on hold, as they are attacked and Angel is infected by a demon, which causes him to become human.  Buffy and Angel finally get the opportunity to be with one another, but things are never that easy.  Angel realizes that he cannot protect Buffy and the helpless as a human and asks for the Powers That Be to reset the day.  As if this isn’t heartbreaking enough, Angel will remember the day with Buffy, but it will be stripped from her own memory, as if it never happened.  Angel tells Buffy that they only have a minute left together and she begins crying, telling him that it’s not enough time, which always brings me to tears.  This episode gives Bangel fans the chance to see a happily ever after for our beautiful couple, but everything is temporary.  The fact that Angel carries this memory alone is truly tragic and my heart goes out to him here.  If only…

3

Fred’s death.

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“I’m not scared. I’m not scared. I’m not scared. Please, Wesley, why can’t I stay?”

A Hole in the World (Season 5, Episode 15)

In season 5, Joss really let fans cry their eyes out.  Fred is one of my all time favorite characters and she always brings a goofy innocence to everything, which really helps balance out the team.  She and Wesley have never really gotten the chance to explore their feelings for one another, but it seems like that is all about to change in season 5.  Fred finally sees Wesley in a romantic way and wants to be with him, which had fans cheering everywhere.  However, just as these two start off their relationship together, tragedy strikes when a mysterious package arrives at Wolfram & Hart and Fred is infected by it.  Fred begins to deteriorate very quickly, as the team tries to find a way to save her.  Only they do not have enough time or a real option, as Angel is not able to save Fred and sacrifice many lives as a result.  Wesley stays by Fred’s side through it all and she tries to be so brave for him, which is incredibly heartbreaking.  As soon as she utters the words, “Why can’t I stay?” I start sobbing.  Fred’s reaction here is so pure and innocent and I still just desperately want her to be all right, but she’s gone and Wesley’s reaction is beyond tragic.

2

Cordelia’s death.

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“Hello. Yes, I know. She’s… but that’s impossible. She’s standing right— I’m sorry. Yeah. When did she die? Did she, um… she never did wake up? I see.”

(hangs up, looks out to where Cordelia was standing moments earlier)

“Thank you.”

You’re Welcome (Season 5, Episode 12)

As many of you know, this is my favorite episode of the series, but it is so hard for me to watch it.  We initially think that Cordelia has woken up from her coma and that she and Angel may finally get the opportunity to be together.  However, we are not granted this wish, as we learn that Cordelia is here on a very temporary basis, as the Powers That Be “owed her one.”  Cordelia sets Angel on the right path and kisses him one last time, but their moment is interrupted when she tells him that he has to get the phone.  Angel is shocked to find out that Cordy never woke up from the coma, as he hopefully looks over to see her, but realizes that she is gone.  Reality sets in here, as Angel is left alone, but he does thank her.  Angel has been through so much and he still kept his hope alive that Cordy would wake up one day.  While Angel can hold on to this fantasy, it doesn’t bring Cordy back, which is truly devastating.

1

Illyria pretends to be Fred to comfort Wesley.

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“Would you like me to lie to you now?”

Not Fade Away (Season 5, Episode 22)

In the series finale, we have a lot going on, but this moment still stands the test of time for me.  These nine words bring me to tears every single time.  They are that powerful.  Wesley is fatally wounded and only has a few moments left.  Illyria has been showing signs of humanity, but she understands what she must do here to comfort him and simply asks Wesley if he would like her to lie to him now.  Wesley agrees and Illyria appears to be Fred in front of him, staying with him until the very end so that he can die peacefully with the woman he loves by his side.  Wesley’s death is sad enough, but this moment of compassion from Illyria affects my heart and soul.  This moment is so incredibly real and touching, as Illyria finally understands what it means to feel grief and loss.

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to share some of your own heartbreaking moments from Angel in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

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Ranking my top 5 funniest moments from “Angel”

Happy Wednesday TV fans!  As I near the end of my Angel re-watch, it really got me thinking about how many hilarious moments there are throughout the series.  It’s been quite some time since I have re-watched this show and I found myself laughing out loud repeatedly, proving that even though this show may be considered a darker spin-off of Buffy, it really stands out and embraces its own identity.  For today, I am going to be ranking my top 5 funniest moments of the entire series.  I was having a little bit of trouble deciding because there were so many hilarious moments, but I guess it comes down to preference.  Either way, I think you will be thoroughly entertained and I hope it brings you some Angel nostalgia and some laughs as well.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the full series yet.  My top 5 funniest moments from Angel are:

5

Angel singing “Mandy” for karaoke (Moment from Season 2, Episode 2, “Judgment”).

So, Angel singing in any capacity is hilarious, but this is where it all started.  There are several references throughout the show to Barry Manilow and Angel’s favorite songs, but you really can’t beat this moment.  Cordelia is also absolutely hilarious when she comments that Angel will do anything to save someone.

4

Harmony comes to visit (Moment from Season 2, Episode 17, “Disharmony”).

Harmony really shined when she became a vampire.  I didn’t think that anything could get funnier than her having “minions” on Buffy the Vampire Slayer, her on-again-off-again relationship with Spike or “Blondie Bear,” or her bitch fight with Xander, which had me falling out of my chair laughing.  However, Harmony was not done yet and made her presence known on Angel.  The episode, “Disharmony,” is one of my favorite personal guilty pleasures and it is laugh out loud funny from start to finish.  Later on, Harmony gets her own episode in “Harm’s Way,” (season 5, episode 9) and never disappoints!

3

Wesley pretends to be Angel (Moment from Season 2, Episode 6, “Guise Will Be Guise”).

Wesley doesn’t always get all the attention he deserves, but he is one of the funniest characters on the show.  This is the first episode where he really shined for me, as he pretended to be Angel to help an innocent.  The episode got funnier and funnier along the way, as Wesley wore Angel’s coat with pride and even insisted on calling the shots after Angel had returned.

2

“I don’t dance…” (Moment from Season 1, Episode 13, “She”).

In this episode, Angel is forced to mingle at Cordelia’s party and gets thrown off when someone asks him to dance.  After saying, “I don’t dance,” we hilariously cut to scenes of Angel dancing ridiculously.  In the end credits, we get to see both Angel and Wesley dancing, which is beyond funny.  Enjoy!

Some honorable mentions before revealing my funniest moment on Angel are:

  • Spike mocks Angel and calls him a “fluffy puppy with bad teeth” in Season 1, Episode 3, “In the Dark.”
  • Angel and Wesley’s reaction to Cordelia’s acting in Season 1, Episode 17, “Eternity.”
  • Lorne’s family member does the “dance of joy” in Pylea in Season 2, Episode 21, “Through the Looking Glass.”
  • Angel gets turned into a puppet in Season 5, Episode 14, “Smile Time.”
  • Cordelia sings “Greatest Love of All” in Season 4, Episode 4, “Slouching Toward Bethlehem,” which is the same song she sang for talent show in Season 1, Episode 9, “The Puppet Show,” on Buffy.  I’m not sure which performance is better…
  • Fred asks Angel if he has any weed in Season 4, Episode 6, “Spin the Bottle.”
  • Illyria says that she has been in a world without shrimp in Season 5, Episode 17, “Underneath,” which is a throwback to Anya talking about a world without shrimp on Buffy.
  • Pretty much any scene with Andrew.

1

Cordelia and Wesley mock Buffy and Angel’s romance (Moment from Season 3, Episode 5, “Fredless).

I almost completely forgot about this scene and when I got to it on my re-watch, I must have watched it at least ten times.  It’s seriously that funny.  Cordelia puts her acting skills to the test, but Wesley steals the show when he steps in and says that he almost forgot to brood.  Angel’s reaction to “the show” is absolutely hilarious as well.  As a big fan of Bangel, I really appreciated this scene, as it brightened up my day and gave me a new respect for Angel.  I hope you agree!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post some of your own favorite funniest moments on Angel in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

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Ranking the top 5 couples from “Buffy the Vampire Slayer”

“If my heart could beat, it would break my chest” (Spike).  When you think about epic love, what comes to mind?  Is it that indescribable feeling that you get within your gut?  Is it the tears that pour down your face when you witness a significant moment that will change your outlook on love forever?  I think that epic love can be described in so many different ways and that is what makes it so incredibly powerful.  It can be passionate and fiery or even one-sided, but there is something to be said about the things we do for love.  As I am re-watching one of my all time favorite television series, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, I have realized that Joss Whedon does an incredible job of introducing us to so many great loves on the show.  They don’t end up living happily ever after, but that’s what makes them so real and consuming.  We watch our favorite characters go through heartbreaking moments, as they desperately try to pick up the pieces when it seems impossible to do so.  However, we cannot deny the chemistry and beautiful connections they have shared, touching our hearts and souls in the process.  Please note spoilers are ahead.  My top five ships from Buffy the Vampire Slayer are:

5

Giles & Jenny

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Giles:  In my years as watcher, I’ve buried too many people.  But Jenny was the first I loved.(Passion, season 2 episode 17)

The budding romance between Giles and Jenny was absolutely delightful to watch.  Even though they both often spent their time supervising Buffy and the Scoobies, they had some undeniably sweet moments together and real chemistry.  Jenny often teased Giles and he would get baffled in front of her, which was absolutely adorable.  However, a strain was put on their relationship after Jenny was possessed by a demon targeting Giles.  We then later found out that Jenny was sent to Sunnydale to watch Angel, as her ancestors were responsible for the curse of his soul.  Giles supported Buffy here and kept Jenny at a distance, but Buffy eventually let go of her anger and confided to Jenny that Giles did truly miss her.  In the episode, “Passion,” it looked like Giles and Jenny were finally going to get the romantic evening they deserved.  Only Angelus ripped this chance at happiness away from them.  Angelus killed Jenny to prevent her from cursing him again, but took this tragic moment much further when he staged a romantic evening for Giles at his home.  Giles walked in to rose petals and opera music with champagne and a note reading, “upstairs.”  To Giles’s horror, he discovered Jenny’s lifeless body on his bed, as the champagne glasses shattered along with his heart and ours.

4

Xander & Anya

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Xander:  I’ve gotta say something cause I don’t think I’ve made it clear.  I’m in love with you.  Powerfully, painfully in love.  The things you do, the way you think, the way you move…I get excited every time I’m about to see you.  You make me feel like I’ve never felt before in my life.  Like a man.  I just thought you might wanna know. (Into the Woods, season 5 episode 10)

There is something to be truly said about the quirky and adorable love between Xander and Anya.  Anya initially came to Sunnydale as a demon to grant Cordelia’s wish in season 3, but she ended up human when this backfired.  Anya soon found herself attached to Xander and the two started an interesting relationship together.  While it first seemed like a relationship of convenience, Xander began to truly fall in love with Anya.  Even though Anya typically said the wrong thing at the wrong moment, you couldn’t help but adore her.  Anya also started to truly feel for Xander, which really helped her develop as a mortal, as she finally started to understand what it meant to be human.  When Xander and Anya were about to get married, I thought that two of our favorite characters were going to get the happily ever after ending that they deserved.  Only Xander had second thoughts and didn’t go through with the wedding after witnessing how his father treated his mother and seeing something similar in an alternate future for him and Anya.  This moment is truly heartbreaking, as Anya loved Xander so completely.  Xander felt like he was doing the right thing here, but my heart goes out to Anya.

3

Buffy & Spike

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Spike:  I’m not asking you for anything.  When I say I love you, it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you.  It has nothing to do with me.  I love what you are, what you do, how you try…I’ve seen your kindness and your strength, I’ve seen the best of you and the worst of you and I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are.  You’re a hell of a woman.  You’re the one, Buffy.  (Touched, season 7, episode 20)

I always felt a spark between Buffy and Spike even when they were mortal enemies.  There was just an undeniable sense of desire between them and I often used to wonder about what would happen if they ended up together.  In the episode, “Something Blue,” fans got a chance to see a potential for these two when Willow’s spell went horribly wrong and Buffy and Spike said that they were getting married.  When Spike got the chip in his head, he was no longer able to hurt anyone, but this became even more complicated for him when he became infatuated with Buffy.  Spike’s feelings for Buffy started out somewhat stalker-like, as he would wait outside her window and even steal her panties here and there.  However, Spike revealed true potential and friendship when he sat next to Buffy on her porch after she learned that her mother was very sick.  Buffy and Spike remained here in silence and Spike awkwardly patted her back, letting her know that he was truly there for her.

Later on in the series after Buffy came back from the dead, she was desperately trying to feel something and her and Spike shared an epic kiss at the end of the episode, “Once More, With Feeling,” leaving fans completely shocked.  Buffy started a dark relationship with Spike, as she tapped into her desires, keeping her relationship with him a secret at first.  Later on, their relationship got even more complicated when Spike attacked Buffy sexually, which was extremely difficult to watch.  Spike left town, horrified by his actions, and ended up earning his soul, which gave him a real chance to redeem himself.  Even though Buffy and Spike did not get a chance to truly work out, Buffy did appreciate everything he did for her and Spike truly became a man because of her.  There’s something to be said about true love redeeming someone who started out so evil.  Spike became a hero one could be truly proud of, performing selfless acts because of his unconditional love for Buffy, which sparked the humanity within his vampire soul.

2

Willow & Tara

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Tara:  Even when I’m at my worst, you make me feel special.  How do you do that?

Willow:  Magic. (Family, season 5, episode 6)

While I always shipped Willow and Oz, I felt so incredibly heartbroken when Oz left town.  I was beginning to wonder if Willow would ever find true love and we were all lucky enough to witness the beautiful love and friendship between Willow and Tara.  Willow and Tara met in Wicca club and quickly discovered that they were the only two members of the group to have any real powers.  Willow was very interested in experimenting with witchcraft and magic and she shared so many intimate things with Tara, as their friendship blossomed into something more.  Willow and Tara have always had such a pure and magical love.  Tara’s heart had always belonged to Willow and she was even willing to let her be happy when Oz returned, but Willow could not deny where her heart belonged now.  When her and Tara blew out the candle together, they were ready to fully explore their feelings for one another.  In a tragic moment later on in the series, Tara was shot and killed in front of Willow.  Her lifeless body collapsed in Willow’s arms, as Willow’s grief escalated into pure darkness and vengeance, as her dark magic consumed her.  Even though Willow got another chance at potential love later on in the series, nothing can compare to her love with Tara, which is something so transcendent and beautiful.

Some honorable mentions before revealing my number one ship are:

  • Willow & Oz
  • Spike & Drusilla
  • Xander & Cordelia
  • Spike & Harmony
  • Buffy & Riley

 

1

Buffy & Angel

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Angel:  Are you still my girl?

Buffy:  Always. (Enemies, season 3 episode 17)

My number one ship has to go to Buffy and Angel.  Giles got it right when he said, “A vampire in love with a Slayer.  It’s rather poetic.”  There is something so completely romantic about these two together. It’s almost like we are trapped within a dark fairy-tale, as we witness the emotional roller coaster ride between them.  Ever since Angel first saw Buffy, he loved her and wanted to help her.  Buffy gave Angel a true sense of purpose, as he did not know how to live with his soul previously.  Buffy and Angel’s love has always been complicated, however.  They have some unbelievably romantic moments together and some hot and steamy ones as well.  After Buffy and Angel make love for the first time, the unthinkable happens when Angel experienced a moment of “true happiness” and lost his soul, as the monster, Angelus, returned.  Angelus began tormenting Buffy and her friends, which was so cruel and heartbreaking.  I remember crying along with Buffy so many times after witnessing what she had to go through.  To make matters even worse, Angel’s soul was returned right at the moment that Buffy needed to kill him to prevent a demon from swallowing the world.  Buffy made the ultimate sacrifice when she told Angel to “close his eyes” and kiss her, right before she stabbed him with her sword.  Buffy left town after this, as she could not bear to handle it, but Angel soon returned from hell, as his purpose was not over.

Buffy and Angel tried out being friends, but learned that they could really never be just friends, as Spike pointed out.  They both desperately want to be close to one another, but knew that they could never have a true chance at a real life together.  Angel wanted Buffy to have a normal life, rather than keeping her hidden in the shadows, and ended up leaving town.  Before Angel left, he surprised Buffy at the prom and the dance between them was so beautiful and romantic, as the rest of the world seemed to just fade away, leaving only Buffy and Angel together.  Even though Buffy and Angel do not end up together, their love is so powerful and undeniable.  Buffy and Angel will always love one another and I will always continue to ship them.  Their love is beyond messy, but there is something truly perfect about it as well, reminding us that epic love is never easy, but there is really nothing like it in the world.

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own comments and thoughts about your favorite ships on Buffy the Vampire Slayer.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

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