Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 9: “Yesterday is Yesterday”

Happy Thursday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 9, I learned that it’s important to leave the past in the past, but what happens when the future is uncertain?  Are we able to get through the day or do we find ourselves replaying moments that we can’t change?  While we don’t know what the future holds, it’s important to keep Al’s words in mind:  “Yesterday is yesterday, but today is today and God knows if there’ll be a tomorrow.”  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “People Like Us,” Morgan decides that it is time to return home, now understanding that Rick was right all along.  Meanwhile, Alicia, Victor, and Luciana distract themselves in different ways and June confides in Al about John.  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 9 are:

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“There’s nothing for me anywhere.”

While Alicia handles her grief by isolating herself, Victor and Luciana remain inside the big house they found.  Victor gets through the day by drowning himself in alcohol and Luciana tries to shut off everything around her by losing herself in the music from the record player.  Morgan tries to convince both of them to come to Virginia with him.  While Victor explains that he has had his “fair share” of road trips, Luciana’s response about there being nothing for her anywhere is hopeless and devastating.  Nick’s death has clearly had a huge impact on her, but it’s truly heartbreaking to see her feeling so alone and isolated.  Luciana needs someone to believe in again and maybe it’s the last person in the world you would ever think she would be invested in, but at least Charlie’s act to return the book, “The Little Prince,” got her out of the house.

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“I just want to look him in the eye and tell him he was right.”

During the episode, Morgan recognizes that it’s time to return home and he asks that Al drive him there.  He plans on leaving the next day and he shares that his friend was right all along.  We know that Morgan is referring to Rick, but he had to see it for himself.  Morgan thought that he needed to be away from people, but his experience with the people he met here reminded him that he can still do some good for those around him and make a difference.  It’s great to see Morgan have a change of heart here and it’s important that he came to this epiphany on his own.  Let’s just hope Morgan can get a chance to tell Rick all of this.

3

“Telling her brought me back to the world.”

Charlie is having a tough time in her new circumstances and doesn’t even call out for help when she is almost attacked by a walker.  John Dorie is very concerned about her and tries to talk to her about it in the tank without any pressure.  He understands what it feels like to have something eat away at you, especially guilt and regret.  John explains that he found someone to talk to, meaning June, and says that “telling her brought me back to the world.”  Hopefully Charlie can trust John or find someone else to confide in before it’s too late.  His words do clearly resonate with Charlie, as she risks her life to try and take a step toward forgiveness by returning the book, “The Little Prince,” to Luciana.  While she may never be forgiven completely, it is a step in the right direction.

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“I’m not Laura.”

When Al and June go to investigate things down the river, June requests to talk to Al off the record.  She confides in her about her concerns and fears, worrying that John will soon realize that she’s not “Laura,” the woman he fell in love with.  June feels like she’s a woman who got scared and ran away and is defined by this.  Al admits that she doesn’t really give advice, but tells June that she has been helping John everyday now and “that’s who you are now.” 

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“My mom would have saved him.”

Morgan is very concerned about Alicia who has been staying by the garden, isolating herself from everyone else.  Alicia has been finding notes asking for help pinned to walkers and she distracts herself from the pain and grief swirling around inside of her by focusing on finding this person who needs help.  Morgan agrees to assist her, as they follow the notes like a trail of breadcrumbs to the source.  Morgan tries to caution Alicia about rushing in and the two team up to execute a plan.  When Alicia reaches the man, she is devastated to find out that he has already turned.  Morgan tries to explain that he has been like that for days and that she could not have saved him, but she tells him that her mom would have, which makes this moment truly heartbreaking.  Alicia knows that she has a lot to make up for, but Morgan suggests something simpler like just being there for her friends since they clearly need her.  This moment between Morgan and Alicia is real and honest.  Morgan has felt exactly like Alicia, wanting to run away from everything and stay away from people, but now truly understands that this is not the way.  Let’s hope that they both get a chance to help their friends before it’s too late.  After all, it’s raining walkers and a storm is coming.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 8 Mid-Season Finale: “No One’s Gone”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 8, I learned that we really are all “connected by this single screwed up world,” as Al suggested.  The truth is important and the stories and memories we leave behind are sometimes all we have left to cling to.  We may not always find what we are looking for, but we touch the lives of so many without even realizing it.  Words and actions matter and more importantly, the truth can bring us some much needed comfort, reminding us that it’s never too late to become the person we are meant to be.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “No One’s Gone,” we learn that Madison and Al crossed paths in the past; making a much bigger impact on each other than anyone might have guessed.  Meanwhile, Morgan and Naomi try to make it to the infirmary to help save John Dorie’s life, Alicia shows up to finish things once and for all, and Madison’s fate is finally revealed.  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 8 Mid-Season Finale are:

5

“Thought I’d mix it up today.”

When Al and the others show up at the stadium, the tank is surrounded by an overwhelming amount of walkers, but they are ready to cause a distraction that will allow Morgan and Naomi to get inside to help John.  The plan seems to be working, but Alicia, Victor, and Luciana show up with an RPG, refusing to make this go seamlessly.  Alicia and Al share some choice words over the walkie-talkie, while Al reminds her that she’s now definitely supporting the other side.  It’s great to see Al finally step into the action, as she trusts Charlie to record what goes on, not wanting to lose out on a chance to document their story further.  Alicia and Al get into quite the fight when Alicia shows up at the tank.  Al comes pretty close to being the main course meal for the walkers, but is able to get out of this without a scratch.

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“We’re connected by this single screwed up world.”

During the episode, we flash back to the past before Madison found the stadium and learn that she crossed paths with Al.  While they initially start off not trusting each other, Madison eventually lets her guard down after aimlessly searching for a tape from one of her kids.  Al talks to Madison about the truth and tells her how it can change things.  She empathizes with Madison and explains that even though she didn’t find the story she was looking for, someone might be interested in her story one day.  Madison explains that she broke her promise to her kids and that “you don’t need a camera cus it just sticks.”  She tells a heartwarming story about her kids trying to help a wounded bird and nurse it back to health.  They named the bird “Amina” for short and took care of her, giving her a chance when no one else would.  Madison would open the box each day, fearing what she might find, but was shocked to see the bird flying around in their living room.  Madison was so touched by the actions of her children who refused to give up on this bird that anyone else might have turned their back on.  She explains that there is not a lot of that left in the world now and she never wants her kids to lose that.  When Madison and Al part ways, Al gives her some Ramen noodles and tells her that maybe they will meet again.  Later on, when Madison reunites with her kids at the motel, she reveals to them that someone helped her when they didn’t have to and that “It’s time for us to do the same.”  Her interaction with Al inspires her to build the stadium into a place where others can go to find a sense of belonging, protection, and people who will stand by them.  Madison’s words are absolutely beautiful and remind us that there is still good in the world.  Even though she and Al were strangers, they ended up helping each other, reinforcing the belief that there are still good people existing in this world.

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“June, well that’s my favorite month.”

When Naomi goes into the infirmary with Morgan, John is holding on by a thread.  He asks Charlie to record him, but Al tries to get him to stay positive.  John explains that “it’s for her,” as he speaks openly to Naomi on camera and tells her to stop running and to help Morgan do the same.  Luckily, Naomi is able to stabilize John and it looks like he is going to be OK.  Naomi tells John that her real name is June, finally wanting to tell him something real and meaningful.  John’s reaction is beyond heartwarming when he tells her that June is his favorite month.  June touches John’s hand and the spark between these two is burning brightly again, allowing us John Dorie fans to cheer.  It looks like these two might get the chance they deserve after all, inspiring some hope in this distressing world.  I am absolutely thrilled that John is going to be OK because his character elevates the show, opening up possibilities for a new chapter.

2

“I’m not that person anymore.”

When Alicia is in the tank, she spots the Ramen noodles and demands to know where Al got them.  Everything clicks in her head when she frantically searches through the tapes and finds one titled, “Amina.”  Alicia watches the recording of her mother, Madison, carefully listening to each and every word, displaying her grief across her face.  Alicia still wants to take revenge on Naomi, however; and demands that Al convinces her to come out.  Al strategically leaves on the walkie-talkie to warn Morgan and Naomi.  Morgan offers to go first because he doesn’t want anything to happen to Naomi.  When Alicia comes out, he stands in front of Naomi and she is shocked that is willing to give his life for a stranger.  Alicia’s rage is almost uncontrollable now, as she points the gun at them and screams, “My Mom’s dead because of what you did!”  Morgan doesn’t give up on Alicia and even when she says that she’s not that person anymore, Morgan tries to get her to realize that it’s not too late and that things can change.  Morgan explains that they did for him and they still can for Alicia.  He ultimately gets through to her when he tells her that they already have because he’s not dead.  Alicia breaks down crying and the immediate threat is over, as she finally allows her emotions to break through.  This moment is absolutely heartbreaking, as Alicia shows her own vulnerability.  It’s shocking that she waited this long to cry, but her actions are understandable and I just hope that she can take comfort in knowing how much her family cared about her and how she still has the opportunity to become who she is meant to and to help others in need.

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“It was never about the stadium.  It was about the people.  It was about us.”

Al asks Alicia what happened to her mother, as she made quite an impact on her as well and Alicia replies with, “You want the rest of my Mom’s story?  Pull over.”  All of the pieces finally come together, as we learn about the last moments for everyone in the stadium.  Charlie explains that Mel saved her life and got her out of there in the car.  Naomi reveals that she tried to talk everyone out of leaving, but they had already made up their minds.  She explains that she was then surrounded by walkers and made a run for it, thinking that everyone was already dead.  She was then later picked up by the Vultures, but it’s clear that Naomi was just trying to survive like everyone else.  We learn that Victor got burned when he saved Alicia from running after her mother and then we finally learn the fate of Madison.  Madison recognized that her friends and family were in danger and lured the walkers away from them with a flare, trusting that the walls would hold.  No one else believed her and the other people died trying to escape, but Madison knew that she was right.  Once she saw that her family would be able to get away safely, she tried to make it to the tunnels but was trapped with nowhere to go.  As the walkers surrounded her, Madison threw the flare into the hoard and a bright glow reflected off her face before the explosion hit.  Madison gave up her life so that her family and friends could live.  After the story is recorded, Al labels this one “Madison,” reminding us that her story is never gone.  Madison will live on through her family and her actions will hopefully inspire them to continue to try and do the right thing.  We will need to wait until August 2018 for new episodes, but we have now lost two main characters and I’m interested to see where we are going now.  While we know that new threats are always right around the corner, it will be interesting to see how the dynamic of the show shifts now that we are focusing on different characters and story-lines.  I’m absolutely open to the change, but I will miss Madison, as Kim Dickens did a phenomenal job as the main protagonist on the show.  RIP Madison.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

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Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 7: “Cause I’m a Chick with Layers”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 7, I learned that it’s pretty much impossible to stay on the sidelines for too long, especially when walkers are involved.  While we may have too much pride or feel an obligation to our family and loved ones, sometimes we need to learn when to let go and choose a side.  It might not always be the right decision, but it could be the determining factor of our survival.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “The Wrong Side of Where You Are Now,” Naomi and Morgan desperately try to save John Dorie’s life, Charlie tries to say she’s sorry, and Al realizes that she cannot hide behind her camera forever.  Meanwhile, we learn more about the moments leading up to the fate of the stadium, as Madison is conflicted over what to do next.  But will her pride ultimately lead to the death of the people she tried so desperately to protect?  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 7 are:

5

“Why did you save me?”

In the beginning of the episode, Morgan and Naomi try to keep John stable, recognizing that they need to get some medical supplies to give him a chance.  Everyone begins opening fire on each other and Morgan notices Charlie out in the open, who is trying to get to Mel.  Morgan tries to tell her that he is gone and instructs her to come with him.  Morgan is always trying to do what is right and recognizes that he needs to protect her.  Charlie asks Morgan why he saves her, especially since he knows what she did to Nick and Morgan simply replies with, “Because this has to stop some place.”  Again, Morgan is the voice of reason, but he is being drowned out by the deafening chaos surrounding them.  You would think that everyone would want to put their differences aside and focus on surviving, but people end up becoming even more dangerous threats to each other than the dead walking among them.  Charlie clearly feels remorse over what she has done and tries to explain that what happened was her fault.  While Charlie is far from innocent, her confusion is understandable.  Her parents died which was traumatizing enough and she has been living in a very different world, clinging to the only person who has been there for her, Mel.  I’m not sure if we can ever really trust Charlie again, as that familiar saying, “fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me,” comes to mind.  However, she is a child and has been burdened with way too much at such a young age.  Either way, she understands regret and feels responsibility for what happened, which proves that she is not a lost cause just yet.

4

“You know what, it doesn’t matter.”

After Alicia attempts to take out Mel in his truck, he climbs out of it severely injured, barely able to move or talk.  Alicia slowly walks up to him, clutching her gun and asks Mel, “How long was she with you?”  While we don’t know exactly who “she” is, we can only assume she means Naomi, but is it possible that she may be referring to her mother, Madison?  Either way, Alicia doesn’t give much time for Mel to come up with an answer, as she tells him it doesn’t matter and swiftly stabs Mel in the head, ending his life.  There is no remorse in Alicia’s eyes here, who has allowed her quest for vengeance to take over.  This can be extremely dangerous, as Alicia seems to turn off her sense of right and wrong.  Alicia has tried to do the right thing in the past and even went out with Nick to help save Mel’s life, but now realizes that she unleashed a monster in the process.  While I’m not sure that Alicia should be judge, jury, and executioner, her grief has clearly escalated to an entirely new level, as she turns off her emotions to take out anyone who gets in her way.

3

“Stay with me.”

After John is shot, Naomi tries to do everything possible to save him.  Morgan lets her know that he is his friend and helps as much as he can.  After Mel drives away in the truck, the medical supplies go with him, and her only option is to get to the infirmary at the stadium.  Morgan tells Naomi that John never gave up on her and was looking for her since the moment she left.  In a heartwarming moment, Naomi finds the scrabble pieces that John kept with him, bringing tears to her eyes and mine as well.  It’s absolutely apparent how much Naomi still loves John and she does not want to lose him.  While we are unsure if John will be able to survive, Naomi is ready to do whatever is necessary to try and save him.  I am desperately hoping that she will be able to do so, as I am not ready to close the book on their love story just yet.  After all, doesn’t someone deserve a happy ending here?

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“You’re holding on to something that’s gone.”

When we flash back to the past, we see that Madison and the others find Mel and agree to help save him after Charlie asks them to.  While Charlie has burned them in the past, Madison still wants to do what is right and allows Naomi to take care of him.  Mel tries to make a deal with Naomi, recognizing that she is new to the group and gives her something to really consider.  He even tries to tell Madison about Ennis’s plan, but Madison doesn’t want to give in.  Madison is holding on to her pride and her promise to her children.  It’s clear that she has worked extremely hard on making this stadium into a home for them, but it doesn’t seem like this home will last for long.  Madison doesn’t want to admit defeat and suggests that they begin building up the walls surrounding the stadium.  Victor and the others agree to help, not wanting to go against their leader, but it’s clear that not everyone is convinced that this is necessarily the best plan.  Naomi tries to get Madison to see reason as well, but to no avail.  She ultimately sides with Madison and says that she will get the infirmary ready.  Ennis unleashes an overwhelming amount of walkers upon the stadium covered in oil.  Madison prepares to try to get to Nick and Alicia, who are in the truck outside the gates and sees the flames, glowing with intensity.  Later, when Al drives up to the stadium, we see that the Ice Cream Truck has been sitting there for some time, abandoned and burned up, but we still do not know the fate of Madison.  I’m still hopeful that she was able to make it out alive, but we will need to wait and see.  We are also still unsure on what convinced Naomi to join the Vultures, especially since she was still helping Madison in the end.

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“I think I know who you are.  I think I’ve seen it.”

In the beginning of the episode, Al is still recording everything on her camera.  Morgan tries to snap her out of this, but she says that this story isn’t hers.  He reminds her that John’s story is about to end and that a good man will die if she continues to hide and she ultimately makes the right decision and gets involved.  Al pulls up in the tank and Alicia temporarily stands down.  Al agrees to take them to the stadium and Morgan tells her that he thinks he knows who she is.  Al says that she is “a chick with layers,” and drives straight into the stadium, proving just how strong and fearless she is.  However, the stadium is completely infested with walkers who immediately surround the tank.  It doesn’t look like it will be easy to get to the infirmary, if it’s even still standing at this point.  Al and the others are faced with a new obstacle, but will they be able to make it out alive?  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 6: “Just in Case”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 6, I learned that it’s always a smart idea to have a contingency plan in place…just in case.  While you may never need to use it, being prepared is never a bad idea.  After all, having a plan is better than no plan at all.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “Just in Case,” John Dorie is desperate to find out what happened to his Laura/Naomi, Victor asks Madison an important question, and Alicia’s rash decision may have irreversible consequences.  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 6 are:

5

“I want answers.”

In the beginning of the episode, John Dorie and Morgan stop a man associated with the Vultures and John is not messing around.  Both of his guns are out and he means business.  He demands answers and when the man makes the mistake of reaching for his gun, he shoots off his fingers.  John is still clearly grieving over the news that his love, Laura is gone and wants to know what happened to her.  In a revealing moment, he explains to Morgan that he just wants to know that she didn’t suffer, which allows us to fall in love with John Dorie all over again.  His good heart has been broken and while the pieces may never come back together, he still wants to do right by her and protect her memory.

4

“Cause I know who you are.  That and I really like drinking with you.”

We flash to the past and Victor’s guilt has been slowly eating away at him, as he knows he lied to Madison and feels like he is not worthy.  Madison and Victor sit down to have a drink together away from everyone and Victor takes this moment to ask her why she saved him, especially after what he did.  He tells her that she had plenty of opportunities to walk away, but Madison always stayed by his side, refusing to give up on him.  Madison’s answer is real and to the point, reminding us why she is such a great leader and mother.  Madison makes the hard decisions, but she puts everyone else before herself, which can sometimes make her vulnerable.  Her compassion and love for others keep her going, however; and she always believes in the potential of goodness, even when it may seem like someone is too far gone.

3

“Well lucky for you I’m not you.”

After Naomi tries to run yet again, Madison and Victor agree to accompany her to an old FEMA building.  Naomi is still keeping her guard up and tries to do this on her own, but Madison and Victor do not take no for an answer.  Victor thinks that Naomi is a coward, but Madison still tries to see the good in her.  It’s clear that Victor doesn’t trust Naomi, but it seems like a lot of his anger is directed more toward his own actions.  He later tells Madison about his contingency plan, unable to lie to her anymore.  He tells her that not everyone can be saved and that people don’t change, but once again Madison teaches him a lesson about forgiveness.  Madison couldn’t leave Victor to drown and perhaps he needs her just as much as she needs him.

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“Her name was Rose.”

Victor and Madison save Naomi after she is surrounded by walkers.  She tells them about the “just in case” plans she learned about here and breaks down sobbing.  While we know Naomi lost a child from her previous conversation with John Dorie, we now get the whole story.  Naomi’s daughter was named Rose and she became very ill with pneumonia.  Naomi rushed off to find her medicine and was actually able to retrieve what she needed, but it was too late.  Rose died and turned and when Naomi returned, all of the people who had taught her so much were turned too.  Naomi feels responsible for all of this and explains that she cannot run anymore.  While it’s difficult for her to face this, the guilt is too much to handle alone.  Everyone has the chance to start over, but sometimes you need to return to the past in order to move forward.  Naomi may not have closure, but she is finally able to open up her old wounds and breathe.  Madison later speaks to Alicia and tells her to bury the guns and supplies by the motel, making a contingency plan of her very own.  Perhaps all of this has taught Madison a valuable lesson as well.  While the Vultures leave after they return with supplies, Madison has learned that you can never been too careful…just in case.

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“What you’re doing is only going to make things worse.”

Back in present day, perhaps everyone should just take a moment to pause and listen to Morgan Jones.  He is the voice of reason here, but everyone is on edge, refusing to abandon their quest for vengeance.  Morgan tried to keep the Vultures away, but they show up anyway.  After Mel makes a comment about being sorry about Alicia’s brother, her vengeance turns to pure rage when she tells him that she’s not sorry about his brother.  Alicia has not gotten a chance to really process what has happened to Nick and is running on pure anger.  She is not thinking rationally and is unable to make the decisions that are best for the group.  It is revealed that Naomi is alive and now with the Vultures, which I can’t say is that surprising.  However, when John Dorie sees her and whispers, “Laura,” his hope is temporarily restored.  Naomi is just as surprised to see John, but doesn’t get a chance for a happy reunion.  Alicia is beyond upset to see Naomi and can no longer channel her rage.  She turns the gun on her, but John steps in the way and is shot.  While we don’t know the fate of John just yet, the shot looks fatal.  Just when John finally gets to see the love of his life again, a cruel fate steps in their way and may separate them forever.  While one cannot be angry at Alicia, who is clearly grieving over the loss of her brother, this unfortunate accident cannot be reversed.  At this point I have so many questions.  Is John really dead?  Why did Naomi join the Vultures?  Where is our Madison?   We will need to wait 2 weeks for a new episode, but I have to say that John Dorie has become my absolute favorite character in only a few episodes and I will be absolutely heartbroken if he is truly dead.  His story was so real and relevant and I am hoping that he can be saved somehow.  Naomi does have medical training, but I’m not sure that will be enough.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Thanks for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 5: “Let’s Not Waste Another Second”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 5, I learned that repeating the same routine over and over can slowly kill you.  You may not realize it right away, but it will eat away at you, stirring the loneliness within.  We all need purpose and meaning in our lives and that’s exactly what John Dorie gets when he finds his “Laura” wash up on shore.  Quiet nights of playing Scrabble and watching old movies transform into real and true moments, building a relationship and a love for someone else that make the loneliness fade away.  But what happens when that person leaves?  Will that feeling ever return or will we spend our lives trying to hold on to it while we close ourselves off to the rest of the world?   Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “Laura,” John Dorie opens up to Morgan and we get a much needed glimpse into his past with Naomi, otherwise known as “Laura.”  The episode has a calming quiet about it, as we invest ourselves into John’s life and truly empathize with him after Laura leaves, giving us a better understanding of this new character.  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 5 are:

5

Rinse and Repeat.

In the beginning of the episode, we get a glimpse into John Dorie’s past and spend each lonely day with him.  Every morning he wakes up to his singing fish alarm clock and sighs in bed, anticipating that there will not be much different from the day before.  He makes himself some breakfast and sits out on his porch, taking in the view of the river and the beautiful landscape surrounding his home.  Every now and then a walker washes up on shore and John eliminates the threat, as if he were handling a common pest problem.  The day leads up to a solitary game of Scrabble and a re-watch of an old movie with some popcorn.  While John is clearly living the simple life, the monotony and repetition doesn’t leave much to look forward to.  Everything changes, however; when John finds a woman who washes up on shore.  We immediately see that it is Naomi and she is badly injured.  John doesn’t hesitate to bring her into his home and to save her life, letting down his guard in the process.

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“You look like a Laura.”

After John helps Laura with her wound, he can tell that she is hesitant about revealing too much to a stranger.  He is the perfect gentlemen and offers to sleep on the couch and decides to call her “Laura” until she is comfortable with telling him her real name.  He strikes up a conversation about soup and admits to her that “it’s been a while since I had company.”  It’s clear from the moment that John meets Laura that there is a spark between these two.  John tends to wear his heart on his sleeve while Laura has her guard up.  She initially goes through John’s place and tries to take off in his car, but he calmly tells her that all she needs to do is ask, revealing his good nature and open heart.  Laura is still on edge with John, but seems to be warming up to him, slowly letting her guard down now as well.

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John teaches Laura how to fish.

After going on a run to the local store, Laura asks John to teach her how to fish, recognizing the importance of knowing how to utilize the resources of the river.  The two go out every day and are getting closer and closer.  John reveals to Laura that “Tuesday is movie night” and she even starts to watch some films with him and play Scrabble, keeping him company and making the days that much more fulfilling.  Laura agrees to help John push a car in front of the opening to the river to help keep the walkers away from his property, but is shocked when John refuses to pull a gun on the walker that gets into the car.  It’s clear that John is haunted by something in his past, but is not ready to deal with it just yet.

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“Doesn’t matter how many people tell you it’s not your fault.  It only matters if you believe it.”

Laura reveals to John that she lost a child and bursts into tears.  John gives her space but it is the first real time we see Laura truly opening up to John.  She is not the only one who needs to get something off her chest, however; as John tells her the story about him being a cop and firing his gun at a robber accidentally.  He tells her that it was an “intentional mistake” and was horrified when people referred to him as a hero.  In this moment, it’s clear how much these two truly need each other.  They have both been carrying around this guilt, unable to shake it.  While Laura runs away from her guilt at every chance she gets, John stays hidden away from people.  In this moment, they stop running and they stop hiding, as their worlds collide and they take some comfort in knowing that they can share their pain with the other.  While John is ready to stop hiding, it seems that Laura has not been able to completely face her demons just yet.

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“You may not think you’re a hero but I do.”

Although this episode is filled with an unnatural quiet, the walkers finally get through the car and make their way to John’s home.  Laura and John are surrounded, as they desperately try to hold off the walkers.  When Laura falls into a ditch, John has no other choice and fires off both of his guns, showing off some impressive shooting.  He saves Laura and he tells her that he loves her.  He gives her the other gun because he wants her to be safe and because he is afraid of what will happen if he keeps it.  When John reveals his love he explains that he didn’t want her to know because he knows deep down that she is just going to leave.  In a heartbreaking moment, John tells her “you’re alive.  This whole world feels alive,” revealing the hope that Laura has given him.  Laura does end up leaving, but leaves behind a message with Scrabble letters:  I love you too.  I’m sorry.  While Laura clearly does love John, she is still running from her past and is unable to slow down for even a moment.  After this scene, we come back to present day where John is sitting with Morgan.  He breaks down and wonders what would have happened if he didn’t tell her he loved her right away and that perhaps she would still be alive.  Morgan consoles him and says “waiting…that’s how you lose people.”  He reminds John that they are part of the world and that they have a real chance to make a difference with Alicia, Victor, and Luciana.  Like John, Morgan has been running away from his own inner demons, but now consciously makes the decision to stand by someone and to do something.  Real connections are what keep us going and even though Laura may be gone, the love John has for her is something transcendent.  Laura reminded John what it was like to truly be alive again and by sharing this story with Morgan, he does the same thing for him.  We may not seek out connections with other people, but sometimes they show up unexpectedly at our doorstep and it’s up to us to decide what happens next.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 4: “How Did You End Up Here?”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 4, I learned that some of us are born to run, but are we able to do so when we need to?  When it comes to survival, there has to be something more to live for than just food, as Nick explained.  Surviving becomes the everyday routine, but living is the hard part.  Living with guilt, living with emptiness, and living with the growing feeling inside you that you may never connect with the one you love again.  That’s the hard part.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In Sunday’s episode, “Buried,” Al asks a big question and is in for an emotional roller coaster ride, as Victor, Alicia, and Luciana talk about why one day was so important.  Meanwhile, Morgan tells John that he plans to leave once Nick is buried and John discovers a painful truth of his own.   My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 4 are:

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“How did you end up here? That’s a big question.  Sometimes those are the easiest ones to answer.”

In the beginning of the episode, Al sets everything in motion when she asks the big question to Victor, Alicia, and Luciana.  We get to hear about one day in particular that changed everything for each character, which lets us into their hearts and minds for just a little while.  Luciana remembers heading off to the library with Nick when everyone went out looking for supplies.  Luciana tried to get Nick to stay on track and focus on finding food, but he reminded her that “people need a reason to stick around and it can’t all be about food.”  Nick’s eyes lit up at the idea of starting a library at the stadium.  Even though it seemed like he mostly wanted to do this for Charlie, his words have a lot of truth behind them.  Luciana talks about a book of maps and navigation that they came across.  They decided to flip to any page randomly and that would decide their fate and where they head to next.  Luciana gravely says, “I should have never opened that book.”  The book opened to somewhere north, but Nick realized that the book took them to somewhere much farther than on those maps.  It’s what sparked the idea to find seeds and fertilizer to replant and build up the stadium.  Luciana breaks down into tears when she talks about this.  Nick’s focus on re-growth seemed like a wonderful sentiment, but it is brutally destroyed when we remember that Nick is dead now at the hand of Charlie.  However, that doesn’t mean that he wasn’t right all along about needing something more.

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“You’re either with us trying to keep this going or you’re not.”

When Al gets to Alicia, she remembers that very same day and talks about going out to the abandoned water park with Naomi to find supplies.  Naomi was the newest member to their group and Alicia was putting a lot of trust in her when they set out together.  Going on the run brought them closer, but that can be a dangerous thing.  After barely escaping a gruesome death on the slip n’ slide filled with walkers, they came across a stash of medical supplies which made the trip worth it.  Naomi told Alicia to keep a look out and grabbed the supplies, taking off for the truck.  However, she doesn’t make it very far when she realized there was no gas in the tank.  Alicia remained calm when she approached the truck and shared a little about how she went off on her own for a while and that she soon discovered it was not where she really wanted to be.  She offered to get Naomi gas and told her that perhaps she will come to the same conclusion.  Alicia’s willingness to let Naomi go showed her that she truly understood the need to run, but she’s been down that path before and she won’t leave her mother, Madison again.  Naomi ultimately came around and returned to the stadium with Alicia.  They explained that they were going to set up an infirmary but Naomi warned Madison that “things are going to get worse before they get better.”  She’s certainly right about that, but no one could imagine to what extent.

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“You want to get to know me.  This is me.”

For me, Victor’s disclosure of that day is the most resonating.  Victor carried his past around him and tried to cling to the good man he was been trying to be.  However, we know that it is no easy task to move forward without looking back from time to time.  Victor had a car filled with supplies that he had been keeping hidden from everyone.  His initial plan was to run away and survive as long as he could, but he had second thoughts.  Victor spotted the “Vermont’s finest” bottle that he was saving to celebrate with Alicia and said, “I got a little reminder of what I stood to lose.”  Victor brought back the truck with supplies to Madison but didn’t tell her the truth.  Even though Victor had always done what he needed to do, he found himself staying with Madison to do the right thing, even if will not work out in the end.  Victor had finally become the good man he had been trying to be for so long but at what cost?

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“I should have convinced Madison to leave.  I should have kept the car secret.  We should have flipped to another page.”

While each character’s story about that day is emotional and sympathetic, this moment intertwines all three of them and reminds us that the day all results in the same outcome.  Nick is dead and the guilt is all too real and heartbreaking.  They all wanted to believe or stay or become a better person, but this had a consequence that can never be reversed.  While we all find ourselves replaying moments in our lives, regret and grief is something that we unfortunately need to experience along the way.  It can change us forever if we let it or it can remind us to hold on to the connections around us.  For now, it looks like Victor, Alicia, and Luciana are ready to turn to vengeance, but is it truly the right call?

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“The answers only matter if they’re the truth.”

The van pulls over and Morgan is surprised that they want to bury Nick in some random spot off the road.  However, he quickly realizes that Victor, Alicia, and Luciana have another agenda, as they dig up weapons and supplies, ready to take on the Vultures.  Morgan reminds them about the importance of burying Nick and suggests that they bury him by a tree since he liked to grow things so much.  In a beautiful moment, Morgan places the blue bonnet flower over his grave, symbolizing that something good can still live on in a world filled with chaos and emptiness.  While everyone argues about whether or not to go after the Vultures, John Dorie comes across Naomi’s pack and recognizes the gun he described in the season premiere episode.  It belongs to his love; Laura who we discover is actually named Naomi.  Alicia reveals that she is dead and John is distraught, as the hope that has been keeping him going for so long finally breaks.  Al promises to find out what happened to her and goes off with Victor, Alicia, and Luciana, while Morgan stays behind with John.  John tells Morgan that he was right about being better on your own, which is perhaps the most heartbreaking moment of all.  John tried to see the good in everything around him, but his belief has been harshly shattered.  Based on the preview from next week’s episode, it looks like we will get to learn quite a bit about John and Naomi’s time together, but there is another question that is much more pertinent.  If Naomi is dead and the stadium is gone, where is Madison?  I am desperately hoping that she is alive, but our favorite characters are dropping like flies.  We’ll have to stay tuned to find out!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on Fear the Walking Dead in the comments section below.  Happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

 

Ranking the top 5 moments from “Fear the Walking Dead” season 4 episode 1: “Tell Me One Real Thing”

Happy Wednesday TV fans!  I have to admit that Sunday television has got me playing catch-up, as some of my favorite shows happen to all air at once.   After watching AMC’s The Walking Dead season finale, I had some mixed feelings, but there was a lot to wrap my head around.  I finally got the chance to watch the season 4 premiere of AMC’s Fear the Walking Dead last night, however; and I have to say that the crossover event was a success to me.  Although it had almost an eerie sense of quiet compared to the deafening chaos in The Walking Dead, it was something that truly resonated with me, as I found myself lost within the story and truly sympathizing with Morgan Jones.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “What’s Your Story?” many of our fan-favorites from The Walking Dead show up and try to get Morgan to change his mind about leaving.  However, Morgan feels that he needs to be alone and heads out on his own.  This is short-lived however; when he crosses paths with a man in a cowboy hat named John Dorie and a female journalist named Al.  My top 5 moments from Fear the Walking Dead season 4 episode 1 are:

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“You can hide but you can’t run.”

When the season premiere begins, we focus in on Morgan who is still in the junkyard, closed off from society.  This is interrupted over and over, however; when Jesus, Carol, and Rick all show up, desperately trying to get Morgan to change his mind about leaving.  Morgan sticks to his decision and explains that he needs to be alone.  Morgan has been struggling with inner-demons and is searching for a way to overcome this.  He knows that he is a danger to those around him if he stays, but will he lose himself completely if he goes off on his own?  His friends remind him that he cares about people and should be with them, but Morgan remains strong with his decision and steps out onto an open road, leaving his past behind him.  We know that Rick’s words, “you can hide but you can’t run,” will catch up to him all too quickly, but Morgan continues on his journey all the same.

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Meet John Dorie.

That’s Dory like the fish, but spelled with an “ie.”  This new character is not from the comic series and is played by Deadwood star, Garret Dillahunt.  The stranger in a cowboy hat proves to be quite the “gunslinger,” but seems to have a good heart and a strong sense of doing what’s right.  He offers Morgan shelter and when Morgan takes off and gets into trouble, John Dorie is not far behind, proving that he can be a worthy ally.  John Dorie shares his own story that he is searching for his wife who has his matching gun, which is heart-breaking and commendable at the same time.  He refuses to give up hope and he seems to remind Morgan that human connections are all they have to cling to in this harsh reality filled with death and decay.  The “karate man” and “gunslinger” prove to be quite the team, but will Morgan be able to truly open up after all he has been through?

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Meet Al.

Shortly after the introduction of new character, John Dorie, we also meet Al who is a journalist played by the beautiful and talented, Maggie Grace.  As a huge fan of Lost, I was more than pleased to see Maggie Grace step into a new and different role.  Her hair is cut boy-short and she packs quite the punch with her van filled with handy weapons, but what sparked my interest the most is that she is out to discover everyone’s story.  Morgan gently reminds her that there are no more news stations around and why does it matter, but Al’s need to continue the story anyway proves that she hasn’t given up hope either.  She keeps her camera with her and documents everything she can, looking for something real to connect to.

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“Tell me one real thing.”

After Morgan, John, and Al survive the attack from the armed men and walkers, Morgan is finally ready to open up, even if it is for just a moment.  Al records him and asks him to tell her one real thing and explain why he left Virginia.  Morgan explains, “I lose people and then I lose myself,” which touched my heart instantly.  It’s hard not to feel sympathetic toward Morgan and understand his need to run away.  Even though he was part of many settlements before, he still chooses to be on his own, desperately trying to hold on to his humanity.  Perhaps being around people again will remind Morgan that he has the chance to truly do something great and make a difference.

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“So what the hell’s your story?”

At the end of the episode, the three characters come across a woman who is sobbing in the middle of the road.  They cautiously approach the woman, not knowing what to expect, but offer to help her.  The woman is revealed to be Alicia who turns a gun on them and Nick, Luciana, and Victor appear as well to surround them.  The crossover has officially well…crossed over and these characters are now all connected whether they want to be or not.  While we are unclear on how Alicia, Nick, Luciana, and Victor all ended up together, since it seemed like everyone was separated at the end of last season, we have plenty of episodes to find out what they are up to and how they got here.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and comments on Fear the Walking Dead below.  Thanks for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

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