My performance of the week ending 11/16/19 on TV goes to…

Jensen Ackles as Dean Winchester on The CW’s Supernatural. 

Usually, Sam is the one who brings me to tears, but I have to say that I was beyond impressed with Jensen Ackles’s performance in season 15 episode 5.  It really made me think about how far Dean has come as a character, as I started to come to terms with the fact that we are nearing the end of his journey.

For me, Dean has always been the charming one to bring us some much needed comic relief to break up some of the angst and tension we often see throughout the seasons.  Dean has certainly had some truly epic and emotional moments as well, but there was something so real and moving about his conversation with Ashley in season 15 episode 5.

Please note spoilers are ahead if you are not up-to-date on the series.

During Dean’s talk with Ashley, he takes a moment to self reflect, especially after Ashley wonders if they might be better off with a set route for their lives.  We have previously seen Dean struggle with this, wondering if they are all just Chuck’s puppets, but in this moment, he actually finally realizes that his life is so much more than that.

Dean talks about how much he loves his job and says that he enjoys helping people and that’s the point.  It’s about all the small moments and it’s not supposed to be easy.  It may not be possible for Dean to save everyone, but every action counts and he recognizes that here.

Even though we later find out that Ashley is actually Lilith, it still doesn’t erase the honest and reflective moment here for Dean.  I’ve been watching his character grow for 15 seasons and this was the first time I truly stopped to both smile and cry at his words.  Maybe it’s because I know we are approaching the end or maybe it is because I was so proud of Dean for finally realizing that his actions do matter.

What’s next for Dean?  We’ll have to wait and see, but it looks like he is ready to find some impossible way to stop Chuck/God.  I can’t ignore Sam’s dreams or visions and I’m wondering if one brother will truly have to take down the other?  This isn’t the first time we have seen a plot like this on SPN, but since we are in the last season, all bets are off.

I don’t want us to lose Dean, but he is no stranger to sacrifice and he would do anything to protect Sam.

Either way, I’m excited to see some more adventures for the Winchester brothers and I’m hoping that there is some way for Dean to make it out of this OK.  I sort of just want him to be able to take on the open road at the end of the series, riding off into the sunset, but nothing is ever that easy on SPN.

Stay tuned for a recognized performance on TV each week!

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 5 episode 1 season premiere: “So What Happens Now?”

Happy Sunday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair season 5 premiere, it seems like a lot has changed since we last checked in.  Time jumps are present, which may seem jarring and unfamiliar at first, but the opening to the final season of the show does a fantastic job of tugging at all of your emotions while making you cry your eyes out, but that’s part of its addictive and melodramatic charm.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  

In tonight’s episode, “501,” it looks like Noah’s book may be turned into a movie, bringing up some interesting questions for him.  Meanwhile, Helen attempts to cope with Vic’s deteriorating health and we time jump into the future to follow Alison and Cole’s adult daughter, Joanie.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 5 episode 1 season premiere are:

5

“Why does Daniel leave his wife?”

Part one of the episode follows Noah and he is meeting with some kind of movie producer who is interested in his book.  The movie producer seems fascinated with the character based on Helen and brings up some questions of self reflection for Noah, asking him why the character left his wife.  Noah tries to explain that it is not really an easy answer and the movie producer seems to have an addiction for toxic relationships himself, but perhaps Noah needs to revisit his characters again so he doesn’t make the same mistakes in the present.

4

“You’re supposed to be on my side.”

After Vic was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in season 4, we now discover that he has tragically passed and Noah attends the funeral with Janelle.  Helen is doing her best to keep everything together, but she has to deal with Vic’s overbearing parents as well, who refuse to honor Vic’s final wishes for burial.  Helen has an outburst and rightfully so, which brings Noah into the mix.

While it seems like Noah has good intentions here, I’m not sure that Helen is ready to deal with him right now.  Noah is still somewhat of an outsider to his own family, discovering that Whitney is getting married through Vic’s recording, rather than hearing it from his own daughter.  Is it possible for him to finally make amends or will he simply accept his current circumstances?

3

“She’s a keeper.”

I was super excited to see that Janelle is still on the show, played brilliantly by Sanaa Lathan, but it doesn’t even seem like Noah notices her half the time.  Noah is clearly distracted by what is going on with Helen, but he has a strong, intelligent, and loyal woman right next to him.  Will Noah ever truly be satisfied or will he continue to chase after the unattainable?

I’m really hoping that he makes some kind of real decision in the final season, as I’m not sure that we have really seen too much growth for his character.  After everything he has been through, he is still ignoring the beautiful woman standing by his side to dive back into the drama and misery of what could have been.

2

“This is the age my mother died…”

Part two time jumps into the future, as we catch up with Joanie, played by True Blood’s Anna Paquin.  I have to say that I am impressed with that casting, as I could totally see her as Alison and Cole’s daughter and she is already channeling so much angst that we came to identify with Alison’s character.

So far we don’t know too much.  Joanie says that she misses her dad and is taking medication for her anxiety.  She has a husband and two daughters, but she fears that one of her daughters senses that she is adopted.  Joanie is also turning the same age Alison was when she died, which is clearly bringing up a lot of past issues for her. 

Based on the previews for the upcoming episodes, it looks like Joanie plans on following up on how Alison died and even decides to try and track down Ben Cruz, who we know is responsible for her mother’s death.  Will Joanie’s quest lead to answers or is she destined to follow her mother’s tragic fate?  I’m not sure, but I am very invested in this story-line.  Since we do not have Alison or Cole on the show any longer, Joanie is our last tie to this connection that I fell in love with so many seasons ago and I’m hoping everything can come full circle to bring us some justice for Alison.

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“I had to be resilient.”

Part three of the episode is from Helen’s perspective.  We witness the moments leading up to Vic’s death and the birth of his child.  I’ve gone back and forth with my feelings on Helen as a character and I really started to genuinely like her in season 4.  In the season 5 premiere, Helen has finally reached her true moment in the spotlight.  In season 4, Joshua Jackson and Ruth Wilson had fantastic performances that still touch my mind, body, and soul, but Maura Tierney just stepped up to the plate.

She had me crying my eyes out with every single moment from her perspective.  Even though Helen is known for speaking her mind, those moments of silence, where you could just see the reality striking her felt so incredibly real and heartbreaking.  I was incredibly impressed by this performance and I can’t wait to see what happens next with Helen’s character.

Overall, I thought that the season premiere had a lot of promise and it will be interesting to see how it all ends.  Noah discussed the ending of his book in the beginning of the episode and I thought this was a clever way to remind the audience that perhaps the end of one of our favorite series will leave us with something unexpected as well.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The Affair below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

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Ranking the top 5 moments from “Supernatural” season 14 episode 7: “It’s Time Together that Matters”

Happy Friday TV fans!  After watching the CW’s Supernatural season 14 episode 7, I realized that it’s not the big moments that count the most.  It’s the memories we have and the “time together that matters,” as Jack so eloquently pointed out.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch yet.  In last night’s episode, “Unhuman Behavior,” Jack’s health takes a turn for the worse, as Sam, Dean, and Castiel desperately try to figure out a way to save him.  Meanwhile, Nick continues to head down a path of darkness, revealing his inner true nature.  My top 5 moments from Supernatural season 14 episode 7 are:

5

“He was stabbed through the heart and exploded.”

Even though this episode was an emotional roller coaster for me, Castiel provided us with a laugh out loud moment to break the tension.  After Castiel determines that he cannot help Jack, he takes him to the hospital and everyone is beyond stressed about the situation.  After Dean has trouble coming up with details about Jack’s birth date, the family medical history seems like it could be handled, especially since we know that Jack’s biological father, Lucifer, is dead.  However, Castiel bluntly tells the woman at the hospital exactly how Lucifer died, which leads to some strange looks from her and Sam and Dean.

4

“His body is shutting down.”

After Jack’s hospital tests come back negative, this seems like a good sign, but the doctor explains that Jack’s body is actually shutting down and they can’t figure out why.  It is later determined that Jack needs archangel grace to survive, but it’s not like this is easy to find anymore.  Against the doctor’s recommendation, Sam and Dean take Jack out of the hospital and refuse to give up.  They are ready to use all of their resources to help him.  While they begin discussing what Jack needs, Dean repeatedly zones out during the conversation.  Does this mean that Michael is somehow still linked to Dean?  Could this be the key to helping Jack?  We’ll have to wait to find out, but there is definitely something not quite right with Dean.

3

“Is this a trick Samuel?”

Our favorite witch is back!  After realizing that they cannot help Jack, Sam calls up Rowena.  Rowena initially thinks she is there to help Dean, but quickly learns that Sam wants her to help Jack.  Rowena is not exactly thrilled about this at first since she does not have the best history with Lucifer, but Jack approaches Rowena and explains, “I’m trying hard not to be like him.”  He tells Rowena that Sam and Dean say such nice things about her as well, revealing his innocent charm.  Rowena agrees to try and help Jack, but quickly realizes that she is in over her head.

2

“I like doing these things and I don’t want to stop.”

We finally catch up to Nick in this episode and learn that he is continuing to spiral out of control.  Nick is obsessed with finding out what happened to his family, but his journey is leading him down a very dark path.  Nick seems overwhelmed by all of these feelings, but the darkness continues to win, as he brutally murders anyone he determines to be guilty.  The ex-cop reveals to Nick something about the name, Abraxas, which seems familiar to his Lucifer memories, but we don’t have too much to go on here just yet.  Later on, Nick begins to pray and reveals that he actually likes tapping into the darkness and begs Lucifer to return to him.  Nick has clearly stirred something up inside of him, but is it enough for Lucifer to re-surface?  I’m thinking that it’s only a matter of time before he makes himself known.

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“It’s time together that matters.”

Jack has accepted his fate, even though his “Dads” refuse to give up.  Jack just wants to have a chance to really experience life and Dean agrees to accompany him.  Dean teaches Jack to drive and hilariously reminds him that, “R is not for race.”  Jack really tries to be like Dean here, which is absolutely adorable and even screams out, “It’s like I’m you!”  This is definitely a heartwarming father-son moment and it looks like Dean needed this just as much as Jack did.  Later on, Jack expresses a desire to go fishing with Dean and tells him that he remembers that it is one of Dean’s fondest memories with his own father.  Jack opens up to Dean here and really gives us all an important lesson about life when he explains that it’s about the time together that truly matters.  After the Serbian Shaman’s “experiment” fails, Jack is in even worse condition and Sam, Dean, and Castiel are completely helpless.  They stay by Jack’s side to support him, but is there any other way to save him?  Let’s hope so because I can’t bear to see Jack go.  He has made such an impact on everyone and they truly think of him as a son.  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own thoughts and theories on Supernatural in the comments section below.  Happy viewing!

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