Ranking the top 5 moments from “The Affair” season 4 episode 4: “You Amaze Me”

Happy Monday TV fans!  After watching Showtime’s The Affair last night, I learned that it’s sometimes difficult to discover what we truly want in life.  We may think we know, but our actions tell another story.  Even though we may want to dive right into a solution, it may not reflect the inner desires of our heart.  Sometimes the best thing we can do is to walk away and to free our hearts and minds to finally discover what truly matters.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the latest episode yet.  In last night’s episode, “404,” Alison and Ben meet again at a conference and get even closer.  Meanwhile, Cole and Luisa continue to argue and Cole seeks out some advice from his mother, Cherry.  My top 5 moments from The Affair season 4 episode 4 are:

5

“Because you know I thought she was my daughter.”

Part one of the episode opens up with Alison and we finally get to see some interaction between her and Noah.  Alison and Joanie are Skyping with Noah and Noah tells Alison that she looks good.  It looks like everyone is noticing Alison’s transformation, as she is much more together now than she has ever been.  Noah offers to buy her and Joanie plane tickets so that they can come and visit him in California and reminds Alison that he does miss Joanie.  Noah spent the first two years of Joanie’s life thinking he was her father and it’s natural for him to have formed an attachment with her.  While Alison seems hesitant about accepting his offer, it is nice to see that these two are on speaking terms.  We know that in present day, Noah and Cole are working together to find Alison, but is he completely over Alison?  Even though he clearly has feelings for his boss, Janelle, Alison still seems to have an impact over Noah.

4

“You have me.”

In part two, we see everything from Cole’s perspective and learn that Luisa is trying to get her green card.  Cole is initially excited to hear about this until he learns what Luisa is planning.  Luisa wants Alison to declare herself as an unfit mother to Joanie so that she can be Joanie’s legal guardian, which would help her case to obtain her citizenship.  Even though she says this will only be on paper, Cole is shocked and appalled by this request.  He explains that it will break Alison’s heart and reminds Luisa that she has him and that should be enough.  Luisa replies, “I don’t know,” suggesting that she doesn’t even know if she really has Cole’s heart anymore.  Cole is sick and tired of Luisa turning this into a competition between her and Alison, but is Luisa on to something?  Perhaps she didn’t want to bring it up before, but there have still been signs that Cole is not over Alison yet and I’m not sure that he ever will be.  Is this request enough to push him over the edge?

3

“Does she know you’re married?”

In part two, Cole tries to be a Good Samaritan and takes Bram to an AA meeting against his will.  Bram comically tries to say that Cole is kidnapping him, but Cole tells him to be quiet and just listen.  Sure enough, it’s a small world in Long Island and Cole meets Ben at the meeting.  Ben shares his own story and battle with addiction and tells everyone that he met someone and that “she’s like the woman I’ve been looking for my whole life.”   Cole thinks that Ben might be a good sponsor for Bram and tries to introduce himself after the meeting.  Ben explains that he needs to get home to his wife and kids and Cole asks him about the girl he was talking about.  Ben shrugs this off and tells him it’s complicated, but has no idea how complicated this is about to get when their paths cross again.  When Cole comes to pick up Joanie, Alison is waiting for her date to pick her up and he meets Ben for the second time.  Cole asks Ben if Alison knows that he is married and he begs him not to tell her.  He explains that he wants to be able to tell her in his own time and Cole does what he asks of him.  It’s clear that Cole is doing this for Alison’s sake more than his, but it’s only a matter of time before these two clash over being in love with the same woman.

2

“I just need to know that I matter.”

Cole comes home and finds Luisa packing, as she tells him that she is going to leave.  After talking with his mother, Cherry, Cole learns that his father went on a “Walkabout,” which is kind of like a spiritual journey or a rite of passage.  Cherry says that his father left for six months and gives Cole the postcard that she received from him.  She doesn’t know much about what happened to him there, but she recognizes that Cole is clearly torn and in need of some time away to figure things out.  Cole asks Luisa if she would wait for him while he leaves for a while and she agrees.  When Cole takes off, he looks at the postcard from Morro Bay, California and heads off to the place where his father once went off to.  Whether he is looking for answers about himself or his family, it’s clear that Cole needs to take a break from all of the pressure surrounding him.  Will he find out what his heart truly desires or will he find himself even more lost than he was before?

1

“Close your eyes, take a breath…what do you notice?”

In part one, Alison is delighted to actually have a friend at the conference and agrees to be Ben’s partner during the EMDR role-play training.  EMDR is a form of treatment that involves reprocessing memories and traumas.  When Alison tries this out with Ben, she becomes overwhelmed from her memories of Gabriel and her own nightmares.  Ruth Wilson had me in tears during this moment, as she was so believable and so real.  You could not help sympathizing with her here.  Alison rushes out of the conference, but Ben is not ready to give up just yet.  He follows her and suggests that they spend the rest of the afternoon on a boat.  Alison agrees and these two truly open up to one another and share some of their deepest secrets and fears.  Alison confides in Ben and tells him that she thinks that her dream was a premonition and that she missed the sign to save her son.  She tells Ben things that she has never shared with anyone, including Cole and Noah.  Perhaps she feels that Ben will truly understand or perhaps there is a connection here that is truly transcendent.  After Alison and Ben kiss, Alison purposely falls back into the ocean and stays beneath the surface for just a moment.  Ben jumps in after her to make sure she is OK and she explains that she was just trying to get away from him for a moment.  Whether this is true or not, it’s clear that Alison is finally opening the door to all of her feelings and is no longer repressing them.  While Ben seems to be worthy of Alison, what will happen when she finds out the truth about his marriage?  Also, in present day, Detective Jeffries has confirmed that Alison is the one who is missing, no longer using vague descriptions like “she,” which means that Ben might have something to do with her disappearance.  We know that Ben is capable of hiding things from Alison, but is he keeping something dangerous from her?  Stay tuned!

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to post your own theories and thoughts on The Affair below in the comments section.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

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Ranking the top 5 heartbreaking moments from “Charmed”

Happy Friday TV Fans!  For today, I have once again returned to one of my old favorites, Charmed That’s right, the original Charmed.  Have you ever watched a show that just brings you to tears?  This is not always a bad thing, as it means that you are connecting to the show and the characters on a profound level.  Whether it is one of your favorite characters dying, an epic romance coming to end, or a moment of sheer vulnerability, there are some heartbreaking moments on television that still impact us today.  After many re-watches of Charmed, there are still certain moments that I recognize.  I find my heart start to skip faster, anticipating the worst, even hoping that somehow the outcome might be different with a re-watch.  However, the heartbreaking moment replays itself, still bringing tears to our eyes and tugging at our own feelings in the process.

There are so many of these moments in Charmed and it was difficult for me to narrow it down to just five, but there is something to be said about these three, or really four, powerful women who are just trying to find their way.  Sure there are demons and magical forces at play, but the moments of sacrifice and true selflessness remind us that we can all channel the “power of three” in our own lives.  We can’t always stop the tragic moments from happening, but we can do our very best to try to do the right thing and support our family and friends.  Please note spoilers are ahead if you have not gotten a chance to watch the full series yet.  My top 5 heartbreaking moments from Charmed are:

5

Andy’s sacrifice.

In the season 1 finale, “Déjà Vu All Over Again,” Tempus creates a time loop that causes the day to repeat itself over and over again.  While the characters are not aware that the day is repeating, Phoebe’s power of premonition allows her to realize what is happening.  Tempus uses Inspector Rodriguez to try and destroy the Charmed Ones.  Each time he fails, the time loop is reset.  When Phoebe first receives her premonition, she sees Andy dying and Prue wants to stop this from happening.  However, with each new attack, Inspector Rodriguez is able to kill one of the sisters.  When Prue is knocked out cold and Andy is killed, he speaks to her in a sort of limbo at their favorite bench.  Andy is Prue’s first real love and she doesn’t want to lose him.  However, Andy realizes that this is his destiny and explains to her that he will always be there for her.  When Prue wakes up, the reality that Andy is gone hits home, but she knows that she must stay strong for her sisters and defeat Inspector Rodriguez and Tempus.  Throughout season 1, Andy had an on-again-off-again romance with Prue, but he finally accepted her for who she was…powers and all.  Andy would do anything to save Prue and her sisters, which makes him a real hero.  He reminded Prue that “everything happens for a reason,” and sometimes things don’t always work out the way we want them to, but that doesn’t mean we stop fighting.  Andy’s sacrifice proves that mortal love is possible and that it’s never too late to stand by the ones we care about.

4

Piper’s death in season 2.

In the episode, “Awakened,” Piper is chopping up some smuggled fruit at the club and suddenly collapses.  After she is rushed to the hospital, we learn that she has been infected by a rare disease.  Her condition continues to get worse and Prue and Phoebe decide to use magic to save her.  We experience the consequences of “personal gain” first hand, as the sisters begin to realize that they will need to let their sister go.  They can’t use magic to stop what is happening no matter how much they want to without putting other lives in danger.  When Piper is dying in the hospital, the reactions of Prue, Phoebe, and Dan are absolutely heartbreaking.  Leo is able to intervene and he saves Piper, but this episode really struck home for me.  While it’s easy to root for the sisters to destroy the forces of evil, a disease is something that you can’t always fight and you don’t have control over it, which can make you feel completely helpless.  The acting in this episode is phenomenal and Shannen Doherty’s performance in particular really tugged at my emotions.  Her pain and anger about the situation was beyond tragic, making her that much more sympathetic in this difficult moment.

3

Piper’s speech to The Elders.

In the season 3 episode, “Once Upon a Time,” Piper has a nightmare and ultimately learns that The Elders are forbidding for her and Leo to be together.  Piper goes outside the club to take a moment to breathe and is attacked by invisible trolls.  She gets knocked to the ground and dusts herself off, but not before she gives The Elders a piece of her mind.  Piper says:

I bet you guys think this is real funny don’t ya? Haven’t you taken enough from me? You have to send trolls to kick me while I’m down. I had a nice normal life once and you took that from me. You took my boyfriend, you took my life, the least you could do is leave me my freakin’ car keys. I am a good person, I am a good witch and damn it I would’ve made a great wife. And how dare you take that from me. I deserve… no, you know what? I demand that you send him back to me. You hear me? Right now. I am going to stand in this very spot until you send Leo back to me.

Source: https://www.quotes.net/mquote/701902

Piper lets her guard down here and refuses to just sit quietly and accept her fate.  She stands up for herself and demands that The Elders do what is right.  While they don’t send Leo back in this scene, this is one of the key moments for Piper and Leo’s relationship.  Piper never stops fighting for Leo and it’s hard not to let your heart break for her here.

2

Cole’s letter to Phoebe.

 In the season 4 episode, “Long Live the Queen,” Phoebe has accepted her new role as Cole’s queen, but is having second thoughts.  She doesn’t want to lose her sisters and the good in her still exists.  Phoebe is completely torn between the love of her life, Cole, and her family, but she ultimately sacrifices her love for Cole and helps vanquish him.  Even when Phoebe begins saying the spell with her sisters, Cole tells her that he’ll always love her.  Although they try to vanquish Cole “from time and space,” we know that this is not the end just yet for him.  However, this moment feels final and tragic.  Phoebe loves Cole so much but she has to let him go.  At the end of the episode, she is upstairs crying and Piper and Paige get in bed with her to console her.  They don’t say anything in this moment because there really aren’t any words that will make her feel better, but their presence is enough to give Phoebe some sense of comfort, as she knows she is not alone.  In the episode, “Womb Raider,” Paige finds the letter Cole wrote to Phoebe and he narrates it at the end of the episode:

Dear Phoebe, 
If I’m dead right now, 
I know it was at your 
hand. No one else in 
heaven or hell had 
Power over me. Please, 
don’t cry. I was dead 
Before I met you. I was 
Born the day you loved 
me. And my love for you 
will keep me alive… 
Forever 
Love, 
Cole 

Source:  http://charmed.wikia.com/wiki/Cole%27s_Goodbye_Letter_to_Phoebe

 

Cole’s words to Phoebe are so beautiful and real, reminding her that he did truly love her deep down.  While Cole was not able to stop the evil from corrupting him, his love for Phoebe always remained, even keeping him alive later in limbo.

1

Piper’s reaction to Prue’s death.

In season 4, we learn that Prue did die in the season 3 finale and Paige is introduced as Piper and Phoebe’s half-sister.  Prue was one of my favorite characters and her death alone was enough to make me cry, but Piper’s reaction to it was something even more tragic.  In the season 4 premiere, Piper is trying every possible spell imaginable to bring Prue back from the dead.  As she gets ready for the funeral, she tells Leo that she doesn’t want to go while she mechanically brushes her hair.  She explains that if she goes, then it means that it’s all real and Prue will not be coming back.  Piper says that she doesn’t know how to live without a big sister and tells Leo that he should have saved Prue because she was the strongest.  In the next episode, “Hell Hath No Fury,” Piper gets turned into a Fury and Leo orbs her and Paige to Prue’s grave.  Piper lets out all of her anger and Paige tells her to tell Prue how she feels.  She tells her it’s alright to hate her.  Piper breaks down screaming and crying, yelling at Prue for abandoning her.  This turns her back into her normal self, but the tears won’t stop falling and all of the emotions hit Piper at once.  Piper finally lets her emotions reach the surface and her reaction is something that really resonates with me.  The show is about family before anything else and Piper can’t imagine a world without her sister in it.  While she will never forget Prue or stop loving her, Piper visits Paige later in the episode and even says, “she’s my sister,” which proves that she can still love Prue and open her heart to Paige as well.

I hope you enjoyed the list and feel free to share some of your own heartbreaking moments from Charmed in the comments section below.  Thanks so much for reading and happy viewing!

Best,

Amy Koto, TV Fanatic Girl

@TV_Fanatic_Girl

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